Cheered up a bit today... that's right..
"You can screw english,
but don't let it screw you back..."
heh... so true...

Very plain day.. yah nuthin special at all,
except I left in the middle of comp sci,
and wrote a poem.. heh
not gonna post it here.
It's somewhere tho, you can try to look for it. hah
Only had a cookie for lunch today...
forgot to get cash, so I counted out all the coins I have,
and I got 2 bucks! heh.. so all I could get was a cookie.. T_T
oh well, my stomach getting used to not getting enough food,
it's all good.

Mmmm.. macadamias..

sad lyrics..
"But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo.
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here.

I don't care if it hurts,
I want to have control.
I want a perfect body,
I want a perfect soul.
I want you to notice,
when I'm not around.
You're so fucking special,
I wish I was special."
-weirdo, Radiohead

someday, I'll realize how pointless my life is,
and by then I will let go of everything to start a new life.
Yes...... i will.

asking too much of me....

Update for yesterday

weirdness...hehe
OKay the most amazing things happen.. hehe
last night was a good prelude to the future...
EXCEPT for the wise-woman game..
So frank was gonna send me my birthday card,
but he didn't put enough postage,
so it was labelled "return to sender",
but then the thing is,
he wrote To: on the top left corner,
and return in the middle,
so the bday card ended up here anyway...
hahahaa... smartness...

Visited Oyama sensei..
she is growing old.. hehee just talking about stuff..
food she bakes is good.. Mmm.. and tea.. hehe

B4 that... oh yah,
good to know that Jenny likes the comic too! hehe
took me a while... hehe should've colored it too... OH well..
Tons of inside jokes...
to other people, it would just be "weird".. hehe

Today I was crazily awake!
Even stayed awake for 3/4 of comp sci class...
it's crazy, cuz I only had like 5.5 hours of sleep last night..
hmm must be the coffee candies.. hehehe

Okay, something I must not forget to mention,
people driving crazily today.. EVERYONE!
This morning it was me myself.. hehe
but then, when I left UBC...
this stupid car turned when I was going right at him...
I honked for the first time.. haha stupidness!
OMG! ANd then he had to stop right away cuz of pedestrians..
heh then after that, I was driving on the right lane,
then this old lady suddenly cut in front of me when I stepped on gas..
THAT close to hitting her! Stupidness!!
I waited for 2 secs b4 I accelerated but she still should've looked..
and then... so I was following this stupid old lady,
and oh great, it's yellow light,
I ran it anyway (not like it's a red light)
then the old lady turned SUPER SLOW into a gas station,
making my car wait in the middle of the road..OMG!!
SoOOO fuckin pissed off... and RIGHT after that,
this stupid car wanted to turn but saw me coming with rage,
so she turned her wheel back... good...
or else I would SO have honked and swore crazily at her... hehe
Yah.. my crazy driving adventure today..

Something I read that's SO TRUE.. haha
I have learnt in University that...
Psychology is really biology, biology is really chemistry, chemistry is really physics and physics is really math.
Lol... hahaha

helo? who's there?
I feel like an ass talking to nobody.

I'll give it 5 minutes.
Why do I always have to be the one?

Past my denial, onto my whiny stage.
Sometimes its just hard to "let go"
thinking back,
"to be happy is to be able to let go"
I wrote that?
I'm a sayer not a doer..

extremely disappointing...
everything.......
unimportance? get used to it.....

Okay, me updating this @ UBC...
blogger hasn't been working for 2 days.. sucked..

Today started off really bad...
almost crashed two times cuz of my carelessness this morning,
and then I wasn't in a good mood anyway...
Mel wasn't in math, but she has my notes,
and then I only had enough money to get a soup for lunch...
then good things started to happen,
I was having lunch in the cafe when Peter came by and had lunch with me...
even tho we didn't have much to talk about,
it was just nice sitting with a friend.
Then when he went to class and I was about to walk around alone,
I ran into Emily... heh....
good and bad things happen....
going back to what I said looong time ago...
it's all in equilibrium... heh

ouch, right there....

Okay, one last thing before I leave..
gotta update this thing so I won't forget everything that happened...

heh

YOU know what time it is!?
It's daylight saving time!! hehe
one extra hour.. sweeet... heh

First thing in the morning..
badminton! Mixed doubles.. was pretty bad..
hee we were so unawake, and from Ann's pov,
we weren't just 'kinda slow', we were 'really slow'.. haha
First game against Raymond and this girl...
Raymond's really good.. he would probably win if he had a better

partner.
Oi... and second game was just bad..
somehow we won the first set really easily,
then second set we were losing by 0-10.. craziness. hah
Yah lost in the third set 11-9.. that was bad tho..
OH wellz... Shao and I were just not doing well.
Me I lost my smash.. couldn't do anything in the back...
and yah it's early in the morning. haha
Jenny and Michael lost too.. hmm weird...
probably cuz they didn't practice together b4 at all..
hehehe weird "egyption style" girl and her pharaoh partner..
And good job Lar! haha silver that's pretty good.
And thanks for wat u told me,
but no.. instead of improving, I think I deproved a lot. heh...
You improved a lot too but u still need work on ur footworks. heh
yah anyway, now both Shao and I are injured...
no badminton for a week. >< ahaha damn...
stupid... rub-a535.. looked like rub-ass. hahaha
Yea.. so Churchill B in total, got a bronze for girls singles, that's

