who called me?
WHO????????????????????
couldn't figure out who it was.. ahhHH

The Rochai's definition of the word 'fun' :-
bEach... fun!!
soccer... fun!!
Frisbee... fun!!
Water balloons... fun!!
running weirdly... fun!!
walking on soft sand... fun!!
Getting scared by shrimps... fun!!
Splashing water @ Jenny... fun!!
Getting splashed at by Jenny... fun!!
Running and screaming w/ Jenny for no reason... fun!!
Icecream sandwich... mMMmm.. YUM!

It happened again today...
couldn't stop laughing,
and laughed even more after hearing Ann laugh...
Laughed till I had tears in my eyes.. haha
I was gonna tell Jenny the funny thing,
but I ended up just laughing it up myself,
cuz I started laughing and couldn't stop b4 I finished telling it...
oh my god.. haha uncontrollable and contagious laughter....

We were throwing water balloons at a log...
and then we realized that someone was sleeping behind it.. hahahah
he sat up and shook his head at us.. psh.. hahaha...

Our two-log soccer game...
it was so fun!! hehee
I ran out of breath soooo easily..
my aiming skills were close to nill...
and my goalie skills.... even worse. hahaha
but still.. i had fun, and that's all that counts. hehe...

Why are they charging $ for everything now?
EVERYTHING!?! all the free entertainment.. gone!!
even a-kuei!! sucks!!!

Info tech.. argh........
7 more classes to go..
shit.

Today felt like a weekend...
all i remembered was the beach.. the beach.. and more about the beach! hehe
Well b4 that we had Grad breakfast.. hehe
Letourneau cooked pancakes for us.. hahaha and there was bacon.. mMmm..
and apple juice and fruits.. mmMm.. hehe that was pretty good.
Then Inglis let us do watever we want for english so we left and sat around doing nothing,
Then info tech.. ah......
Then there was the grad assembly which was EXTREEEEMELy boring
(probably cuz I didn't get anything. hahaha)
and then there was another boring lunch,
and then Grad ceremony rehearsal... hmmm...
we're graduating in 7 days....
7 days... that's exactly one week from today.
*panic* what am I gonna do? what am I gonna do????

Okay my newer computer is totally fucked up now..
by WHO?
by my stupid brother... oh my god...

Grad breakfast!!!
Teachers serving us..muhahaha!!
Damn...I won't have a letter to open,
nor will I be in the video they're showing! T__T....

Finished reading all the Naruto they have,
and the one-piece they updated.. hmm
now what?

Drafting actually looks really fun...
I would've almost taken it if I didn't have to take accounting last year.. heh
but now that I think about it...
nah... too much work.. hehe

Am I a sadist???
hah... maybe I am.
Every script I write has a chaotic ending...
does that reflect my personality or what?

It's so weird..
I'm speaking in a different style now...
this is the result of over-dose of comics.

Hmm.. kinda figured out my timetable for UBC
2 math, english, phy, chem, computer science, jap,
and maybe psyc.... but....ah.. I duno.
It's gonna be all hardworking classes...

All that's in my mind right now is..
NOT provincial exams..
NOT graduation...
but...
NARUTO!
Oh my god!! I am totally addicted.... T__T
I love Kakashi and Lee tho.. hehe
Kakashi is so cool.. .
always acting like he doesn't care and hiding his abilities...
And Lee.. hehe
he's so funny looking... but I like his personality.

Physics test..
*sigh*.. oh my god...
I seriously did REALLY bad on it...
confidence level = 0........

I'm lucky?
Am I gonna be lucky enough to hang through and get in UBC?

All I've been doing lately is reading comics and napping...
*sigh*.. it's time for some...
.....
....
exercise.

second relief...

