DRUNKEN MASTER!
*jui kuen?? lol...

I'm being wasteful today...
Spent $40 buying books (Sophie's World, Confessions of a Shopaholic, the 5 ppl u meet in heaven) when I'm still only halfway thru the first LOTR...
It's getting very interesting though... =)

PG team lost to PW 5-6 with their last game going into 3rd set!
hehe cheers to them... either we have a stronger team this year, or PW has a much weaker team...
more reason to train them even harder... heh...
Played the racket passing game today.. hehe I think it's good for their team spirit... plus, it's a good game to get them aware of the need for cooperation..
I'm thinking of getting my NCCP level 1 next year.. hmmm...

Hmm... I wonder how this weekend will be like...
I am predicting that the baddy club will be SUPER crowded this friday (tomorrow)... hehe...

Things I gotta do tonight:
-English stuff
-Think HARDER about 320
that's about it.. jap can wait. heh...

I had another weird dream last night:
It was like a movie... I was watching a girl and a boy...
They were in the middle of a really really dark place.. somewhere like a forest... in the middle there was a pond, but it was so dark that the water was pitch black...
The girl walked slowly into the pond... the boy was thinking "when she steps into the ditch the waves will create a tsunami and suck her in... I must carry her out of it before she drowns".. as the girl stepped into it, the boy immediately saved her... unfortunately, the girl's mom drowned (duno where her mom came from.. !?). The girl was really mad at the boy... she loathed him for not saving his mom...Then, they went into a small lodge beside the pond...
I don't remember what happened after it...
such a dark dream... I don't remember myself feeling scared though.
What is my dream telling me?

Things I have to do before next monday:
Buy textbook tomorrow
Go over english stuff
Go over essay
Complete 320 assignment
Complete 221 assignment

To do when I'm back:
221 MT
310 assignment
japn essay
maybe catch up on econ reading? haha...

If I could, I would give you all my energy, my time and my sleep...
Hang in there!!

All addictions are a mental thing.
Have a strong mind...
free yourself!

Things I have to do:
-Microsoft presentation on monday
-Buy textbook from Janice on tues $68 @ 1:30
-talk to Jenn about friday
-coaching forms on tuesday
-320 assignment due next monday
-221 mt next tues
-discuss/propose club tourney details
-get contacts.. maybe?

I've been getting weird inspirations...
Last night I dreamt of a guy promoting toys from the 60's outside my door, but my family and I ignored him (altho we kept our door open). He was there smiling and showing us the toys even though none of us were listening to him. I dreamt that I went home carrying new toothbrushes that I bought. They were "new style" toothbrushes with a capsule thing in the middle where you can refill with toothpaste, and that is supposed to help you brush your teeth more efficiently (don't ask me how that works..I have no idea).. and also, there were other small tools to help renovation in the house..it was quite weird.
hah... I should invent new toothbrushes and sell the idea to Colgate. heh...

Played MJ last night... @_@.. haha lost again...
I think the style people play MJ actually reflects our personalities... heh
take me, as an example... I don't think much when I play... don't "kau" other ppl's "pai" when I play much.... I will very quickly recognize what I want to "jo" and then I will just go for it...
some people.. they like to collect a few different kind of "pai"s.. then see what else they get then decide what to "jo".. or they will decide to take in all kinds and "sick ping woo"... it's small, but it's easy to "jo" and easy to "sick".
some people.. they don't care if their "pai" is small... they go for wins... quantity over quality.... they believe that a few small wins would be the same as one big win...
some people... they like to "kau juu saai" other ppl's pai's... they don't get to "sick woo", but wat the heck, others don't either.
some people... they play with instinct... watever they feel is a good "pai" they will go along with... and sometimes they end up winning despite all the plannings of other people..
hahaha my MJ philosophy! hehee...

I like to observe human behaviours... hehe
I think it'd be nice if I were invisible.. then I can just sit somewhere and watch people without being stared at...
Every question, every action, every interaction will most undoubtly show something about one's personality...
It is interesting to see what they base their actions upon.. what kind of experience, what kind of morals, and what kind of beliefs they have in their mind that rule their responses...
I don't know why I'm not studying psychology!! haha...

