Thanks to Business Objects' Open House Presentation today, I found my direction for work....
I am 90% sure that if I work for a software company, I would either want to work on database or UI development cuz during any other presentations I was half asleep.... =P I dun think I would like a job as a hardcore programmer anyway...
Well I guess it also helped that the presenter for DB team had a super cool british accent... and the UI team had a super HOT presenter.... omg....XD
So now a new option has opened up for me.... I either find a job related to those 2 fields.... or I go into Masters for HCI.

Hmm............... ! After some research, it looks like I do fulfill the minimum requirements for grad school in UBC.... but if I do decide to do masters... I will need to take GRE. -_-;;
That's something to think about.

好人註定要泄底

Pon and Zi.... =)

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Shit. no time. must push harder.no more excuses. must keep going.
強くなるぜ。　つらいでも泣かないで頑張ろう。
tough.it.out.

Since someone requested a change of background music.... I've changed it.
After.... how many years now?
This blog has been up for 7 years with this post being my 1746th post...
The music you are listening to is "The Duet" from Corpse' Bride.... so depressingly beautiful.
"pardon my enthusiasm...."
"I like your enthusiasm."

Failing myself.... *sigh*
I've sunken to a new level of ja-ness.
At times like this I really feel like... giving up.......

ダメだ。
どうしてもダメだ。
信じられなくてもいいけど
弱すぎるよ、私が。
今回は行く前にもう負けちゃった。

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"こんな顔をみせるのは
本当は好きじゃないけど
僕だっていつも　ピエロみたいに
笑えるわけじゃないから

雨の日には濡れて　晴れた日には乾いて
寒い日には震えてるのは当たり前だろう
次の日には忘れて　風の日には飛ぼうとしてみる
そんなもんさ

泣いたことのない君は
とても弱い人だから
誰かに見られて
優しくされると
崩れそうになるけど　でも

Go cry
go smile
Its something good to do to live as you want
I'm on your side
Your life is all yours
So don't let other people force you to be good
Be kind to yourself

だから
雪の日には凍えて　雷には怯えて
月の日には辺りがよく見えたりもしてて
次の日には忘れて　風の日には飛ぼうとしてみる
そんなもんさ　僕らはそんなもんさ"
-Ellegarden, 風の日

Why are people so difficult?

唔可以再懶..... ! 加油!

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Lose my temper so easily these days.....
I need more self-control....

Important dates for April:
5 - 319 presentation (looking forward to FINISHING it) XD
5 - VRC (finally... dun have to worry about doing work after I go home!)
6 - Yum Cha w/family and kau fu/mo
7 - Saturday training & hang out
8 - Baddy club & Friends year end dinner
12 - Last day of school.. forever!! + Dinner with Meg, Billy and Clem
14/15 - RICHMOND PRO TOURNEY!!
18 - 319 Final @ 8:30am
21 - Saturday training & hang out
25 - STAT Final @ 7pm
27 - JAPN Final @ 8:30am.... finishing my last final... EVER!
28/29 - BC CLOSED TOURNEY!!

And sometime in between that... Baddy Club EXECS DINNER and STEAK dinner... =)
then shortly after that... BN Reunion...!!! After 10 years... =)
And AFTER that.. I've got the WHOLE SUMMER to play............ WOOOOOOOOOOOOOT! XD

Exhausted...
been sleeping average of 5 hours every night,
I'm STILL sick (shit its been a week),
I'm extremely sore from 1 hour of smashing and circuit training,
I am mentally drained from 6 hours of 319,
I uncontrollably ticked my mom off by saying how slow I am at MJ is none of her business (which really IS none of her business....)
and I still have to memorize my 10 minute Japanese presentation which is tomorrow (and yes, its in japanese!! what a surprise!!)
Oh wait... I forgot to mention that I still have work tonight till 12am!!!
I am literally a walking corpse...
at least there is something to keep me alive still.

Oh... and I am most likely not going to Nationals this year...
本当に行きたかったのに....... 残念だけど .... しょうがない。

Thursday....