refined entry for yesterday...
yes wat's with me and the word "refine" these days!?
I think my brain needs refining as well.. ehh

today was like a waste of time...
I studied for like wat.. 10 minutes in total? haha...
couldn't concentrate with a pack of hickory sticks in my bag...
NEVER eat when u wanna study..
that's my lesson for today.. hehee
aww.. physics is ending... I'll miss Iqbal!! He's such a nice prof...
he's SUPER nice!!!!!!! Too bad he doesn't teach 102...
And all these people that I'll probably lose contact with...
like Tri... and Rachel...... and Irene... and Robin..and Anna, and Vicky..
Tracy I still have classes with her.. heh
this is actually kinda sad.. all the change and adaptation next term..
but the fact that today was the last day of term 1 classes
was good enough to cover that. heh....
finals coming up.. arrrgh.... must.. study....

Last night was really cool...
had good conversations with people...
so cheung faai! hei! heh...

"I have a bluuuue soul [sole]...
cuz I took off my socks
my blluuuue soul...
cuz playing sockless rocks
but then I hurt, mah toe...
and then i rammed into a stu...pid pole..
and I hurt my wrist and my back..
agaaain...*super high pitched*"
-The Rochai soul blues musical. heh
I know, I have a talent. ahahaha

Funny stuff happening today.. heh
last badminton open gym.. aww.. ><
playing never ending games..
that stupid break dance guy! Kept blocking our smashes,
and somehow he never dies! ahhh...
that very last game... we hogged the court..
in the end..16-17... haha.. we should've lost long time ago...
and the white ribbon!!! You guys...
sooo unsupportive of "violence towards women"... haha
then I hit my shoulder on the ramp holding up the nets,
cuz somehow I was hyper and ran thru the tiny space...
eh.. I was stupid.. and it really hurt.. hehe
I hit the spot where my injury is too.. ouch... double ouch.. hehe
and the no-sockness...
stupid sock had a hole and was hurting my toe so much..
I played the rest of my games sockless... heh
and now I have a blister on my toe.. ><
by the end of the day..."I have a blue soul"...
heh.. cuz my shoes' color comes off...
so I have a blue SOLE. hahaa
ahhh playing against break dance guy 4/5 games...
his stupid "that was why I twisted.."... made us laugh and kept losing! haha
And the squashminton.. fun as usual.. hahaha
whenever I win I say "I WIN"... hehehe
to imitate the streetfighter thing.. hahaaa
got Shao so annoyed.. hahahahaa
and stupid Jason... made me lose!!
yet ANOTHER new sport invented by Shaz..
Golf + football = goofball... hehehee
and wat's arkham? wat's arkham!? ehhe
Ohhh and... have you watched "Squirrel TNA"?? (Spirited away)..
heheee hiliarious stuff... fun...

Yah I wanted to forget about the rest of the day,
but memories kept flooding back to me today.. heh
got my essay back... ah.. I passed... hehe C-... damn.
if I get that in my final I'll pass the course...
please... let me pass.. *cross my fingers* heh..

eh... rest of the day was pretty ordinary...
studying in Koerner's, sleeping in car,
hung out a bit wiht Anna...
the search for the stupid Math auditorium.. heh
sooo haunted... and the "spare office" outside Math building.. heh
and the "We're out of resources, the washroom will be your office".. hehe
OHh and the ICQ talks about our prof...
"Hi, my name is Wise Mahon, pronounced wise man" hehe...
damn him.. hehehe

sometimes,
"hehe"'s and "= )"s mean a lot.