Somebody ought to tell us that we're too spoilt,
and that we ought to stop taking everything for granted.

Have the sudden urge to try out contacts again. hehe...
The last time I had those were in grade 10??
But I got too lazy..... and I couldn't play badminton in contacts.. -_-;;
Now that I think about it, it must've been a mentality thing..
how can I not see better in contacts????
Oh well... doesn't hurt to try again.. hehe
maybe after Island Open..... =p

I was reminded of a scar last night....
All of a sudden........ I realize that I have a scar beside my left eye..
hah I think I've lived with it for so long that I've forgotten its existence...
The scar... heh, it has caused a great deal of regret to my dad..
It's a bad sign that I'm starting to recognize it.....
very bad sign......

Do you bite your nails?
Brian said that according to psychological studies, biting nails represents the feeling of lack of security.
Hmmm.. is that true???

"The things we touch have no permanence. My master would say: there is nothing we can hold onto in this world. Only by letting go can we truly possess what is real."
-Li Mu Bai (Chow Yun-Fat), Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon

Icing the wounds....
a temporary solution?
I think I really need a break soon,
or I will break....
Maybe... after jack underhill!

Funniest comment of the night:
Vincent: I am a sick guy!

We never appreciate the people close to us enough.
Future prophecies...
I wonder where each of us will end up in 20 years... heh
My dad and mom will be ~70...
and my bro will be ~40, with a family probably.. (now THAT'S hard to imagine)
my friends, maybe married but probably all living happy, successful lives..
and me... what will I become in 20 years?

"An error is not a mistake until you refuse to fix it".

Life starting to get busy again.. =)
Kinda enjoy it after 8 months of boredom...
but then I am starting to miss the worry-free-ness of it too...
haha... the ideal would be to be busy when i was working and to be relaxed when I'm studying..... right? heh...
We always want what we don't have..... hehehe....
but it's ok! I'm thankful for all I've got right now. ;)

Mixed ladder @ VRC...
Lost to the Britten's then to Jan and Phoebe...
heh... it's alright, it's a worthy lost, those two teams went into 3 sets..
but I did feel like I wasn't completely warmed up in the first game... upper back started so feel sooo tight it started to hurt when I bend down (which is wat I can't not do in mixed)....
OH well!! I think we did alright... just need to work on our partnership more!

Cpsc 320 is brutal........
taking the course is like (or worse than) hammering your brain 20 times until it feels all mushy.
somebody... help me....

Finally decided the PG baddy team members...
heh... sad to say, but the quality seems to be degrading every year.. >=(
still need to talk to a few individuals about their conducts and court etiquettes..
decide on the spares and lineup for next Wed's game...
Scan the forms and forward them to all other volunteer coaches...
Oh man....
One funny thing: Shaolin junior (not Shaopin) is in the team.. hehe.... soooo alike!

Maudlin sentiments..
...blame it on pms. =p

The start of:
homework
PG baddy season
Badminton Club
unpleasant dwellings
confusion in classes
slacking off... hehe

How much is your degree worth?
Click to see
Comp sci is actually top 3 in the list! Muhahaha....
The complete article

My chiropracter said what I need the most is REST...

I like being @ the badminton club booth...
you get to see interesting people...
This caucasian girl came by yesterday with tons of questions...
she ended up paying the deposit but before she signed the waiver she kept saying "This is a bull-shit waiver!"
Well... the waiver is there to make sure that we don't get sued if you happen to idiotically hit yourself with your racket or somethin...
if it weren't for the well-being of the club I would've just said "Sign it or leave it...we're not desperate for members anyway."
Such... grrrr-ness.
There are nice people who take the FYI's and put them back (probably after reading the price)... but there are also people who take them just cuz they look pretty...
$80 gone in the first day!!! James, james, james....
There are also people who sign up, then realize it costs them $40 to join then decide to back out... haha... it's kinda funny... you'd look at the price before you buy something wouldn't you? hehe..
There are people who would come, reading our FYI's, waiting for someone to attend to them... but there are also people who would come and look around, but when we talk to them they run away......
Human behaviours are very, very interesting indeed.....