it.
Kinda suck.. but at least I had fun and got a good work-out.. heh
Went to have lunch at cutepearl afterwards...
got kinda hyper and did weird things...
got put on the table.. that was bad.. hah
spilled congee for no reason.. hmm probably my shoulder. heh
yah damn.. forgot most of the funny stuff already.. Oh well.
After that, went to Shao's to pick up Jenny's sofa...
and then to get Jenny's new Yonex badminton shoes!
So nice! hehehe... supports ur ankle too that's good.
and then went home, napped for 3 hours straight,
woke up and went to get food with jenny, win, and mel..
all the combination words.. "barp".. hahaha after "yas"
and then.. teppanyaki @ Jenny's.. hehe mMm.. so good..
but my weekend workout went down the drain! ><..
We forgot about the cheese!! THe cheese! With Mushroom and blue

cheese.. aw...
After teppanyaki we went to sit in Jenny's couch.. heh
then after that we had fireworks! Kinda like a preview to Halloween.

heeh
then we went out to get a drink...
soo smokey.. haha semi-cute guy with beard...
sooo many police cars around..
damn can't remember wat happened.. too tired.. hehe
Good to hear Jenny liked the present.. hehe
Mel u scared me... heehhe
Jenny, just think of it as a "special" striped lobster...
I duno why it's striped.. hahaa
Then we just went home...
OHhh whenever u guys say "it's too late",
you'll think of the song...... that I sang. hahaha
and the "turn off the lights" "don't turn off the lights" "turn ON the

lights" songs..
craziness! haha
anyway me tired.. hehe must... sleep...

Oh and wat Mel said..
Ouch... right there....

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series of thoughts:
the only thing I wanted to do today was to crawl into my bed and hide...
What, it's winter..
we are all allowed to feel low and depressed and sorrowful...
sudden lost of interest in doing anything
coldness..... senses all numb and shut down
playing the piano doesn't warm my fingers at all...
... staying at home doesn't warm my heart at all either
Who am I really? Where do I belong...

Hang out with Lar...
Made me feel a bit better hehe
you getting all high on Jay Chou songs again..
telling you abt the egyptian serve..
You getting scared of my finger...
and the movement of my fingers towards u.. hahaa
somebody running like chicken and
serving squatting down like spider legs
The stupid "wise woman" game.. haha sooo not wise...
"So who's my mom?"
".... gimme ur wallet" hahaha...
and "who's my soulmate?"
"Andy Mak"
"when's my soulmate gonna appear?"
"he's already here"
"wat... I don't know any Andy Mak!?" hahah
worst game ever...
the nasty drink.. made me wanna puke...
Ur childhood stories...
talkin abt somebody and rhyming
"If somebody took like a piece of her paper away,
she would be depressed for the whole day.."
hehe... diary entry:
"Today I'm so sad. I cried and cried and cried." lol...
Bunch of ppl crossing by..
10 double dates.. except for one lonely guy. heh
OH and the 'hut yee' predictions.. hahaha...
Ur phobia of being sniped down in the car..funny..
and then on the way back, the sudden brakes..
getting you freaked out was sooo fun. hahaha...
and then telling Gigi "$100 bought her friendship.." heh
yah that was cool.. hehe thanks

Got this song stuck in my head...
"Well this is not for real, afraid to feel
I just hit the floor, don't ask for more
I'm wasting my time
I'm wasting my time
You can't stop the feelin', there is no reason
Just make the call and take it all
I'm wasting my time
I'm wasting my time again
Whoa again.."
-Wasting my time, Default

damn.. am I really wasting my time!?

Doubles today was okay... hehe
Lost to Ashley and Jacqueline...
didn't play our best but it was oki...
for the amount of time we practiced and trained for,
I think we did pretty okay. hahaa
Couldn't smash at all though.. don't know why,
I suddenly lost my smash.. *sigh*.
However in return, I got my backhand and drop shots back...
damn.... is the trade worth it!?
Mixed tomorrow... we'll see. heheh...

Tiredness...
bubbletea after badminton was okay..
heh drink tasted like toilet fragrance...
and the cellphone race...
and the scary scarf that looked like a head with hair..
and the fat woman.. who looked like a penguin.. heh
yah.. hahaha quite funny, but we were all exhausted.. heh

"Mmmooo....
mooooo......
mmmoooooooo............."
MOO U WIN! haha

hungriness....

Lar! aha needed you to hype me up.

Maybe doing 2 weeks laundry all at once isn't such a great idea afterall...

Churchill B! hehe
a bit disappointing,
but still it was good.. no regrets.. hehe
First game lost to Shaolin in 3rd set deuce.. damnit.. haha
slept b4 I went so I had really low andrenaline...
super slow and that girl had really good drops.. damn.. heh
then afterwards got warmed up and won both consol games and got bronze...
hehe better than nothing.. yah...
got nothing to complain about. heh...
Doubles tomorrow.. gotta kick ass man! hehehe

Inside joke of the week:
"Pumpkins don't die until they get chopped open..."
"...... was that a compliment?"
(waiting for Jenny to prove my 'longitivity'.. lol)

Yah hmm.. nothing much to say these days. hehe
running out of emotions...