i'm wide awake and super regretting...
all I wanted to do that moment was escape ><

there're a LOT of things wrong with this world...
there are things we can't control...
there are things that just fuckin piss us off...
there are things that are scams....
there are things that are unfair...
there are things that are unreasonable...
there are things that people do for no reason...
and there are things that, no matter how hard we try,
we'll never succeed in..
I wanna walk up to my math prof and yell
"You are a fuckin useless prof!" in his face..
I wanna go to Lar's mandarin teacher and yell
"You fuckin give Lar that mark cuz my rhyme is PERFECT!"
I wanna go to Koya and yell
"What the fuck is this!? This is a fuckin scam!!!"
yea, but there're things that we just can't do....... we can't... heh

and what's with those math and physics final solution booklets...
$5 for 5 exams!? That's a fuckin rip off! heh..
The thing is, they give 5 exams each year, but for the older ones,
they just have to copy wat they had last year...
so all they had to do was figure out ONE year's solutions..
how hard is that!? It's $1 for the paper....
So... $4 for that tiny amount of labour!? wtf..... heh

UHh damn.. I AM letting this discontinuity continue
hahaha.. okay.. stupid stuff.
So... yesterday... stayed in UBC till like 6:30 doin math..
pretty pointless day...
then today... I met new friends I met new friends! heheh
I also bumped into Karen.. haha long time no see...
anyway... got to know these two girls in my english class better,
too bad it's the end of the year already.. hehe
Went to talk to my english prof...
at least now I have a better idea of wat I'm supposed to do..
but I still disagree with him and his assumptions..
psh.. how does he know that an extreme and stubborn person can't be a famous writer?!?
and how are we supposed to know that Curtis is famous!? ah....
unreasonable stuff... OH well. UBC is a very unreasonable school I realized...
making us take first year english..
unreasonable marking in math..
unreasonable english prof,
unreasonable rules disallowing profs to do extra marking..
so stupid! And they're ripping us off too...
so glorious outside but so corrupt inside. *sigh*. hehe
anyway.. had lunch with Anna and Vicky.. hehe
they're pretty nice people... explored Anna's dorm..
we couldn't stop bad-mouthing our prof.. hahaa
uhh after that... mathing @ Koerner's....
then.. getting ditched by people again.. heh
stupid Charles... was gonna study math with me but went home..
then Shao.. sick so can't go to badminton (this I can't blame him)..
heh... walked to badminton again... didn't have $ for parking T_T
Badminton started off pretty boring...like.. extremely boring..
played this game with all beginners.. ahhHHH...
third game was good though.. hehe soo tight... won 17-15 in the end...
soo many flukey shots and inattentiveness...
and then fourth game was okay...
basically I just stood there, served and let Jason do most of the running. heh
got a ride from Jason to North.... soo lucky.. heh
or else I would've had to walk back there.. all alone in the dark.. ><..
there's another side of the village that I've never been to!!
This store that has sushi, teriyaki, ice-cream.. everything!!!
Man.. I'm gonna buy that store when I get rich.. heh
And the weird radio in Jason's car that reminded me of tamagotchi... heh
got home, did nothing till now.. yah...
well.. my blog seems so pointless now,
just writing wat I did everyday...
I'm so dry of emotions these days. heh...

Didn't update yesterday again!!
Ahhh I can't let this uncontinuousness continue.. hehe
anyway... updates for yesterday...
didn't do much aside from Team dinner..
that made my day.. hehehe
it was really fun.... and crazy, I thought.
It's too bad we had two separate tables...
Hung's crazy cooking...
I duno how much raw stuff I ate yesterday man.. hehe
all those chicken.. and chicken wings.. hehe
the fish was good though.. and the beef.. mMmm..
I can't specifically say wat was so funny and crazy about yesterday,
but that was mostly cuz of the continuous highness in ppl due to the smoke...
hehe it was crrazyy.... we had like 5 plates of meat at least...
and then we went to get ice-cream...
went to different places.. oH well it's all good,
I had almond roca + oreo flakes ice-cream.. mMm...
should have more team hangouts..
should go join like a tournament together.. hehe it'll be fun.