將好運透支.

My right ear drum wouldn't stop pulsing...
freakin annoying.......

Shoot, now that I think about it,
I believe I was supposed to write a japanese journal this weekend.
Bleh........

I woke up this morning in the crappiest mood thinking:
if i get off this bed, I either end up feeling way worse... or way better...
~and though life has discouraged me some time in between,
I ended up feeling much, much better... =)

things to do:
Scan card
proof-read essay
320 assignment
221 assignment
Sign up for island open
PG baddy tryouts
Chiropracter @ 2:30 tues
Buy textbook tomorrow at 1

What the hell am I doing?
What I do never seem to be enough.

Was pressured into going to family dinner again next week..
I hate it when people pressure me into doing things...
I couldn't find a way to reject the invitation without being mean or pissing my dad off........
ARGH............. !!

Feeling semi antisocial today.
2 girls were speaking too much in my jap class..
I couldn't stop falling asleep in 320...

[3:25am]
this has got to be one of the worst days ever...
I forgot something I shouldn't have forgotten,
I did something I shouldn't have done,
and I said something I shouldn't have said...
Damn it.........

The night before Dewi leaves to Japan...  

Hung out @ Dewi's b4 she left to Japan for a year...
Watched "Joey" for a while.. hehe not as funny as "friends"!
Then we sat around and watched TV and chatted for the longest time...
Lisa says the most hilarious things...
-her thinking everyone's "Jewish"
-Her robotic dance when Mel's cellphone rings
-Her saying "I know I'm really girly outside, but... I think I can be a man"
-finally learnt about the burning of her hair.. haha
forgot the rest.... hehe Lisa's funny.
Watched some old videos for japanese class.. hehee soo funny...
And videos of Dewi's birthday parties and the sleepover...
=) It was fun......
Let's see where all of us will be in a year when Dewi's back. hehe..

it lingers on my mind...
i seek to find
the shawdow inside
forcing my drawers
to unlock themselves
the stroke of a tear
the sound of mercy
things I don't hear
when I am occupied
fighting with chaos
arrays of images
deciphers of thoughts
they told me I'm not
one of their kind
but I can't stop,
it still lingers on my mind...

-a poem of random thoughts...

Today's been a great day....
It started off with busing to UBC... my first time busing TO ubc... =) and it wasn't too bad...
then there was lunch... which is great regardless...
then math 221... I feel like I understand so much cuz I actually PREVIEWED the stuff..
then Cpsc 320.. in which I actually understood the proofs and found them INTERESTING..
then Cpsc 310... where I zoned out thinking of... happy stuff... and met new friend called Mency (weird name) with nice sounding HK-British accent. hehe..
then Econ 310.. which is great regardless as well.
then Studying for econ, dinner, and after dinner was alllll sweetness. =)
Haha... I feel like a nerd... I wonder how long this nerdiness will last...
Suddenly, there is so much pleasure in going to classes......
We shall work hard together and excel..! =)

Interesting observation:
Although this may not be true for all cases,
For a lot of people, the more physically independent they look,
the more emotionally dependent they are.......

Winnie and Dewi are leaving on Friday...
1 year... would you consider that a long or short time??
Nonetheless.. I'm sure it'll be a worthwhile year for you guys.. =)
Good luck in Japan!!

It's must've been at least 8 years since I last saw Deborah...
and then there she was today... studying in UBC!!! =D
So I WASN'T hallucinating when I thought I saw her last time...
hehe... it's nice to see old friends...
Also bumped into Curtis and Alvin (ex-PG baddy team), haha..
good to be seeing familiar faces...
It's always nice to stick around and chat for a bit with them...
though.... I must say that some time is better spent in recluse...

Today = 徒勞無功....
頻頻撲撲﹐結果都係得個吉.
Realized that Comm minor forms don't come out till February 05...