To make up for all the forgetfulness,
HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY JENNY!!


oki.... good job, PG team..
it was a glorious defeat! haha 5-6,
and our mixed game we lost 12-10, 8, 9
and that is really good...

Kinda pissed off today actually...
Cellphone ran out of batteries,
so didn't get my bro's call about the ride,
wasted SO much fuckin gas circling around Crofton,
cuz they had this guard standing there and I wasn't sure whether I could park there..
then i couldn't find parking space anywhere else,
and I ended up driving home and walking there..
omg.. I know it's cuz of my stupidity, but still.. so pissed off...

No more midterms till November... woohoo.. ehhe

sooo much implying-ness!
I hate implying-ness..

All I could remember about yesterday was the comp sci midterm..
sitting there for 1.5 hours it felt like 5 seconds..
craziness!! It's just crazily thinking and writing..
wasn't that hard though.. hope I didn't make dumb mistakes.
When i was going home I was like "whoa that was quick"
but it was actually 1.5 hours already.. hehe so intense.

feeling kinda bad...
wanna get Linda a card,
but I have no money...
and then there's Jenny's bday...
ahhhH...

Tournaments.. starting to get a bit nervous...
should I play with a heart to win, or a heart to just play?

Funniest away msg:
"esters, ethers, carbonyls omy,
esters, ethers, carbonyls omy.
y dont u just go and chemiosmosize urself.."
-bonsai tri... too much chem.

Hole in my favorite jeans.... ><...
so sad...... this is so very sad!!!
I cannot part with my jeans... T__T

Oki I hope blogger's not screwed up today..
cuz it was the past two days and I couldn't do anything! ARgh!!

I remember in April we were at prom,
getting drunk and then saying it's sober october....
hahaha memories..........
now it's october and we are all very sober i'm sure.... hah

Amazing.......... gossips........ hahah

Comp sci...
so confident abt it but...
duno if I'm over confident.. ahhh...

Yah... not much to say today,
except the fact that my shoulder is still sore,
and I'm not gonna play till Churchill......

Hum. Wat should I say!?!?!
Damn i'm dry of words today..
probably cuz I sang too much in the showers.
Update more next time....

Craziness...
bleeding too much on my birthday...
toes bleeding from wearing wrong shoes yesterday,
so when I played today it rubbed off my skin and started bleeding..
then my finger was bleeding cuz I had a cut and
while I was playing badminton the cut opened...
Yah this gotta suck.. hehe
Woke up at 11 to get food for hotpot...
hehee... it was good... even though I was very sleepy by the end of the day
hehe lemme think.. the "hong shi fu, bing hung cha.." haha
and then getting lunch.. mmM.. fried fish skin... even tho it was just soso...
and then went home... went straight to badminton...
played a couple of games with Flo..
didn't do too well, cuz toe and finger started to bleed but I didn't know,
so I did worse and worse cuz I think I was lack of blood...
Kinda not thinking straight by the third game....
Disappointed Flo... oh well.....
I'll do better next time I swear, when I'm not bleeding everywhere.
(wow.. that rhymed..) yah... haha played too much my arm's actually getting sore
consequences of too much badminton!?
Oh well, I needed the practice, it's just today that I'm not doing well. heh
then I went home and started feeling a bit sick,
took a shower, went to Jenny's
then went to Emily's with Jim...
hehe aww meimei's sooo cute!!! She's so long and cute..
hehe listened to Jim play piano.... and then I played...
and then yah... the Blue thing! wat's the blue thing!? hehehe
went bak to Jenny's.. hotpot.. mMmm... hahaha
lemme think of the funny stuff...
hmm.. Hendra... 150 contacts... 10 yr supply of monthly lens? hahaha funny..
and then everyone imitating me and asking "wat? wat? why? why?" haha
And all the things that go flying at Dewi... hehehe
then there was Winnie's skilled tofu picking..
and then the weird talk about extendible eyes...
And oyama counting bills but can't see them.. heheh
Ohh and I DON'T NEED A HEARING AID! hahaa
I'm just kinda slow that's all............ yea..... haha
at least I'm not as bad as my physics lab partner.. Omg... seriously wil go crazy..
"Isn't hearing aid for deaf ppl?" hhahaha........... ah I never thought abt it.
And then... the long distance call from Frank! hahaha thanks sooo much #3!! haha
Ohh and the mini CD that Jim burnt..hehe Friends theme song!! soo good...
And that scary girl whose face was scarily drawn on... hehe did u hate her Jenny?
Car show outside Jenny's house... buggy, Boxster, Slk, Rav4, Acura.. haha crazy
and thanks for the presents.. hehe Fossil watch, Who moved my Cheese? and scarf...
thankyou soo much.. then Jenny was the expert watch person.. heh
and... ohh ice-cream cake.. mMMm... hahah soo good...
yah all that kinda wore off my sickness.. haha
and then we went to rent a movie... in our pajama pants... heh
40 days and 40 nights was it!?? Kinda sick and perverted..
but Josh Harnett kinda cute...... the clouds part... omg.. hah
well yah... that was kinda a weird movie...........
anyway now I'm home.... heh...... summing up my day...
thinking of whether I should wake up for badminton..
probably not... too tired... and today screwed up my shoulder
cuz I wasn't warmed up properly when i played...
Yah.. go to Richmond in the afternoon i guess. oki...
kinda tired.. heh nitez everyone!