Anywho.. today...
was just badminton.. hehe
@ Thompson.. it was pretty good...
pretty fun.. everyone missed the birdie once..
I think the court is cursed.. ahhaa and bad lighting.. tsk tsk.. hehe
doubles was good... singles is fun too except I suck at it.. hehe
and then there was only 1.5 hours.... they kick us out. psh.. hehe
OH well.. badminton's good.. so it's all good.
then we went to Parker place for lunch...
stop staring at me eat u guys.. hahaha
I know noodles keep falling out of my mouth,
but I can't help it. hehe
and slicing my lips again with them stupid wooden chopsticks..
then all that crazy can hammering...
I dared Joseph to hammer the can with bare hands..
he didn't wanna do it so I did...
hehe made such a loud noise with the can flying out...
everyone was staring.. but who cares..
Joseph did it again, twice.. lol...
and everybody was staring, while we were laughing like crazy...
ouch that hurt my hand a bit.. hehe but it was fun... ny.. hehe
after that... raced Jerry to my car..
"Let's race there.. if you lose you're gonna walk home"
hahah sooo close! damn.. heheeh
and then just went home and took a nap till now...
wasted my second half of the day.. OH well.
It was oki... crazy stuff happening.. hehe

did I do somethin wrong!?
ahhh just tell me man, tell me!!!
dun just ignore me.. ><

Aww.. sad lyrics.. but I like it
"I don't care if it hurts,
I want to have control.
I want a perfect body,
I want a perfect soul.
I want you to notice,
when I'm not around.
You're so fucking special,
I wish I was special.

But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo.
What the hell am I doing here?.
I don't belong here"
- Creep, Radiohead

Anywho.. second update for today...
ended up not going to movie or dinner..
well.... can't afford to go out too much these days,
and I have team dinner tomorrow which is a must go.
I think I made a dumb but right decision.. heh
went to cheap entertaining badminton instead..
@ UBC w/ Mason.. heh
played a couple of good games...
beat this pair of pretty good mixed doubles..
don't recall anything especially,
but my shoulder is getting worse.. hehe damn
well that's one reason why I'm skipping badminton tomorrow morning..
sorry Lar.. I dun think I can wake up for it anyway... heh
uhh.... this sucks...
met some friends @ UBC badminton club..
wat's her name.. uhh forgot.. hehe damn
Annie or somethin? And.. Anita, Peter, Wilson..
uhh that's all the names I remember even tho there's more. heh
pretty cool, pretty cool....
wat's best to do there is to go with a partner at around the same level
and then go play.... so even if u have to play against a sucky pair,
you woudln't be stuck with a sucky partner. hehe..
and when ur lucky, u might get a few good games in too. hehe
Got so hungry in the end went to get burger w/ Mason...
then went home...
damn, I was thinking if jason was there,
I'll bug him about having a skill clinic so I can train.. heh
turned out I trained a lot today as well...
so sore now.. ahh...
it's bad, but it feels good to feel sore..
Haven't felt sore since.. VRC training. heh

Ohh I didn't update again..
but u can't blame me,
cuz last night I was struggling very hard
to finish my math assignment due 10AM this morning,
while dealing with my stupid backbrain ache...

Anywho...
THERE'S SERIOUSLY SOMETHING WRONG WITH THIS FUCKIN WORLD!!!
omg... I am so pissed off...
at my math midterm prof, but mostly at the unknown math midterm marker..
fuck him/her.......... omg..... so fuckin @(*#&$*(
my 68% midterm.. I could've gotten 80%!!
WTf.. okay for this question, I did the first part wrong,
and I did all the rest based on the answer in my first part,
but he gave me NO MARKS... fuckin 8 mark quesiton and I only got like 2...
Fuck.. wat's worse.. this other question,
other ppl put EXACTLY the same answer and they get perfect,
somehow I get a mark deducted.. for no fuckin reason! omg...
and then... another question, again I screwed up in the first part,
but that doesn't matter, cuz I got the second part right even tho the first part was wrong,
but NO.. AGAIN I get 1 fuckin mark off for NO fuckin reason!!
ARGH...... fuckin marker.. if I find out who he/she is,
I'm gonna curse him/her for the rest of my schoolyear I swear...
And wat's worse... I went to see my prof to talk about it...
he saw my point, he was like "yea you're right."
but guess wat he said?
He said "Yea I'm sorry I can't do anything about it.."
Fuck!!!!!! He's so nice and stuff,
but wat does he mean he can't do anythin abt it!?
He looked at my mark, and said
"Yea that's about right.." (cuz my mark was the class average)
about HELL right..... wat the fuck....
Fuck it man... it's a whole 10% difference...
wat does he mean he can't do anything abt it!? @($*^#*(&$.....
diu...................chi lun seen!
no words can express my anger...

