I looked back, and yet I remained silent at the sight of her weary body walking towards her bedroom.
I feel awful.. I am such a horrible daughter...
I'm sorry... I love u mom... I am just.. unable to express my feelings =(
I've decided to spend my weekend with her before I leave to Calgary next week...

Things to do with mom:
-make tofu pudding!
-watch more vcds
-make her chocolate
-buy candles to go with her mother's day gift
-shopping, perhaps?
-talk to her more...

Bro's bday present: airtickets flying to and fro Vancouver and Calgary to watch his graduation!! Costed me $320... >=p

Still owe Delen $100... and Mark $15?..

Watched "Someone like me" today...
It was okay... sorta romantic comedy...
but the best part was Hugh Jackman (haha) and the "new cow theory".... lol..
it's funny cuz in the movie, Ashley Judd was comparing all men to cows... haha
anyhow.. that wasn't as good as the vcd we watched yesterday.. "一見鐘情"... same type of story.. except it has Leon Lai and Maggie Cheng starring in it.
The question of the story was...激情過後是溫馨﹐溫馨過後是沉默﹐and what happens in the end? =p
You watch the movie urself and find out...
The movie also involved two pairs of male homosexuals... it's so cool the way they present it...... it's like there's no discrimination at all. =)
Nirvana...... a place where you can seek comfort and silence. Does it exist??
有0甘好彩嗎? 有時候, 幸福就在你手. 可是絕大部份時間, 我們都讓別人掌管自己的幸福.
0甘點呀? 開心咪得lor... ;)

Woohoo.. fast recovery from hitting the dumps a weekend ago.
Paid! Thanks for being there... you give me strength to overcome. =)

Now I must work my patpat off b4 I leave to Calgary...
I can't wait!!! =D

2 years..
After 2 years I finally framed my grad pictures. =)
And tomorrow I'm hanging them up on my wall!!! Two pix with the best friends I've been through my high school life with....... hehee
I probably only talk to less than half of those peeps now... but all my friends out there... take care... we shall meet again!!! hehe...

To do:
-Book appointment for car service
-Buy photo frames

Troy...
If you like war and killing, or if you'd like to admire Brad Pitt/Orlando Bloom for 2.5 hours, then go watch it! It's worth the $10.. hahaha
I thought the king of Troy was very stupid! Makes so many careless decisions listening to those "bun sun"s..... wouldn't listen to his own kids....
And also.. Paris... such a coward.... *sigh*. He's brave enuf to take someone else's wife but he's not brave enuf to face death. So I suppose if Agamenon said he'll have to choose between his death or the princess' death, he would've chosen the latter. =p
It's so.. mung.. haha this story is not so much about respecting and sacrificing.... it's all about how people's dumb mistakes causes deaths... one after another!!!
haha... nonetheless I still found it entertaining... so... go watch it!

This weekend passed by so fast.. ><
Don't want it to end!! hehe...
If we can just.. u kno.. rewind time back to Saturday....
hehe... such laziness... I just wanna indulge in happiness+love+fun+laziness everyday... heheeee... wake up!! wake up!!!

Oohhh man... enuf of my moodiness and my rants.. =p

Shrek 2... go watch it!!! hehe..
if you liked Shrek, I'm sure you'll like the sequel.. it's equally as good, if not better, than the first one!! haha....
there's a lot of movie imitations and there's Simpsons type adult jokes too.. hahaha... like.. not sick jokes, but adult jokes...
I better not ruin it for the peeps who haven't seen it yet *cough*Mel*cough*...
haha go watch it!! I love Pinocchio.. hehe "I'm a real boy!!"

I hate my screwed up back..
if it'd grow back by itself I'd amputate it right away.

What is the reason for my recent irrational behaviour??
I've been doing some thinking and I believe this is the most probable answer.
Why? Think... a drug addict with no drugs.
I'm a badminton addict who can't play badminton......
VRC is a freezing hell..... everything drives me to play but I just can't.
I'm sure I would've felt worse tho, had I stayed home.
Stuck home bored with nothing to do on a friday night......... wat a loser.
God damnit. With no badminton, i have no life..... how pathetic is that.....

can there be too much??????

*sigh* like I've said so many times..
life can never be perfect.... so despite my previous entry.. I am still full of anger right now. I'm full of anger towards myself.

I'm sorry. It's just me.

I have a great family, great boyfriend, great friends and a great job...
what more can a person ask for? =)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD!!
Not like you'll be reading this..
but... thankyou for everything...... for nurturing and molding me into who I am now..... =)

My day started off with me feeling very crummy..
especially till the point when I missed calling cj by 5 minutes...
just totally blew up in the car...
but.......
all's good... =) cuz i have u by my side.

"I can't stand to fly
I'm not that naive
I'm just out to find
The better part of me

I'm more than a bird...I'm more than a plane
More than some pretty face beside a train
It's not easy to be me

Wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
About a home I'll never see

It may sound absurd...but don't be naive
Even Heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed...but won't you conceed
Even Heroes have the right to dream
It's not easy to be me

Up, up and away...away from me
It's all right...You can all sleep sound tonight
It's not crazy...or anything...

I can't stand to fly
I'm not that naive
Men weren't meant to ride
With clouds between their knees

I'm only a man in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street
Only a man in a funny red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me

It's not easy to be me."
-Superman, Five for fighting

So freakin mung.
So much negative energy inside me...
ahhh....... i want to punch something....
holy freak...... wat's wrong with me?????????