OKie.... now it's after badminton...
lemme recall what happened...
wat I only know and feel now is pain..
cramps everywhere... hahaha
damn stomach cramp.... once every month but it HAS to come tonight...
and then back cramp from playing too much....
yah that's about it.. muscles aren't that sore. hehe
During my nap I dreamt about badminton...
somehow I was playing a game with Shao against someone,
but I fell when i was trying to reach for the birdie on my left side...
thought it wasn't a good sign.. hehhe oh well, nothing bad happened.
So at badminton, we played some pretty good games...
basically I think we won all our games except for the one against Jason and Flora.
craziness... sooo pressured when I play them..
it's like.. one mistake and I feel like we're over already. haha
Had training.. haha good old training... smashing drills...
some problems with my smash... when the birdie's really high,
I slice-smash it... so there's no power at all... ai... so bad..
and then I can never lift someone's smash... cuz my wrist moves so slow..
and when someone smashes I automatically use my backhand,
so when they smash it to my forehand I usually miss... NOT good!
Drills.. still not going fast enough.... still getting tired too easily...
SO unsatisfied when myself!! haha but then I just gotta keep improving..
Stupid tall person sooo stupid... he says things so unclearly I duno wat he wants to do..
that's why I wanted to partner with Shao but then those two guys.. argh. hahah
anyway... games were pretty good... there's this game we should've lost cuz we were losing by so much,
but somehow in the end we kept getting points and won in the end. hah.... weird...
sooo pressured when we were playing that game though,
cuz we can SO feel Jason watching us from behind and suddenly yelling
"SHao! Extend your arm!"... hahaha scariness....... well he's a good coach.. heh
Half court singles with Shao... should start playing singles for Churchill... ai..
I probably can't even drop right... or do stuff right.. haha... ahhH
mixed... pretty confident.. hopefully win something this year. haha (like.. consolation!?)
Back still sore... but stomach cramp gone.. hmmmm damn twisted bones.

Had the weirdest dream last night...
always have weird dreams.. hehe
I dreamt that I was with this girl (forgot who she was)..
she brought me into this store that her parents opened,
and there's 3 rooms that are connected to each other parallely..
(like.. that's so weird.. why would anyone wanna connect them parallelly..)
so I went thru the first one,
then my friend told me not to let her mom see me,
we kinda skimmed thru some clothes in the second room,
then we went into the third rooms which was all games...
I was playing this weird game, and I won,
but the no prize came out.... yah..
Mel's interpretation of it:
You feel like you are in between the extremes,
and sometimes you think you are winning but then in fact you don't..
wait.. is that wat she said!? haha I kinda forgot...

Kinda boring day.. nothing much happened.. YET..
but then there's badminton later.. muhaha...
skill clinics and all that... gonna be fun..... hehh...

Wait is SO hard to endure....
probably the worst thing too....
any kind of wait..
waiting for people, waiting for things, waiting for birth, waiting for death...
the pain itself is only temporary...
it's the wait when you duno when the pain will come that's scary... haha
ohHh I'm glad that wat I was waiting for finally came... ahha
one of them.

Nice productive happy hyper day...
another one of those "days which zooms by"... hehe

Firstly I was EARLY for my english class...
OMG.. I think everyone should stand up and cheer...
hahaha it's so rare! And then... english was okay boring...
Then went to finish my math hw @ the library... took me like an hour...
and then had a pack of cereal for lunch...gotta stick to my budget..
and a can of apple juice... burnt my stomach haha..
and then physics tutorial.. very efficiently (as normal),
finished all questions in an hour with Tracy...
U know, if ONLY we could take the midterm/final wiht a partner.. haha
and then, drove to PG and coached and played for like 2 hours...
Jeff and Victor's getting better...
Jen Lam pretty impressive altho still needs more endurance...
Peter Man still very cocky...
Alvin had better attitude though today... surprisingly...
heh yah... after that drove right back to UBC for MORE badminton..
hehe 4 hours in total.. wheee.. hahaha sooo fun!!!
First game was reeeally good...
me and Shao against these two guys about the same strength as us...
it was sooo close and we were losing 10-14 but then somehow they kept screwing up,
and they never got to 15... hehe we caught up somehow,
with our flukey shots and lucky returns.. and we went into deuce and finally won. 17-14.
WooHOO... hehhe that was like.. best game I've played since I quit VRC. hahaha
Today I felt like myself too... hehe smashed okay but still lacking confidence...
drops and backhands and stuff were all okay.... ran fast cuz I had shorts on...
hehe fun.......... fun....
second game with these two not as good ppl...
just fooling around for the whole game....
Shao kept smashing at me too... hahaha in the end I could return them...
Third game was against those two guys in first game again..
not as good, but still fun.. hehehe we beat them 15-11 or somethin...
Kinda surprising.... cuz it was so funny I kept laughing,
and this one time both Shao and I ran to the same spot..
and then it was all so chaotic and somehow we still managed to return the shots and stuff...
it was fun AND funny... hehehehe... sooo fun!!!
Hoping badminotn tomorrow would be as fun too.. ehhehe
skill clinic... and.. 5 long hours.. muhaha...
After that i went home.. had dinner, watch TV, ICQ,
having interesting conversations with interesting ppl,
then spent amazingly short period of time checking answers with Mel...
hahaha it was good... thought we would take longer... hehehe
Yah... and now I'm updating this...
Such a productive day! hEhee... so fun...