Ahh... yes... when bad stuff happens,
good stuff do happen as well.. heh
my badminton spirit is back!
ohh my god good friend, I've been waiting for you
(I'm NOT psycho...)
yesterday I could do almost everything I wanted to!!!
It felt SO damn good......
OH yea, except I lost my net shots... heh... oh wellz.
Played first game with Jason against this good girl and okay guy...
duno their names... but it was okay.. hehe
every single time I make a mistake Jason's like "what was that??"
arrrrrgh...... shut up.. heh
and then afterwards I played with Mason...
it was cool. hehee I played against him cuz there were these sucky ppl..
and I won!!! haha one of the games.. lost the other one..
the driving was good... feel my strength coming back...
and the stupid badmintonball game.. hehehe
OHh and the guy that came by to ask Mason for the time...
he sooooo likes him... heh.....
uhhh wat else... only ONE of the execs are nice..
this guy whose name I've forgotten.. haha
ah.. badminton so good... always cheers me up.

Weird happenings today...
Watching this teacher kiss a pig,
and the pig was making so much noise!!
HAhahaha it's this fund-raiser thingy..
Too bad our prof Iqbal didn't get enough $.. damn.
hehe... it was funny... he kissed the pig on the nose.
And one thing I must mention...
KOYA in UBC SUB is A BIG RIP OFF!!
WTF... when they started cooking the beef for Mel,
I was like "this is very little beef!"
wat's worse is...
this guy ordered a large beef,
and he split the beef in half and gave it to Mel and the guy!
I feel sorry for the guy who ordered large...
there was like 5 tiny pieces of beef
and waay too much veggies...
HEY...... wat gives them the right to rip people off!?
This is such a scam...
You see,
there IS seriously something wrong with this world...
Screwy ppl screwing up our world. Go to hell...... fucker......

WoOHOo.. hehe
done everything...
and I'm really, REALLY hyper right now.. heh
OKAY.. this is crazy..
last night stayed up till 4:30 to do the fuckin 30% essay....
okay enough abt that it's all over with now.. heh
then, slept for like 4 hours and didn't wake up in time,
cuz I had to go to school @ 9:30 AM JUST to hand in the essay..
AHHhh... so I went to comp sci early,
but spent like 4 hours there finishing up my LAST lab of the term.. sweeet..
heh.. merge sort? wat's merge sort? heh...
And then... got free lunch from.. wutz his name.. STeven!!
Soo nice!!! hehe... rich guy.....
Had this weird Subway sandwich... it tasted okay.. hehee
And then went to PG to holepunch my jap stuff.. hehehe
that was weird.. and then.. uhh wat did I do!?
went hoem and slept till 6... hehe
Then the good part starts.. hehe
I drove to badminton, and usually if I stand here the machine thing,
someone will pass by and gimme a free ticket,
but today, 10 cars passed by and NONE of them gave me one!
HEhe and then vrey unluckily, I had no money on me.. T_T haha
so I ended up not paying for the ticket at all..
and I didn't get a ticket.. so that was cool. heh
So stupid.. I went in the gym, asked Shao for money,
ran outside, realized I didn't bring my car keys,
ran back in the gym, realized I just soaked my badminton shoes in the rain and puddles..
uhhh.. hahaha it was all good tho..
Played a couple of good games...
Getting my confidence back.. I really am! hehee
Somehow when I expect myself to be really tired,
I get really hyper instead, like right now.. hahaa
and then by the end, they extended badminton for an hour,
so I got to play almost 30 mins straight,
Shao and I played against this really good guy 2-on-1,
and we were still losing! haha it was good training tho,
good footwork exercises and shots.. hehehe
and now my shoulder hurts but I dun freakin care.. lala hahaha..
OH that guy.. he's crazy... he has 10x Hung's stamina...
he NEVER gets tired!! 2-on-1 and we were tired b4 him..
hahaa craziness... gotta learn some techniques..
Got some secrets.. hehee
gotta control the game... anticipate and predict where they're gonna hit it..
watch how their racket is angled and stuff.. hehe yea..
And then crazy stuff during other games...
Squashminton was fun.. ehhee
and then during this one game,
Me: "You wanna start, u wanna start, u wanna start u wanna start..."
This guy : *smashes at me*
Me: "ahhh!!"
That was funny.. and then... the invisible birdie...
"NOW where's the birdie? It's gone!" hahaa...
made me laugh so bad...
and then...
Shao: "Our score is going up in even numbers.."
Me: "Yes, theirs is going up by integers. heheh"
and then later
Me: "Yes, no more even numbers. Next time it'll be 15. heheh"
But then the "that's it" didn't work!!! ahhh... hahaha
and then near the end...
ShAZ new creation.. badminvisible.. hahahahaa...
it's to play badminton with an invisible birdie. HEHEHehe
Oi it was funny.. and hyper.. hahaha