Chiro said my legs are actually quite flexible...
Just that I overwork my muscles too much... -_-;;
Need to go on a bike to work off the lactic acid and work on AB muscles..
haha I hate working on AB muscles.. ><

Today was the best-est day I've had in a few months... =D
Suupppper duppperrr happy......... =)
Thankyou for making my day extraordinary...... heee...
Thanks for keeping me sooooo warm and comfy outside in the cold...the 5th thing? hehee
Dinner @ Anducci's pasta... mMm... Linguine (should've gotten fettucine, but still good) with mixed seafood sauce... soooo good!!! 2 thumbs up!
When I got home I actually STUDIED... haha..
how unbelievable..
aside from earning money and experience, co-op also allows one to realize the FUN and GOODNESS of school...

Everyone seems to have ceased their blogging/xanga-ing once school started..
haha perhaps I'm the one who's updating too often...
Why do I have so much free time on my hands? heh....
Applied for a Cpsc TA job but.. hmm.. doubt they'll hire me due to my grades.. heh =p

Kids... especially those who excel in an area...
they usually have no tolerance or understanding to those weaker than them who are trying so hard to catch up.....
It is only logical to be nice to everyone.. both to those who are stronger and those who are weaker, because you never know... you never know when the weaker ones will catch up and even exceed your level, so there really is no point in looking down on anyone... it is bad karma too cuz most likely, when that person eventually beats you he will most likely look down on you in return.
the point is... I don't like it when people (especially kids) get cocky.
AND, i also don't like it when in doubles (girl+guy vs guy+guy) the guys never smash at the girl. =p

Wow... so physically + mentally tired today..
physically tired from training... 100 star jumps.. haven't had a good workout for so long...
mentally tired from watching the movie "The Butterfly Effect".. I wonder why people say it's a bad movie because, imho, it was a pretty good movie... made me think..
So if you had the power to go back in time and change history...... would you?
Fascinating because there are endless possibilities to what you could end up being/doing now if you had the power......
One little change and you could change the life of someone else completely......
such a risky task..... not only do you have to balance your own karma.. you now have to balance the whole world's karma.............. if you stop one bad thing from happening, u'd have to sacrifice someone else or yourself to pay for it...
heh.. very interesting movie.. I recommend the movie to all of you who hasn't seen it yet!
Now I wanna watch "dai jek lo"....

Another movie I also watched tonight was "Hellboy"..
hehe I generally liked the idea of the movie except some parts of it was illogical and the scriptwrite was kinda crappy...
"What's wrong with you???" hahah....... that stupid officer..
I liked the blue slimy guy who have psychic powers and have webbed legs and water bubbles around his neck.. hehee he's cool.
Anyhow.. this movie is so-so... Spiderman would be a better superhero movie.. =p

If...
then...
else...?

Should I try to apply for an on-campus part-time job?
Hmmm.. the job nature sounds interesting.. and it pays well too!
Plus.. I only have 2 hours of class on tuesday and get off at 1.
But... after 8 months of work.. do I wanna work some more???
ah.............................
I will ponder on this question for a while.......

Such an eventful day today...
Went to school for 1 hr Jap... I forgot all the verb forms already.. passive? causative? potential? violition?? ><.. somebody help me...
Then, went to "drink tea" with dad and bro... mmM... the 3 of us had 5 BIG dim, 3 MIDDLE dim and 2 SMALL dim. heheee... so full...
Then, went to Starbucks w/ Jenz, Mel, Shao and Dewi! Double chocolate frap.. hmmm.. first sip doesn't taste that good, but it got better in the end... hehe I like how you can chew on the ice and the chocolate chips....
Then, went to One More Sushi to have dinner with Delen and Teo...mMm.. good raw oysters there for $1 each! hehee soo good... and funny conversations about peaking in badminton..
Then, went to VRC for mixed ladder.. lost horribly first to Leslie and Immy then to Jenn and Jonathan... /_\... played sooo poorly today I wasn't sure where I was hitting the bird. *sigh*... feel so out of condition again.. must start swimming/work out!!! Stop being so lazy!! ><...
My thumb is still weird... whenever I press on a certain spot the middle of my thumb would feel numb and it starts to hurt after a while... need to wear bandage whenever I baddy now... =(
Such a depressing VRC day for me.....
Got a free massage from Delen @ VRC tho... hehe ahh... my back felt sooo good after. hehee.. thanks Delen! Repay u with massage next time.