My new least fav word: RARELY...
so hard to pronounce! Stupid tongue thing. ahha

PHYSICS midterm...
muhahaha... our prof's soo nice
he's giving retest to all those who got lower than 75%
and he's giving 2 extra marks to EVERYONE!!
WOOHoo.. hahaha soo nice!!
I'm so stupid though.. *sigh* how'd I get 14 from square root of 98!?
And how can I forget to calculate the rate... ahhHH...
Still good tho.. I'm happy with my mark. hahah...

Lost to Hamber 4-6...
They had "buff" guy who looked like Jay Chow,
and this Betty lookalike! heh... so funny...
It was pretty good though.. really tight...
we had 4 games that went into third set,
but we only won one of them..
if only we got 2 more. heh...
They all did pretty well... good job...
Well that proves that PG don't suck..
we are at around the same level as Hamber..
Jenny and Kitty going into third set against Phoebe and this other girl was kinda surprising...
good job you guys... Hung and Kwok... tired in their 6th set...
Need to learn how to play brains instead of play strength...
yah... well. To get in the playoffs we need to win ALL the rest of our games...
which is kinda impossible because we're probably gonna lose to PW and St. Georges...
OH well. Have fun that's the key....
One thing I realized... coaching is only fun when ppl listen to you.

Met Jason Lee and Terrence today during my spare...
Kinda fun to run into ppl....... haha.....
stupid silkworm that stuck onto Jason's shirt...
and then... me taking Terrence's sausages...
haven't seen him in a while.. hmmm he's still like that...
feel sorry that his mom died a while ago tho. *sigh*...
Yah... it was good.
I just realized that somehow I see a whole lotta guy friends around campus,
but I never run into my girl friends!?
Today I met Jason and Terrence,
then while talking to Terrence I saw Michael and Kent,
and ran into wutz his name.... this guy and Alan..
and did I run into any girls? no.... weird.......
somehow girls are better at hiding themselves. haha

Seems like I'm getting lazy in updating aren't I!?
haha... well..
hate to admit it but.. yah I am. hehe

Today... was like a really really bad day actually..
this morning I was in a hurry so I parked a little bit on the line,
when I left to fetch my car someone left a note saying:
"Learn how to park"....... so pissed off...
I wasn't even in his space, if he couldn't come out,
HE should learn how to park. psh...
And then... screwed up on my english critical summary cuz there wasn't enough time..
by the end I was just making up stuff... ai... very bad...
think I did an okay job on the summary tho.. hmm
then stupid comp sci lab..
didn't have lunch till like 4...
almost got ran over by this stupid car while crossing the road,
cuz I was daydreaming...
and then there was badminton...
Even tho it was only an hour it was fun. hehe
Not many ppl... games with Mason...
excellent... okay fun... played 1/3 good game with girl and guy..
and we won. hahaha... Mason and his stupid jokes...
and then rushed to PG to coach badminton..
stupid guys don't listen don't wanna be taught,
fine... Mixed game with Shao against Hung and Kwok..
yah played really poorly on super slippery gym floor...
STupid Alvin saying I was pregnant cuz I pressed on my stomach...
I was HUNGRY cuz I didn't eat anything just to COACH them.. psh..
On my way home.. stupid car suddenly backed up into my side mirror...
@#*(*@##.. craziness...
Crazy day... haha was so pissed off..
but got much better after I got home.
The reason is... left for you to figure out. hahaha

OH Yah..
Why did ah dung die!?? T__T
hahah... he deserved it but.... ai...
will I lead myself to self-destruction someday like him!? haha ah...

And "Yas"...
haha Yes + Yah = Yas...
Winnie: Sounds like short form of "your ass".. hhaha

Ironic:
I will work ahead later

my fav word for now: Possibly...
cuz it's so vague.. and so useful at times. haha

Should see a doctor about my ear soon...
like.. REAL soon...
Keeps on getting clogged/plugged or watever...
and then it pops but immediately gets clogged/plugged again...
ahhHH and when it's clogged/plugged,
I can't hear anything from that ear....
sooo freakin scary/ annoying!!!


Okay... firstly.. update abt last night..
went to watch video w/ Jenny, Win, Shao, Ann and Jim...
Showtime.. hehe pretty relaxing comedy...
It was okay funny but it's a good no brainer.. hehe
And then... yah that's basically all we did..
then I went home... haha
Saw this guy from my english class @ Blockbuster.. heh
Yah wat else.. saying 'gon chao ngau hor' to Ann...
uhhh don't really remember anymore. OH well. heh

Today...
Had lunch with family friends today....
hehe baby.. sooo cute!! Kept playing with my dad.. hehe
then... went out with Lar...
immediately after I stepped into her house,
my ear got plugged again so I was blaming her house allll the way... haha
Saw her trophies... hahaha pretty swell, Lar.... pretty swell... heh
Hmm.. found out who her uncle is.. Wong Chau Sung!? haha..
Den..we went to Parker and shopped around for a bit...
Saw Angel's brother.... hehe the special moment when we both thought of Angel.
then went to Richmond Center again.. haha
how come we always end up @ richmond center...
crazily mad when searching for parking spots...
Lar... ur SUPER indecisive!!!! Sooo indecisive..
Ohhh and the nice suede shoes... oOOo...
and then there's all those lesbians we saw...
and the couple that reminded us of the lady in HK... hah
and then... free fries!!!
*sigh* I spent over my budget again.... damnit...