Conversation:
Jenn Chui : "I just came back from phil.."
Me: "OHh.. philosophy.. for a sec there I thought u meant Phillippines.."
hehe...
Showing Jenny how INVISIBLE I am.. hahahaha
We are all one big family of weirdos and freaks.. hehe

I used 105% of my mailbox space.. lol.. hahaa

addicted to this song:
"There's another world inside of me that you may never see
There's secrets in this life that I can't hide
Well somewhere in this darkness there's a light that I can't find
Well maybe it's too far away
Or maybe I'm just blind
Maybe I'm just blind

So hold me when I'm here
Right me when I'm wrong
Hold me when I'm scared
And love me when I'm gone
Everything I am
And everything in me
Wants to be the one you wanted me to be
I'll never let you down
Even if I could
I'd give up everything
If only for your good
So hold me when I'm here
Right me when I'm wrong
Hold me when I'm scared
You won't always be there
So love me when I'm gone
Love me when I'm gone"
-Love me when I'm gone - 3 Doors Down

OKay, just when I finished everything and have time to update this,
Blogger is DOWN...
don't blame me for not updating.. heh..

Okay.. recalling stuff from last weekend...
uhh major part of it was the essay which I will skip thru.. heh
OH right.. Sunday night hangout with Lar..
that was crazy... hehehe
goin to Macdonalds' and reading her diary...
Alex Mak and all those shooting stars.. and killing ur friends.. heh
and the "hark jai".. hahaha
ur weird pronounciation of "hun dan" and "cao".. haha
Sounds like "hating egg". hAhAHah
and uhh... yes.. we were both phillipinos.. haha
And I'm NOT A SPERM.. omg... HAhahaa
and that thing abt slapping the coach.. hahaha
Then walking out to Mini Richmond.. hehee
that sad old man remember... hehehe
Going into hotel asking for directions...
so stupid... hahaha it sounded fun, but it was stupid afterwards..
the guy was so serious and nice and stuff.. hahah
we should've asked somewhere further.. hehehe and spoke bad english..
yah that's our plan for next time. haha
And then... letting u drive.. yea...
Hahaa you'll pass in one try... hehe cuz u got special training from ME. hehe
okay I dun think I'm gonna let anyone drive my car anymore...no. heh
That was it.. heh... pretty fun

funny test I took..

What box do you get put in?
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OH MY GOD!!
FINALLY DONE!!
English essay...
God, PLEASE let me pass... T__T
approximately 4 days of continuous labour...
it's like my child!
(never spent more than 1 night writing essay b4...)
God bless... us all!!!

Yes.. from now on I'll be updating again..
but not today.. 4AM.. wake up at 9 tomorrow..
uhh........ might as well stay up. heh cya.

funny..
A: "heh...commenting on how intelligent our conversation is... is not a very intelligent thing to do..."
B: "haha.now ur smartness is makin my smartness look less smart"

"Maybe it's your problem--
afterall, you were the only one who thought there was a problem."