Band's finally over....
We played the best in years?
Hmmm... I doubt that he was sincere abt that. haha....
Seriously.. when I asked my dad which song he thought sounded the best..
he said...
the chorale.. T__T

Oh my god...
how the hell did I spend one hour in the showers!?
Time pass by super fast when you start singing in there.. hehe
and Opera music too... hehe Opera music makes me shiver,
but shivering in a good way tho...
The extreme sounds (really good / really bad) always makes me shiver...
Ha... haven't practiced singing Opera music for a while. hehe...
I remember I used to sing with Jenny Law @ her house.. hehee
I wonder if anyone heard us... probably not cuz if anyone did,
they would either leave very quickly or close their windows immediately. hehe

Naruto...
such a good comic!!! hehe...
I love Kakashi.... and the Guy with Haku...
the story was so sad...
I couldn't stop crying for like half an hour....
hahaha maybe it's not just the comics......
feel kinda relieved now...... *phew*........
the tears brought away my worries and stress... kinda.
Finally managed to stop myself from reading the comics,
cuz it's 1:12AM now and I gotta go sleep... hehe
hope I won't have swollen eyes tomorrow (tho I probably will).

Spent most of my day in VRC again.. haha
after the buffet and medal,
they did the draw but I didn't win anything aww.... hehe
well it's oki I had a good time.
Then I stayed and played till around 4:30,
then I went home...
I played doubles with Flo, Lydia and Elisha,
and then we played english doubles...
some stupid adults kicked us out b4 we were done our game,
and we had equal priorities... stupid people,
they think they can kick us out cuz they're older than us?
They suck man.. they didn't even have their rackets up...
Anywho.. afterwards Lydia got pissed off and left,
and all of us left...
well... that was about it for my weekend... haha
Btw, last night I met these two ppl called Michelle and Doug...
haha it's so funny, we kept making fun of Doug's name
cuz he told us ppl calls him 'Duck'.......
and I LOVE the T-shirt I got from the tournament...
a farting elephant... hahahaha

Finished reading Phantom of the Opera today...
It's so sad...
the Phantom let Christine go cuz she gave him a kiss on his forehead..
I mean, if it was me I'd at least ask for a real kiss...
feel so so sorry for the Phantom....
he's just a trapdoor freak who's madly in love.....
The book says it's true,
but i duno if it's meant to be a part of the story or if it was really true...
everything made sense after reading the novel.. hmmm
And after reading the novel,
I listened to the CD of the Opera....
so absorbed in the beautiful melodies and voices...
*sigh*.... it is so lovely!
haha can't find a better word to describe it...

Last night I dreamt that we all went to Playland,
and they had these new rides on the other side of the place that we never went to,
so we all crowded there and there was a long, long lineup,
but then I suddenly had a really bad toothache but I went on the ride anyway...
when I woke up I had my mouth open and for a moment there I still thought I had a toothache...
hehe... weird.......

Celebration!
My first ever gold medal...

Mixed was... not that good.. hehe
actually my partner was okay...
but it's just that we don't really work well together,
and maybe I was tired from all that work on friday...
OH yah.. I didn't update on friday.. hehe
well basically.. I had school,
then physics re-test afterschool,
then I went to check out the beetle I wanted,
and then go home and nap,
dinner, and then tournament @ 11....
Well my energy was probably drained by midnight...
couldn't concentrate at all and kept missing.
OH well.. too bad for my partner. heh
For singles it was okay..
I beat Brenda... hah... by 5 sets -_-...
OH well. It's okay... wat's wrong is I lost my backhand..
I used to be able to do pretty good backhand drops,
but now I just totally lost it...
Brenda kept hitting to my backhand... hah
but then I still won....
and u know wat's surprising!?
Is that I became friends with her... haha
as I've said.. to forgive it much easier than to hate someone...
and I guess I've never really HATED her...
After the first game I had to play Jennifer Chui in the semis..
haha so stupid.. it was almost exactly like the VRC tournament...
5 sets again... at the 5th set I lost 4-7... ouch.. hehe
it's good tho. that means I haven't deproved that much compared to September..
again, she kept hitting it to my backhand..
argh... my reflex is not fast enough so I only have time to do straight drop or half clear...
can't do a crosscourt no matter wat. ahhhhHH.... so slow! so slow!!
Doubles... hehe
thanks to my partner Florence,
and our coach Lydia,
we won all our games and got my first ever gold medal...^^
Happy...happi happi. hehe I guess the $ I paid for this tournament is finally worth something...