I duno why I always get un-focused at VRC now...
all of a sudden all the lights would seem really really bright....
plus, I think I'm really sensitive to sunlight...
sometimes I can't open my eyes even when the sun's covered by clouds...
Aiya... I think it's my sleeping habits....booo.....

a song my dad always sings:
"It’s a long, road to freedom,
a winding steep and high.
But if you walk in love with the wind on your minds,
cover the earth with the songs you sing,
miles fly by"
Freedom....
what are your burdens?

Things 2 do:
-Burn Dido CD
-Baddy club poster
-Dentist's appointment to clean teeth (Oct. 26th)
-Go swimming
-Contact Rackets and Runners
-Sew pads onto swimsuit
-remind Cowz to bring glue next time
-Apply to Comm minor (need to be done by May 2005)
-Dinner thursday @~4
-Watch "finding nemo"
-Buy CPSC 310 package
-Badminton club meeting
-Buy sunglasses

Switched from using instantlogic to imagestation cuz their site shutdown..
My pix
I added the Calgary pix and some pix of my workplace....
nice viewing!

Pros of imagestation:
-it's FREE!
-Unlimited storage space
Cons of imagestation:
-DirectX plugin only works with IE
-Poorly structured site
-Link is hard to remember (especially with the ?)
Haha... that's my little review.

Back to school day 2...
weather turned rainy... ><

First day of school.. and my 8 months of nothingness/work is over!
Out of the list of 27 things to do, I accomplished 19 of them..
pretty good eh? hehe..
List of things I STILL have to do even tho now I'm not free anymore:
-Burn Dido CD
-Baddy club poster
-Dentist's appointment to clean teeth
-Go swimming
-Contact Rackets and Runners
-Sew pads onto swimsuit
-remind Cowz to bring glue next time
-Apply to Comm minor (need to be done by May 2005)
-Dinner thursday @~4
-Watch "finding nemo"

First day of back-to-school... even tho I only had one class..
interesting things happenin:
-My Japn 200 teacher looks like a younger version of Oyama sensei.. hehe with exactly the same haircut and style of dressing.... funny
-I took the wrong timetable to school resulting in me going to the wrong classroom-- I met Bearz there and also bumped into Satoko!
-While I was buying water from the huge vending machine, I randomly picked one of the 8 columns of water but happened to choose one that was stuck. -_-;; Not being able to dispense any water, the machine returned my money. I then tried again, this time picking another column. The machine's display said "Sold out" when there were obviously still lots of water in the column -_-;; so I finally picked yet another column and it finally gave me my water... haha weird machine!!!
-Found out they tore down the parking lot outside SRC and turned it into a bus loop because they are planning to build an underground bus transit all the way from UBC to Blanca.... who came up with THAT idea??? Is that where our U-Pass $ is going to? -_-;;
-My bro drove home today without me (we're sharing a parking pass)... I went home, asked him why and the best answer he could give me was "I forgot..."... hah.........thanks cj for the ride... =D
-Went to baddy @ VRC and saw Sally Yip (Yip Seen Mun) there baddying... hehee she's actually not bad!

Went to the UBC bookstore and glanced through some books today during my break...
I wanna buy a few of the fiction books... like "Sophie's World"..
but I can probably borrow them from the library. hmmm...?
Maybe I should finish my set of "Lord of the Rings" first. hehe...

Such a nice sunny day today...
makes me feel happy =D
especially when ur by my side... ;)

Things to do now that I am free:
-Get U-pass
-Get Parking pass
-Call Thereza
-Burn Dido CD
-Buy japn textbook (waiting for Dewi)
-Hand in co-op stuff
-email co-workers pictures
-Baddy club poster (waiting for gym times)
-Download bleach from Shao's site
-Hotel party?(Cancelled)
-Get haircut
-Dentist's appointment to clean teeth
-Wash car
-Go swimming
-Bake
-See chiropracter (book appt.)
-Buy swimsuit
-Contact Rackets and Runners
-Dinner thursday night
-Dinner Saturday night
-Sew pads onto swimsuit
-Finish writing letter to Steph
-Scan pic and put story in site
-Give Windelen: Tape, DVD, VCDs
-remind Cowz to bring glue next time
-Apply to Comm minor (need to be done by May 2005)

How come my list of things to do just keeps getting longer...?