OKay....
I'm getting my bad day...
Failed my english quiz...
that was unexpected...
fuckin prof...
I gotta pass both my final and essay to pass the course...
Should I go to badminton!? ah...
I don't know anyone there... aside from Jason and Flora...
but then I'll feel excluded... but I wanna play.
Ah, wat to do, wat to do...
Anyway I have 1.5 hours to kill before badminton anyway
damn. This si so pointless...
Right when I have no more midterms to study for...
everybody else has theirs....
Right when I decided to get pizza for lunch,
I realized i didn't bring my wallet....
Right when I found my cell phone and called up friends,
nobody was free...
ahhhhh I spent 2 hours sleeping in the car
and dreamt.....
Had a dream about Emily and Anna....
somehow emily was giving me my birthday present,
and it was a big mashimaro car cuhion! hehe
it was really cute... yah.. and somehow,
Emil was living in residence in UBC so I had to drive around...
weird....

Damn.. I feel so stupid without my calculator!!
How can I not know that ln(1) = 0!?!?
Hahahha.. damn....
there goes another 8 mark question.... hehe
But it's oki! Cuz I'm HAPPY... hehe yah!!
Physics... so easy!! WoohOo..
guessed a couple questions right..
and like... wave number...
I was like.. "wat the hell is wave number?"
so I did all my calculations in that question,
and one of them was the wave number.. excellence. heh
Yah... wat I studied hard for WAS in the test! WOOHOo...
oKi... had a smarties cookie now I'm kinda high.. hehe
nice... nice.... YEa... hahaa I'll see u... later. heh
me out.

uhh haven't been updating for a few days...
catching a flu...
right b4 2 midterms = not good...

Yea.. gotta study,
update later

Uhhh didn't update yesterday...
dun really feel like updating.. heh..

VRC tourney,
really bad,
feel really bad,
and I'm not about to mention here why.

So tired... got home and slept for a long while right after dinner..
damn so fat...
physics and math.. ai.. nooo

YEa way to go PG..
TO DA PLAYOFFS! woohoo..
damn VC/LFA ppl.. hehe lied to me..
but they probably didn't know....
was kinda bad to put Lilian on singles for her first game...
OH well, we HAD to sacrifice somebody. heh...
at least she had fun in the mixed game that's cool.
heh facing Gladstone next week eh...
tough, tough match................
whether we win or not rely totally on the guys..
if Kwok and Hung win ONE game.. just one...
no pressure, no pressure. heh

Dinner was cool..
14 ppl @ Tropika ordering tons of satay.. heh
kinda expensive tho... but... luxury once in a while? heh
All the food was good.. hehe.. lemme recall..
satay, clams, FRIED RADISH CAKE, laksa, eggs, PANCAKES, veggies..
what else was there.. hehe
even tho not everyone appreciated my taste for food,
it was all goood... heh...
soo full... my stomach is so stretched I can feel it...
but then I thought of African children all the way and finished the laksa! hahaa...
and then movie afterwards @ Jenny's...
Birthday Girl.. it was kinda weird.. why was it a "suspense" movie!? hehe
Had a sweet ending tho... hehe
Nicole Kidman looked old in the beginning,
but she somehow turned young in the end.
"Are you a giraffe?" "...Yes..." heh
Kinda surprising... I thought big hangouts wouldn't be as fun,
but it turned out okay actually...
The punch Hendra gave Jenn in the car.. ouch.. hahaha
and uhh.. wat was there to laugh about?
This morning.. Mel: "I want steak.."
me: "what? You wanna stink!?"
Oh and Jenn Chui's
"Baby, can you handle this" in super high pitched voice...
almost made me spat my food out. hehe...
that's it..

and good job to LAR for defending Cambies Richmond Champ!! heh..

VRC tourney today.. doubles..
ah.. damn shoulder. Hope it wouldn't hurt..
playing Phoebe and Lydia first game!? Shit...

Wait I correct wat I said yesterday..
it's $10 for first event,
and $8 for second.
I'm sorry for the incorrect information.. hha

It's okay, life is always gonna be the same--
even when things are good, we'll find reasons to complain...