I can't take your word for anything anymore,
because you've disappointed me too many times...

Stayed in VRC from 12:00 till 10:00 pm..
actually I went out for lunch @ Cute Pearl with Florence,
but basically I stayed in VRC for like 9 hours...
by 6:00pm I started having a headache,
and it didn't go away at all until I went home and took a shower...
I actually had a really fun day @ VRC...
Became better friends with Lydia and Florence and some other kids.. hehe
it was cool watching Nestor and Nathan play...
they lost a glorious match (brothers vs twins)
Had lots of fun playing cards with Veronica, Lydia and Flo,
watched 5 minutes of That 70's show,
and u know, VRC isn't such a boring place afterall

Addicted to candies...
AND beef sausage... mMmm.. soo good!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am so thankful that I have such a great dad...
sometimes I just duno how to appreciate things he does,
but at times, I feel so thankful I can't express how thankful I am.
Why is it so hard to say a thankyou!? hai....

Btw, the reason I was depressed yesterday was,
I was really bored @ VRC
cuz my team got a walkout cuz our opponents didn't show up,
and during that time, all the friends I knew were playing mix,
and I didn't know other ppl so I just felt really really bored,
so I picked up my cell-phone and tried calling ppl,
Jenny, winnie and Mel's cell weren't turned on cuz they were watching movie,
and when I found Jenny (law) she was talking to another Jenny...
U know, it's the feeling of loneliness....
the feeling of loneliness @ some place you're not familiar in....
I hate that feeling cuz it scares me.

Hidden in the hour of shadow,
where no one,
even if they do notice,
will care.

it's 1:35AM,
I just came home from the tournament,
and I'm depressed...

Feeling kinda...
confused? unsure?
Graduating in 2 weeks...
just thinking about it...
makes me wanna hug everyone in the school and give them a kiss. hah...
I've been so used to life in PG...
unsure about the future and reluctant to change in what I have lived to be comfortable in...
But things move on, whether I like it or not...
Ai.. oh my god.....
this feels kinda like when I was immigrating here...
the thing is, I know I will see all those people again,
but I won't be able to see them everyday...
things I've been taking for granted are now taken away,
and I dun have confidence in myself to keep the relationship with all my friends and teachers I've known and loved
Just hate life for being such a bitch...
always taking things away when you've just started feeling comfortable around them...

That whole thing just felt like another grad writeup. hah...
and stupid annual people... now we won't be able to get everyone to sign our annuals *sigh*

Beginning to hate Inglis less...
who knows? Maybe it's the power of graduation.
I'm even participating more in in-class discussions...
I'm reading the stories and doing the homework (yea I know, that's kinda unbelievable huh?)
and I feel like being nicer to her and cursing her less from now on.
Yea.... well, to forgive is much easier than to hate.

Watched the video we recorded from the concert last night...
The music was... *cough* pretty bad...
but the spirit was high and I think we all did our best (or tried to)..
the interviews with Mr Taylor are really funny.. hehe
you should see him.. always tryin to run away from the camera.
So this is wat I'll remember band and Mr T from...
well well well.. I dun think I'm even gonna play my trombone anymore...
damn, I never felt so in love with band until this moment when I know there aren't anymore classes...
It's too late, but I dun regret because I've tried my best....
yes, I did (considering that fact that I've been tryin to juggle 7 other courses and still getting an A)
well.... as Ann likes to put it
GOODA-BAI, band!

Becoming uncaring.... hmmm

Phantom of the Opera....
so addicted to reading it

Reading Phantom of the Opera,
starting to feel very sorry for the Phantom...
T__T

Aside from singing chibimarukochan's song during the shower,
I was also singing 'Phantom of the Opera'
and various other songs..
and... I SOUNDED GOOD! I INSIST! hehee...