"Life is easier to take than you'd think; all that is necessary is to accept the impossible, do without the indispensable, and bear with the intolerable."
-Kathleen Norris

By the way.. this game.. sooo fun!!
http://kiteretsu.jp/on/tontie/

And this is soooo funny!!!! Credits to Mark
http://www.asiapacificadfest.com/01welcome/tvc_best.htm

I have a feeling my back is at least 1/2 inch crooked this week.. -_-;;

Damn I just had to retype part of this entry cuz of the STUPID new design blogger has!!! Damnit!!! I'm starting to hate this!!!

Work is actually getting more and more interesting.
The later I stay at my office the more I'm reluctant to leave.. hahah

Anyways... here's a song I'm beginning to love...
"I'm not a perfect person
There're many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do thsoe things to you
And so I have to say before I go
that I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
to change who I used to be
a reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I've found a reason to show
a side of me you didn't know
a reason for all that I do
and the reason is you..."
The reason- Hoobastank
ur my reason.... =)

Funny names of locations:
Cape Catastrophe
Cape Disappointment
Cape of Good Hope
So I suppose.. people from cape catastrophe should move into cape disappointment, and those in cape disappointment should move into cape of good hope...
it's like an upgrade! heh...

ahh! It's final..
I'm gonna go buy a DVD/VCD machine for my basement..
so I won't have to move our machine up and down the stairs cuz I keep forgetting that the one from upstairs doesn't work with NTSC...=p
I'm DETERMINED to watch Kate and Leopold... in my BASEMENT! grr...

bishinaikoodhugeweehberymeenit... =)

Nooo.. blogger has a new layout....
itz turning into a xanga-ish site... nooo!!! (altho it is still far from the user-friendliness of xanga)
I liked the old layout... =(
boo... no more frames..

Something's been bothering me these days..
but the problem is...I'm not exactly sure what it is...
I've been sorta busy I haven't even had a chance to blog about the tourney..
ah... and it's been a week and a bit already.
Time is so scarce... when work takes up so much of my day.. ><

Tuesday workouts...
starting to flood with people. =)
I jogged 2.5 minutes @ 6.0.. 2.5 minutes @ 6.5... 5 minutes @ 7... 4 minutes @ 7.5 and the last minute @ 8.0.
haha... gradually progressive.... I wonder when I can start off jogging @ 8.0?
Drop shots still inconsistent... especially my cut shots.... 50% of them went out...
net shots.... arrgh..... crosses? Once in a blue moon I'll do a perfect cross.
must..... not... retreat........cuz..... I can't lose....
charge!

I've been having dreams of babies these days....
Haha someday I'll get to experience having one... hmmm
I want a lung fung toi! hehee a boy and a girl all at once..
then I won't have to go thru the pain again! hehe...
What are the chances of that happening???

ooOo.. Hugh Jackman.......
Wanna watch "Kate and Leopold" and "Someone like you" cuz he's in both of them! haha..

Haven't checked email for a while... and guess what happens?
407 BULK MAILS........... hahaha...

I love weekends... =)
I also love training... heh...
although I must say, Darryl style training is nowhere near as harsh as Morgan style training. haha...
Fun stuff.....

Van Helsing...
I liked it!! hehe I like the way the director chained together all the famous monsters... Dr.Jekyl/Mr.Hyde, Frankenstein, Dracula, Werewolves...
Hugh Jackman is soooooo ying!!!
And the person who played Frankenstein did a really good job. =)
I also liked the to-be-monk... Carl? hehe... he's funny!! He's the guy from LOTR!! Can't believe he can turn from such a great courageous character into Carl........ hahhaa.. funny!!
The main actress was really pretty too.. and her brother really cute... =p hehee...
So much action... and surprise... hehee I personally liked this movie!! I'll rate it a 8.5/10. hehee...

The big 30!

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Stupid ankle and stupid knee.....

Cops don't like me.
I don't like them either.
=p

oooo.. blogged that during work today....
Anyhow.......
I promised a recap of the tourney... but.... today's not gonna be the day either... heh
Friends finale tomorrow... how's it gonna end?

Thanks for the birthday card... =)
IT's a ROZ!!! hehee thanks Winnie!!! =D
Got tricked to stay at Jenny's....u guys and ur HAI-YA "gei gwan" of keeping me from the door.. hehehee
Winnie's "You 'moma' is a 'jardinee'" hahaha......... duno how to spell those words but they should be french...
And other funny stuff..... update more.. tomorrow....
have a good trip, Winnie!

Really like this song...
"I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along"
-My Immortal, Evanescence

Oops.. should really do a recap of the tourney...
but.. ah... I'll do that tomorrow!!! hehe...

Two new co-ops...
One's a cool geek and the other one's a SUPER GEEKY geek.. haha
OH wellz.. we're all geeks anyway..=p

My day went from:
Sleepy -> pukey -> woozy -> hyper (but still woozy) -> awake (but still hyper) -> tired -> abdominal pain -> sleepy again -> full -> stomach pain -> losing my voice -> tired and sleepy.... @_@........
Got to see cj for the whooooole day tho! A whole 14 hours! =D hehee..

hahaha... so much fun + tiredness + pain + tension all in one day... =)
Tourneys are sooooooo funnnnn..........
btw.. a late HAPPY BIRTHDAY to Bearz!

What's there to say leh........

Oh yah.. on the way home, a red beetle suddenly landed on my window.. on the INSIDE!! I know it's kinda cool to have a Beetle INSIDE a Beetle.. ;) but yeah.. I was pretty freaked out........... first thing I did was... covered my left ear with my left hand.... and whenever I had the chance, I started waving my hand around my neck cuz I thought it was creeping on me. Yeah.. haha maybe it's a sign........ a beetle showing up in midnight.. what could that mean?

It has become a habit for me to cover my ears whenever I see any insect I'm scared of.......
I think I have a fear of them crawling into my ears............... heh

tourney day 2 coming up... see u there!