Half insomnia....
These days I'm always going to sleep thinking abt a lot of stuff,
then dreaming about a lot of stupid stuff while I sleep,
then waking up thinking abt the dream and feeling like I never slept at all...
And THEN... I feel so tired, but I can't fall back to sleep,
and I start getting really grumpy (in bed) and feel like I'm outta control...
Ai.. wat's wrong with me...
no more midterms too...
maybe my body's reacting to the pressure one week late.
Ho sun fu.......... argh..................

來吧做個互相利用的朋友...

Stupid line dance song stuck in my head
"Now I would walk five hundred miles
and I can walk five hundred more..."

Badminton... really good unstresser...
even tho I still won't know whether I'll be like that again until tonight...
Ah.. badminton was good. hehe
Shao and I played half court singles with a crappy birdie..
time for some new ones... when I have money.
Then.. we played doubles against Antina and Jacqueline...
we beat them both games and Antina got pissed off...
it was fun though... they'd probably beat me if I was playing with Jenny instead..
Antina's too forceful.... Only Shao smashes can beat her. haha
Yah.. mixed.. pretty good.. hehehe looking forward to Churchill B...

OHHH one important thing I forgot to mention here...
CONGRATS to Larissa Leung.....
for being both junior girls singles AND doubles champion!!!
You kick ass, girl! haha... good job.
You: "So do you wanna hang out with the CHAMPION??"
Me: "uh......... -_-;;... "
heh just kiddin!

First off...
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY EMILY!!

then... to those whose birthday I forgot to mention..
Oct. 6th
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY JERRY!
Oct. 8th
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY ROSEMARY!
Oct. 12th
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY WARREN!

upcoming ones:
Oct. 15th
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LINDA!
Oct. 17th
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TOKO!
Oct. 22nd
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANNA!
Oct. 23rd
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JENNY!

den there's my birthday somewhere in btw...
don't I feel special... hahah
8 birthdays in a row!
How broke am I gonna be........ *sigh*... hah
Meanwhile I'm trying to save up for the ski trip too... nooo
It's about time I pack lunch to school or have cookie lunches.. haha

Went to clean teeth @ dentists' today..
ahhh... so much gingivitis...so much blood...
sore gum afterwards.. ouch...
someone should invent a muted teeth cleaner thing..
so we wouldn't have to go thru the mental torture of that thing...
ahhHHh check up after 6 months.. just kill me.

Spent soo much brain power writing a 4 pages long CHINESE letter to my friend..
Yah Steph that's for you.. hah
gonna mail it soon...
Then.. at night I was so tired....
probably spent all my brain power @ the dentist and letter writing already...
not sleepy but just mentally exhausted...
But still, Emily's b-day thing...
it was great!! I hope Emily had a great time...
The super high-pitched opera singer..
"do you wanna hear me sing opera?" hah...
Oh... and the
"I know why the cheese smelt soo good!!
It was cuz of the crayon smell on my fingers...."
And the
"I saw Mel, Roz and Jenny's white teeth...
and then I saw Jim's teeth... all black..."
And the nastily posed mermaid hanging on the cup..
and the tons of drawings we made on the table
Yah... fun... haha
I hope Emily liked the presents too...
I was worrying after hearing wat Mel said
"Why'd you get her a present for her DOG on HER birthday?"
but then seeing her so excited....
think we made the right choice. heh...
On the way back home..
"How do you say "paai ping guo?"
Shave an apple?"

Inside joke of the day:
"What about the dogs in Africa?"

Sooo sorry to Jen Chui.... couldn't make it to badminton...

Kinda glad of the first bad half of my day yesterday...
cuz I got a great second half return... heh

Tiredness......
possibly pissed someone off... ai oh well.
Make it up when I'm more awake. cya.

Badminton... was fun.. hehe...
played with Mason, Stoney, Andy and Mason's sister... forgot her name...
So fun... all I remember was Andy and i beat Stoney and Mason 2-1...
and then half court games vs Mason - lost - 9-11
vs this other guy forgot his name - lost 5-6
vs Andy - won 7-2
then singles game w/ Andy.. forgot the score.. but it never ended..
ahhh fun... fun... but pulled muscle..
somehow it got better after I played more.. hehe
then sometime during the game..
I start seeing stars.... dizziness....
wat's wrong?? ahhh....
And then boring times...
going to talk to Flora and Jason and this other girl I met whose name I forgot..
So mean.... Jason and this other girl kept making fun of me,
and then Flora was talkin abt some gossip that I don't get...
Anyway.. it was fun.. heh

Before and after that wasn't fun tho...
Was sooo looking forward to friday badminton
cuz I'm finally done my math and physics midterm...
so depressing.... ai
yah fine ditch me, everyone...