Love this song!!
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in english:
Nandemo kandemo minna
odori wo odotteruyoo~
onabenonakakarapowatto
inchiki ojisan doujyo
itsudatte wasurenai
ejison wa eraihito
sonnanojyoushiki~
Tattatararira
Piihyara piihyara pappaparapa
Piihyara piihyara pappaparapa
Piihyara pii ohesokachirari
pappapararira
Piihyara piihyara pappaparapa
Piihyara piihyara odoruponpokorin
Piihyara pii onakagahetayo~

in mandarin:
摳牙齒書沒背晚回家
人人多少都有些壞習慣
今天這樣明天一樣怎麼辦
我總不能永遠這樣會完蛋
下定決心 把缺點打倒
不怕跌倒 信心最重要
我們都是這樣長大
稍息立正站好
霹靂啪啦 呼嚕嘩啦 鉛筆找不到
鏗鏗鏘鏘 乒乒乓乓 上課又遲到
嗚嗎嗎 呼呼哈哈 做事不能一團糟
稍息立正站好
霹靂啪啦 呼嚕嘩啦 這一次會更好
鏗鏗鏘鏘 乒乒乓乓 人小志氣高
嗚嗎嗎 呼呼哈哈 臨時抱不到佛腳~

in cantonese:
無記性無耳性口多多
何時才能期望一一改過
有了過錯我再試過可不可
爸爸媽媽從前亦也犯錯多
我怕上課 更怕那家課
最怕計算 答案有差錯
明日到底會像怎麼
問題天天都多
Beli Bala Beli Bala 不驚會跌倒
Beli Bala Beli Bala 爸媽當我寶
Beli Bala Beli Bala 天天身體會增高
問題天天都多
Beli Bala Beli Bala 改得會更好
Beli Bala Beli Bala 小子志氣高
Beli Bala Be 答案至終找得到~

CHIBI-MARUKO CHAN!

Heard an old song in the radio today...
don't know why but I have a deep impression of this song...
"Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts"
-Don't speak, No Doubt

Watched 'Gon chai lit for' today...
kinda disappointing even tho it's still funny,
I thought 'Sun jart see mui' was the best...
I've been watching so many of Miriam's movie these days...
The thing is, this one's not as funny as the other one,
Miriam's character is not as cute as the other one,
Leo's character is not as sweet as the other one,
and the whole story line is not as good as the other one...
But it's a pretty good movie, nonetheless...
Leo and Miriam are still cute and funny...
This movie will be a good movie if u just watch it once...
the other one, I couldn't stop myself from repeatedly watching it again and again and again...

Had a reeally busy lunch...
first I had to eat lunch,
I had to do a sectional,
I had to pay $80 for grad din,
I had to find my bro to ask him for $,
AND I had to finish my jap wksheet...
wat's stupid is I wasted an hour during my spare sitting in Hendra's car with Ann and Linda,
driving around looking for bubble tea places when all of them were closed.... ah.....

I'm gettin so laaaaaaazy....

I'm getting worse at procrastinating...
I used to leave things till the night b4...
then I leave things till my spare...
and now, I leave things till classtime to finish. *sigh*..
how long can I go on like this??

Morning band tomorrow....
then concert...
then I think we get like one or two more band classes and we're done...
damn.. I'm gonna miss band..seriously...
gonna miss Mr T, gonna miss playing, gonna miss band!! T__T

One-piece...
Love Luffy, Zoro and Sanji...
Usopp is reeeeally funny...
and Nami is smart..
hehe I like the comic sooo much!
Sooo addicted to it.....
But there's only manga scans up to #13...
I wanna... read... !!!!!!

There was a period of time when I just wanted to be left alone...
but now I've come to appreciating the warmth of having accompany... ^^

Still tryin to get ppl to join VRC....
So stupid that I didn't join training in time...
ahhhh hate myself for it...
Morgan's probably comin bak to coach during July,
but I'm not gonna be here....
and then when I'm back, university starts,
and I dun even know if I'll have time for badmitnon anymore.. *sigh*

still very unsure abt my future...
but.... I'll leave that till later. hee...

update from yesterday...
hmmm didn't really do much yesterday...
finished filming our jap video.. it was funny. hehee
and then I went jogging with Kwok...
Jogging was so nice...
I could talk while I jog for about 30 minutes...
we went to 7-11 to get a drink and I got some candies,
then I jogged home... very nice....
then I went out to dinner with my dad's friends...
A pair of twin sisters from Philadelphia.. hmmm
they were pretty nice actually...
yea.. it was a boring day....