Today was an okay day.. yea...
Pretty tiring...
Spent like 3 hours last night trying to come up with a new thesis,
did come up with one,
but realized it was too shallow this morning,
so I did the presentation with my old topic, not having done ANY research on it at all.
hehe I know, if i get a bad mark, I deserve it.
I was stammering when I talked, and one point during the presentation,
I stopped and hit my forehead and said "yes, what am I trying to say..."
Yea it was 10 in the morning, I only slept for 5 hours and I didn't know wat I was thinking.
Basically just said everything in my head, trying to take up 5 minutes...
It was really tough to present on something I don't know a lot about in front of 35 ppl... ah.
Anywho.. enough abt english...
after english I went to study physics with Tracy..
that was cool, got most of my problem sets done,
and cleared up some of the questions I had...
The pool is a good place to sleep. heh
Only had a cookie and soup for lunch... soo not enough.
Then I had my physics lab.. excellence...
only ONE more lab to go!! I'm really, REALLY glad. heh...
Yea.. that lab went well cuz I knew wat I was doing all along.
Wasn't all confused and had to ask around like the labs b4.. heh
After that.. went to try and take a nap in my car b4 badminton,
but ended up not able to sleep... was so paranoid,
kept thinking someone's staring at me from my car window.. heh
So then I went to badminton... I got a free parking ticket! woohoo.. heh
I was walking around in the rain looking for one on the floor,
couldn't find one so I was sorting out my coins in front of the machine,
this car was leaving and he came around and asked if I wanted his ticket..
so nice. hahaha... saved $3.50 man! That's a lot.. heh
Yah and then badminton... 4 games against Stoney and Mason with Shao,
won all of them but somehow I thought they weren't playing seriously..
plus Stoney was sick... it wasn't too exciting.
The last game Shao and I played against Hermes and Etchy.. heh
it was a good game... went into deuce and won 17-15. hehe...
I did a lot of bad shots tho... so slow in reacting and no strength,
possibly due to my small lunch and sleepiness.. @_@
Brought comics for Shao and VCDs for Jason...
soo freakin heavy.. the comics.. heh
Right now I'm just chillin.... yea... no studying for tonight...
need rest. Ciao.

Ah.. worked on english till 3AM..
damn presentation..
I duno why I'm updating this.. still.. heh
it's like a habit...
a good one tho.

That's it for today...
kinda pointless, but,
oh well.

OH to those BADMINTON players...
JOIN the UBC TOURNAMENT!!
IT's only $5...
MSG me on ICQ if interested...

One last msg b4 I go to sleep:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY FRANK!

Today was just school, work and more work.
So yah. Nothing interesting to read about.

I changed my way of writing the number '4'
may not mean anything to you,
but it's a change for me 'non-changing' person..
it's about time to stop whining and stand up and face the truth...
loads of stuff out there waiting for me,
and it's not too late to catch up yet... luckily...
luckily I walked out of the cloud in time....

and I just realized it was myself who said:
"everything that were once embarrassing or sad now just becomes amusing.."
and it was myself, again, who said:
"reading my old entries I feel so embarrassed..."
Oh well, gotta change my state of mind.

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conversation:
Killa: ^^ so how u~
Psycho: Me pretty good.. heheh was like.. extremely depressed this afternoon but somehow walked out of it at night. hehe
Killa: ohh good!!~~ hee what happend lo?~
Psycho: wat happened that made me depressed, or wat happened that made me happy? haha
Killa: haa both!
Psycho: umm.. wat made me depressed was just my moodiness... and wat made me happy was cuz I never dwell in depression for too long. ^^ hahahah
Killa: hahaha wow so simplistic yet so complicated~
Psycho: AAHAHhahaha that was a simplistic yet complicated reply too.. ahahha
Our conclusion:
Everyone is simplistic yet complicated... heh

Today I woke up after exactly 8 hours of sleep..
craziness.. I slept at 4:30...
did my laundry last night..
couldn't think at all... so tired...
my pink sweatshirt.. is all moldy now... T_T
Yea... again, not much to say today since it's only 2:30..