Stupid physics midterm...
I calculated the velocity but I forgot the question was asking about the rate...
#(*@&@*&$#... ahhhH!! dumb....

Hehee.... words I made up:
Pissed-off-ment (n) - The feeling of being pissed off
ex. My pissed-off-ment will not be gone until you die... muhaha....
hahaha reminds me of the word punishment...
Entertaintity (n) - One thing or one's entertaintity represents the level and ability he can entertain other people
ex. My blog's entertaintity is EXTREMELY high I'm sure. heh (no that's not a joke)

OMG!!! Must switch phys lab partner next week...
#@(*&@$^)#(@*$&.........
after the first 30 minutes, I just wanted lab to end...
again, same questions, "why? are you sure?"
"do u wanna do this ALL OVER AGAIN??"
I mean.. what's wrong with her... AhhhHHHH......
frustration!!!!!

Disappontment....
a bit from you,
a bit from them,
a bit from myself...

Lalala.... math midterm.. done... yesh...

Pissed off.......
sometimes, I dun even know why I try....
it's not like it'll make a difference anyway.
damn you selfish idiot!!!!!!

Hyperness making my stomach feel bad...
uhh.... so much acid....
AHhahaha but... but.. so hyper!!

Tried my best....
still getting one word replies?
Maybe I should've given up long time ago.
But I keep thinking one day we might suddenly be as good friends as we were...
keep on dreaming huh? hah

Most 'for' sentence ever:
"I said I felt sorry for her for having Dr. Hawes for physics for 2 years.."

Suddenly remembered this joke... haha
A: "What a pleasant surprise!"
B: "無錯﹐我好少食齋"...
lol....
anyway... soo many surprises today... hehe..
Went to school early with Jen cuz of the stupid commotion the queen made..
then went to math... boring class..
after that, walked Mel to forestry and got freaked out cuz of stupid silk worms..
then I started meeting all these ppl I usually don't see around campus... hah...
met Jason and walked with him down to near the Koerner's library,
and right after I part with him I met Sarah,
and I went to David Lee Library to study with her...
wat the hell.. haha craziness... Jason and Sarah....
2 years ago I would've left after saying "hi" and "bye"...
and then I went to comp sci after studying...
was tuned out for the whole class...
by the end I was like 'huh? the class ended?' haha...
Then physics.... HUNGRINESS!!
Didn't eat anything since this morning... had 1/4 of a mooncake.. T__T
Annoyed my friend by continuous whining
"HUNGRRYYY.."
"Shut up!"
".... HUNGRYYYY..."
"Shut up!"
and so on.. hahahaa hungriness! Oh my god! never been so hungry...
after that @ Hebb, I met up with Jenny and I met James Van!
Again.. another weird meeting.. hahaa
yah.. that's abt it for my "today's pleasant surprises" haha...
yah.. 我都好少食齋...

New source of hyperness, motivation and happiness... muhaha

Damn!!
Mel cursed me!
Ahhh if I lie my wrist is gonna get even more swollen...
haha stupid Janice.. OMG...
wound from 3 years ago... so fu*king annoying!

Had wonton noodle w/ Jenny, Mel and her bf...
hehe it was weird...
mixing super sweet milk tea w/ hot tea...
it tasted like good bubble tea afterwards! seriously!
we should go open up a bubble tea place
with our ORIGINAL formula.. muhahaa....
make tonnnns of money with this cheap $ saving formula. hah

Excitedness!! Hyperness!!! Craziness!!!!!
OMG! Mel-ness...
I'm pickin up the "Mel slang".... -ness-ness....
and all those "cocky little shitheads.."
and "thanks, I'll give you a kiss! Muuuuah!~"
Wat the hell.....................

Wat's the diff btw excluded and secluded!? wat?

Gotta remember..
owe Jenny $7.. owe Mel $7...
owe Emily present.. and Linda.. and Jerry.. noOoo...
so broke..
and I'm SUPPOSED to save $200 by january for ski trip....

Missed Jerry's bday!!
Ahhh SOOO SORRY!!
Aww... next week...
makeup bday for Jerry.. haha

Question of the night:
What the hell is a "praying mantis"????

Damn... stupid queen so annoying..
now we gotta go early to get parking spaces...
Arrgrh!! Who cares about her.. hah

Funny english accent...
"mastered".. hehee

badminton.. yah wrote about that already.. hehe funfun!!!
After badminton.. study... hmmm.. not so fun..
ahha taking twice the time to make studying more interesting...
is it worth it!? hehe...
Funny...
Me: If Ann didn't get it of course I wouldn't get it either!
Ann: DUH!! Of course you would get it...
(notice she used WOULD instead of WOULDN'T)...
hahahahaa hilarious man...
Soooo many damn stupid math questions that we can't figure out..
Teriyaki, Hot and Honey pepperoni.. mMmm...
Jenny's poking.... and weird noises....
OH! The slapping.. "Biak!" (worst sound effect ever)...
In Jim's room.. coincedences...
Shao: Oh you have computer science one two two (122) right?
me: Yah! HOw'd you know I have comp sci from ONE TO TWO!?
hahahaha funny.....
and the BULLGUARD thing that kept popping up... hehe
OH yah.. earlier on in the car...
Me: I want a dad with a faculty pass...
Shao: You have a past dad...
Me: Right... get... Jason to be my dad
Shao: He's too young..
Me: Hmm.. get my physics prof.. he's nice..
Shao:.. sure...
Me:.. he's black tho...
lol........... and later on
Shao: No wonder you want to rap so much.........
hehehehehe....... funniness!!!
And during studying..
Ann: *explaining* blah blah blah..
Me: .................................. huh?