Hmmm did I forget to update for two days!?
ahaha apparently I did...

Updates from yesterday...
Badminton @ VRC...
Lydia is nice.. haha
I played a couple of games..
and it wasn't really fun.
I like training much better bcuz we constantly had something to do...
OH well.. training is much more expensive plus it was full when I wanted to join T_T

After badminton,
I felt like I didn't have enough exercise so I went jogging...
so bad.. I'm so out of shape..
I got tired after like.. 10 minutes..
but I held on until I jogged for 30 minutes...
It was pretty refreshing...
but I think I need MUCh more jogging....
to improve my endurance and to get my muscles in shape.

----
that's all for yesterday...

NEVER, EVER go to the VW dealer @ Richmond Auto mall..
oh my god.. they piss me off so much.
There's this sales that talked to my dad on the phone b4 we came,
so we waited for him
but he made us wait AN HOUR b4 he refered us to someone else cuz he was busy...
Jeez.... if u were busy, u could've refered us to someone else earlier...
that's not the right way to treat customers...
well that's that.
And so we were talking to this lady sales,
and her boss really suck..
they didn't wanna do any work if we weren't gonna buy a car from them.
That's crazy u know!/ How can u guarantee that a customer will buy a car from u?
The thing is, if u do the work there's a chance that the customer will buy the car,
but if u dun even bother to do the work, the chance is 0...
*sigh*.... such a baaaad car dealer........

Did two scenes out of 3 for our jap project today...
it didn't turn out as funny as it's meant to be,
but I hope other ppl will enjoy it...

It sucks to have VRC membership but noone to play with,
cuz none of my friends have the membership.....
it just totally sucks!
In time I will know more ppl from VRC....
and then I won't have to rely on my friends now anymore...

ah... why am I turning into such a bitter person?
oh well......... can't help it.

I really don't know why I have so much time to spend on this....
hmmmm..... have to admit that I don't spend my time wisely.

Baby star noodles... mMMmm...

Happy birthday to u~
Happy birthday to u~
Happy birthday to daddy...
Happy birthday to U!!

Yea u guessed it man!
Today's my dad's birthday...
went shopping for food afterschool with Jenny,
and cooked a full dinner for dad...
we made Salmon, Spinach and 'Yee Min'... noodles..
My first time cooking a chinese meal,
and it was pretty successful..hehe
making my bro do all the frying,
I did most of the sauce and chopping stuff.
We managed to finish cooking in 2 hours...
You know, that's pretty good already...
The salmon tasted like those baked oysters in those jap place...
mMmm that was so good...
the spinach was good because it had good sauce..
The noodles were excellent.. hehe tasted like those in restuarants,
and it's really 'ho yee tau'... 'cheung sau' ma...
Wat's stupid is, we didn't make any soup cuz we had leftover from last night,
but there was 'dung gua' in it...
choi.. dai gut lai see!
initially my bro and I made a deal that I'll get the food and he'll wash the dishes...
I ended up getting the food AND washing half the dishes...
*sigh* my bro is just SUPER lazy...
and if he doesn't do it, then my dad'll have to do it tomorrow morning
and that just loses the whole point of making dinner for dad,
so I ended up doing it.. ahhHH!!
Forgot to make a card last night
and didn't make one in time this afternoon,
so I'm making it right now and planning to surprise him tomorrow morning.
Hmmm.. yea that's my day....

My voice was so good today in the showers! haha...
it felt so good...
talkin abt singing,
I was singing with Jenny in the band room today during the sectional,
and when we were done, I didn't see Mr Taylor in the band room
and Jenny started singing, and I sang a little... haha so embarrassed when I saw he was inside.

You know who has the nicest legs??
MR TAYLOR... oh my god..
he has even better legs than Shaolin!
He has the skinnest pair of legs... hahaha
somehow it doesn't look awkward on him tho.. hmm

Finally tried strawberry calpis water...
one word for it... sugar.........