Aiy, am I nothing but a usable tool to you?
Fuck off man.....

hmm...
thinking of my conversation with someone yesterday...
I will have total trust in u Steph even though ur a potential psycho.. ^^

don't be proud when people fall for ur tricks..
they fell for it because they trusted you.....
not because they're stupid....

Hmmm... right. Forgot to update yesterday,
but there's not much to say anyway.
It's like wearing tear-away pants without any shorts inside..
the emptiness I tell ya, the emptiness...
(my metaphors.... heh)

Funny...
"Bugging you is easy cuz you're buggable
And bugging you is all I ever wanna do...
Bugging you is more than just my dream come true
And everything I do is all because I love to bug you.."
here's my version:
"I wanna bug you till I die
till we both get bugged and cry
I wanna bug you till ur tired of me and sigh..."

Woke up at around 3 after my 12 hours sleep...
Sharp pains in my shoulder and my whole arm was numb,
cuz I was sleeping in a weird posture that was hurting my injury...
went to visit Emily with Jenny...
Meimei's growing pretty well into a cute dog..
the puzzle.. heh so many errors from the back..
and then the plastic that doesn't fit.. aww....
the crazy seaweed drive.. hehe finished 12 pack b4 I got home.
And then... nothing much happened aside from some shocking news,
and then there was badminton...
played SO well... actually not THAT well,
but I got my smash back and from my smash comes my confidence...
not just that, my injured shoulder somehow got CURED after I played yesterday...
now it doesn't hurt at all....... miraculous...
Yea... played a couple of doubles games..
woman that gave me impression of Jenny's mom.. heh
she was actually pretty good... a lot of accuracy in her shots.
And then two singles games against Jenny...
I really suck at singles now.. glad I didn't sign up for it in the tournament...
I either clear it right to the middle, or out...
and then I lost my (used to be) really good straight drop,
and my smash somehow goes sideways now...
also, I cannot run at all when people drop it......
especially when Jenny does her speciality thing.. argh.. heh
played a neverending singles game and lost, in the end, 16-17...
that was crazy... hehe I wasn't really tired mentally by the end,
but my muscles were kinda sore...
OH well, it was a good workout.
Takes my mind off stuff.

Today... another... ordinary day...
but tiring cuz of lack of sleep thruout the week..
Wat I've been looking forward to wasn't that fun..
my shoulder's starting to hurt again and this is not a good sign.
Played really poorly... aish... like not REALLY poorly,
but the shots I made.. ah they were so bad...
Had to keep saying sorry.. haha it's like a habit already...
Played this version of mini-badminton.. haha
actually just a sit-down driving game.
Stupid road-blocks on the way back.. heh
Mason so lucky... was driving like 160...
Yah anyway.. today kinda sucked..
Only good thing was I got my comp sci midterm..
not satisfied with how I did, but satisfied with the mark I got...
hmm kinda contradictive right? hehe
Aish.. so impatient! Come on...... where's all da ppl today,
and where's all da fun!?

and what the hell am I thinking.............

Forgot to update yesterday...
it was one of those days when nothing special happens,
but I'm still happy for no reason..
heh very nice and smooth day.

things don't change, but people sure do...
no matter wat, I'll still be there for u..
to all of u... happy halloween! hehe..

Saw this guy dressed up in cardboxes as a robot! Funny!! heh
and then... these cute kids dressed up as cows and bunnies!
Aww.. hehe soo cute..
last night we went to Lisa's for fireworks and stuff...
well we all grew out of fireworks already,
it's all but 2 seconds of "wow...".......
but still, it's the get together-ing that counts.
Kinda sucked tho... Ann and Emily just sorta came and went..
All we did was fireworks, TV and food... hmmm...
oH well. Seems like the group is getting closer inside,
but breaking up on the outside. haha....
right... I duno wat I'm talkin abt.
Oh well.. stupid CSI.. freaked me out...
Why did Zephyr kill his son!? Accident? Wat abt the woman!?
I dun get it.. damn...