No more generation gap! hehe...
whee...

I've found my new source of motivation...

Badminton!
Soooo fun!!!
It felt like training again today... ahaha
and I finally got my 'touch' back..
altho I couldn't smash,
at least I could run around the court and do nice net shots. haha
And I didn't pull anything cuz I stretched b4 I played!
I also had a couple minutes of "iron chair"...
hahaa... it was good..
we hogged the court for like an hour... and no one kicked us out. hahaha
training...... ah....... didn't realize it was so fun to train.

damn! Haven't updated for wat.. 3 days!?
Ahh.. I didn't realize it's been so long already...
heh.... midterms coming up,
gonna be busy for a while...
but it's all good... so far manageable.

Somehow I don't really like ppl barging into my life...
afraid of ppl who
suddenly become friends with all of my friends,
suddenly become better friends than me with all of my friends,
and suddenly become so familiar with everyone that I feel left out...
been thru that already lonng time ago.... don't like it...

badminton is so fun...
it's only fun when you play your best though...
it totally sucks when you play poorly or partner with someone you don't know..
yah... that's what I think. heh...
played around.. 4 games in 3 hours.. haha
and only two of them were good games too... but that was enough.. hehe
Squashminton.. our new sport.. so fun!! hehe...
Weird drunk lady who probably likes Jason.. hahaha funny....

Been spending a lot of time either in the library doing math,
or in my car sleeping these days...
skipped comp sci class to sleep last friday.. haha
watever... if I go to class i'll probably fall asleep in class anyway,
same thing...
over the limit phone bills.... midterms... money saving... getting skinny...
and skin improving... so much stuff going on at the same time... haha.
One can never possibly go TOO far....

Hey, don't write yourself off yet
It's only in your head you feel left out or looked down on.
Just try your best, try everything you can.
And don't you worry what they tell themselves when you're away.
It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle of the ride
Everything, everything will be just fine, everything, everything will be alright, alright.
Hey, you know they're all the same.
You know you're doing better on your own, so don't buy in.
Live right now.
Yeah, just be yourself.
It doesn't matter if it's good enough for someone else.
It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle of the ride.
Hey, don't write yourself off yet.
It's only in your head you feel left out or looked down on.
Just do your best, do everything you can.
And don't you worry what the bitter hearts are gonna say.
It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything, everything will be just fine, everything, everything will be alright, alright.
It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything, everything will be just fine, everything, everything will be alright, alright.
-- The Middle, Jimmy Eat World

Good job PG badminton team!!!
Even though we lost, we should be proud that we got 5 games down!
They did their best so I'm happy with the results.
They could do better, tho... training.. muhahaha..

Hmm......... nothing much to say today...
haha I didn't have lunch... cuz.. no time...
OH.. and I think I got skinnier! haha
that's not what I intended tho...
probably got skinnier cuz of the crazy badmitnon during weekends.. heh
Oki... dun realy feel like updating today...
nitez

開始有D”燃亮自己﹐照耀別人" 0既感覺...
但係當火柴燒到最後0個時點算?

Half a day of doing stuff for other ppl.. heh...
feels busy, but it makes me feel good.
Started @ 5:30 when I went to coach PG badminton...
still needs some organization....
then gave Victor ride home...
then helped my bro with his jap hw..
then helped my dad with cleaning up...
then helped Jen Chui ask abt somethin...
then helped Shao, Ann and Hendra with their comp sci lab...
and then again.. I left all I was supposed to do till the end... hmmm

Ai! This is so sad....
Jenny, Mel, Winnie, even Cindy and Erin...
they're alll being execs...
but I'm not.....
not that I didn't try...
ahHHH should've gotten over this long time ago...
*sigh*... 好謹僅於懷....tim......

Oh yah yesterday..
hmm dun remember much abt yesterday aside from badminton..
heh.. and aw so cute guy. hahaha
it was pretty good....
sometimes I always wonder if I'm thinking too much..
like the time when Jason was playing and he asked if I wanna play,
I said no cuz he didn't get to play in the beginning...
so I was waiting for someone else to ask...
but then later, he ended up letting me play anyway cuz he has physics...
ah... I DO think too much don't I.
Inherited it from my dad... ><

I actually did math assignments today!!! hehee
finished another section..
gotta get caught up... *sigh* by the time midterm starts...
I'm sorry Lar I mgiht not be able to go watch u,
but u know I'm gonna be cheering u on while I study!! hehe...
U can do it girl! Beat that chubby girl and win the champion!!!

And OH my god I LOVE my physics prof!!! haha (as in admire)
You just gotta love his accent!!
ANd.. he is seriously the best prof..
he walks up to the students and ask
"are you doing alright? Are you getting the stuff?"
ah... since when did ur last teacher do that!? ahha..