Finished our jap script... excellent. hehe...

Friends.. funny..
Ross: Oh my god! What is that?
Doctor: It's the baby's butt!
Ross: Oh good, I thought our baby had two heads...

-- weirdness exposure --

"How can I help it if I think you�re funny when you�re mad
Trying hard not to smile though I feel bad
I�m the kind of guy who laughs at a funeral
Can�t understand what I mean?
Well, you soon will
I have a tendency to wear my mind on my sleeve
I have a history of taking off my shirt"
-One week, Barenaked Ladies

Aside from all of the above in the lyrics,
I'm the kinda girl who laughs at things that nobody think is funny at all...
when someone tells a good joke, most of the time I dun find it funny...

Today while talking to my bro about the 8:30 TV show,
in which a male cop said (in weird english) 'Don't stereo-type and judge me please',
my bro asked me what stereo-type meant..
I didn't know how to explain it to him so I asked my dad,
but he misheard me asking him what 'spare ribs' mean and he immediately answered,
" mai 排骨 lor!"
and that made me laugh hysterically,
unable to stop because my bro kept making weird laughs to make me laugh...
My stomach hurts and I was crying from laughing so hard...
You know, I haven't had a good laugh in a looong time..
the last time I laughed that hard was...
when my bro were making weird laughs again and I couldn't stop laughing.

Thought a lot in the showers...
brought back so many memories.
Among my friends, probably only Jenny and Shao have seen me laugh hysterically,
of which they have most likely forgotten about already...
we were in grade 10, and we were having lunch in Macdonalds after sunday badminton
when I spotted this chubby caucasian girl squeezing her Sweet & Sour sauce...
somehow I found that very funny and couldn't stop laughing..
both Jenny and Shao were like '... what's so funny?'
well, they'll never understand...
no one ever understood why I laugh at something that's not funny,
and I dun even know why...
I dun laugh at everything but its at those very rare occasions
when a weird scene triggers my laughing nerve...
- I remember when I was in elementary,
my friends and I would tell jokes and start laughing... hysterically..
back then it was so easy to have a good laugh...
we would not be able to stop laughing,
because once we see each other laughing we can't stop ourselves from laughing,
until two other students come over and separate us....
ha.. back then, everything was much easier... heh

Good laughs are gonna appear less and less,
until finally one day,
we will only be able to laugh artificially....
gotta treasure these weird laughing moments...

What kind of smile did u put on today?
we are so used to smiling in natural reaction
that we forget the reason we smile....
according to twisted deductive reasoning:
we smile when we're happy. [yes] yea
are we smiling? [yes] hell yea
are we happy? [so the answer must be... yes?] not necessarily..

English mock provincial...
disappointing results, but overall I did okay...

What I hate about poetry is,
there is always more than one interpretation
and they can't just have one set answer for a question like this...
so unfair.
If they can tell me why I was wrong,
instead of telling me what SHOULD be right,
I would be less frustrated...

Satisfied with my essay and prose response mark...
I screwed up big time on the MCs and Poetry response...
Can't do that in the real one... can't afford to.

I'm the type of person who lets other people cut in front of me,
not say anything but curse them in my heart...
I know... I'm just horrible....

Insecurity.... ahh I hate that feeling.
why can't I just be charming and charismatic and confident?
Well no... if I'm that then I'm not me...

Physics test....
hai...............

Was it worth it?
Yea it was....
the feelin of success and accomplishment overweighed my acedemic worries...

until you try,
you'll never know how many things u can juggle at one time.... haha....

Conversation of the day:
"Me: A plane! A plane!
Win: Where? Where?
Me: Oh it's behind the trees..."

Lost count of my planes...
I have like 300... I think...
I think I'll start from 300 again...

Flash is actually quite interesting...
flash actionscript is similar to C++,
so we can actually work around that a bit better....
"Who wants to be a Millionaire" is waiting for us to build. hee...

What is the price of true friendship?