"What you have become is the price you paid to get what you used to want."
-Mignon McLaughlin

I had a nice weekend... =)
Saturday... baddied/trained for a total of 4.5 hours (including waiting time)...
sooo tired.. but got to see cj so I was =)
Dinner with K So and Braz and then MJ-ed with them and Betty...
I think the phrase of the night was K So's "0甘又唔見我攬住你?" to Betty.. haha
By the end of the night I was so tired I threw out a 9 索 when I was trying to 做十三么.... @_@
Sunday... got to see cj again... relaxing afternoon.. =)
and then hotpot @ Sa Bou.. (not shabu shabu.. lol) it was funny..
-All the fights for the beef.....
-the cellphone darts game that I burst but still won...
-Mel saying "I eat oysters but I didn't say I'll eat them"...
-Pin and I thinking that Mel's pants looks like Umpire pants (sorry Mel.. hehe)
-Jim's fanatic about folding the faces of the people on money
-Winnie screaming when Mel gave her the shrimp.. haha
Watched "Metropolis" afterwards... it's a greeat animated movie....
The graphics are super nice... the movie talks about a world where humans and robots live together... with multiple layered cities with rich and properous people living above the ground and the poor underneath... the clashes between robots and humans... the rebel..Rock's loyalty and love towards his father who doesn't love him and the story revolves around a robotic girl who doesn't know she's a robot...
Very very interesting movie........ in the end the girl asked: "Watashi wa dare?" (winnie: stop saying that!)...
Are robots who are free of emotions and feelings and are not tied down by morals and love superior compared to humans???
Monday... met up with Christine, Maggie and Cindy b4 Christine leaves for Toronto..
I'm surprised to find out that Maggie's aunt was in one of the "G Wing" commercials.. -_-;;
It was nice catching up with them...... Christine left at 4 to the airport..
After dinner talked to Delen for the longest time...... no matter what we talk about we always end up at the same conclusion...... hahaha... and that conclusion is... *secret*

Yawn.... 8 months of doing nothing.
I think my brain's rotting.....
it's time I shake off the dust!!!

What have I become???
or...
what am I becoming?

己所不欲﹐
勿施於人.

Darryl's advice: CREATE ANGLES...
hmm... so easy to say, so hard to do......

They changed the course time for my CPSC course AGAIN!!!
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRrrrrrrrrr..................
make up your mind!!! Damn UBC................

I don't know what happened last night because all of a sudden, all negative thoughts and feelings all rushed into my head right before I wanted to sleep. As a result it took me quite a while before I finally fell asleep.... stupid little things that life does to us.
On the contrary, today was great..
it made up for it all. =)

Dinner @ Amarosa... with the baddy gang...mMm.. linguine + garlic wine sauce w/ clams, chicken and italian sausages.... and today's special.. garlic bread for $1... soooo worth it... =)
Kinda slow-paced but jokes-filled Uno games before and after the dinner... good stuff!! hehe..
Ahh... such a wonderful day... =D

Watched "Bourne Supremacy" last night...
The story line was pretty good I thought, lots of action and suspense..
I like what Jason always does..... call someone and right before he hangs up, say something to reveal his surveilance over the person he's talking to. Sooo sneaky, but so cool! =)
However, the camera was swerving around too much... that added onto the widescreen plus the poorly designed chairs in Silvercity which forced my head downwards making me look up at the screen all the time, made me feel really dizzy and pukey... haha both Cowz and I were @_@ after the movie...
I'd recommend you to watch this movie on a video instead!!
It's a good watch!! =)

Welcoming the return of Juu pei ngau!! heheee...

Missing an old friend.......... 

Did a minor update to my homepage (how rare)..
Was rummaging through my highschool notes in effort to clean stuff up a bit... and I came across a short story that I wrote in English 11. I like that story a lot and decided to put it on my site. If you're interested, go here. The story is written by me, Jim and some other guy in my class.

Today's the day.... =)
Happy Anniversary.

Hope you'll recover soon... take care!!!