I believe I made a very stupid decision today..
yet it's a decision that I had to make,
cuz if I didn't make it I'd be betraying my morals...

glad that I wasted my afternoon napping,
or else I would've fallen asleep studying physics cuz I had morning band this morning... GOd.

it's 2am.....
fuck... it took me 2 hours to study physics,
and assuming that I started at 10:30,
I would've been done at 12:30...
but I couldn't,
cuz my friend had an important essay she needed me to proof-read...
7 pages and it took me 2 hours to proof-read cuz her english was........ -_-"
fark.... so pissed off....
I could've told her I dun wanna proof-read it,
but I knew she was relying on me and I couldn't turn her down....
Oh my god... she could've at least gave me the story earlier..
she gave it to me this afternoon,
called at 10 and told me she needs it in an hour and a half...
FARK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I know wat Jenny meant by
"doing something that you know you shouldn't, but you just have to...
and you know the consequences of it, but you just can't stop yourself from doing it..."
When I was done proof-reading,
my eyes were sore, my shoulders were aching and I still haven't taken a shower yet...
U know I should really get some sleep right now...
shit............

Wasted a sunny day...
ahhHHHhH!!!
All I did was walk home in the sun...
was planning to either jog,
or badminton @ VRC...
but ended up falling asleep cuz I had morning band..
Sucks...

Wasted!!
I wasted a suny day..
feel so guilty abt it...
why didn't my Tree of Wisdom make me any smarter?

Gaseous Digestive System...

Daniel... sooooooo cute!!!!!!!!!!!
Love him in 'Sun jat see mui'...
he's soo cute..... so tall and huggable. haha...

I used to not like Miriam at all,
but after watching a couple of her movies,
she's actually really kawaii.. haha...

"Sun Jat See Mui"...
love the movie..
love every character in it..
hehe it's sooooo funny!!!
very successful comedy. hehe..

What is everybody else doing
while I'm here bored???

Flash... arrgh...
we're advancing in baby steps...
when are we gonna finish the game!? *sigh*...

I have this REALLY, REALLY bad habit of leaving everything till the end...
and the night b4 things are due...
I suffer...
like I am.. now..... ><

Calculus..... ahhHHHHHHhhh

The Rochai Dictionary to Internet expressions
=) ----- happy smile
=( ----- sad frown
=D ---- happy laugh
:-) ----- pretending to be happy smile
; ) ----- Happy wink
^_^ ---- I'm-smiling-cuz-I-duno-wat-to-say smile
^0^ ---- hohohoho smile
>; ) --- mischievious wink
=0 ---- surprised look
>=D -- smart laugh
T_T --- weep
T___T -cry
~~>_<~~ -- happy cry
>< ----- Oh no!
=p ----- you suck
=P ---- playful tease
;=\ ---- disgusted
;=/ ---- semi-mad
>=| --- serious mad
) =( --- not satisfied
: c ) -- I have a fat nose
=o) --- I'm a clown
= 0..-- drool
-_-" --- ......
@_@- sleepy
X_X --- dead
$_$ --- greedy
>__ < -- The ROCHAI smile!
\++/

hmmm..
is my life missing something?

Felt like saying this:
I'm so proud of u, all my friends...

feel bad.........
pissed my dad off again,
and I just couldn't say sorry.....
*sigh*....... wat's so hard to say sorry???

Awkwardness....
but it feels good to know more ppl.
Everything went better than i thought it would.. hehe

My afternoon was just horrible...
but after my nap @ 6,
everything went upwards from then on.. heehee...

When I left,
I waited for around 10 mins and got no reply from anyone on ICQ,
so I went to take a nap and put on my N/A msg
"Everybody's ignoring me! *sob sob*"
but when I came bak after the nap,
there were like 10 msgs waiting for me to answer...
hehe get cheered up instantly...
Then just as my dad was about to order take out,
I stopped him and suggested to go out for dinner..
and surprisingly he and my bro (who NEVER goes out for dinner) agreed...
So we went to Banana Leaf....
ah.. the food there is SOOOOOOOo good..
especially the 'bork beng'.... and the pork chop was good...
the fried tofu and satay lamb was good too..
basically, everything was good, and we didn't have to wait long for seats...
Sooo nice..... had the best dinner in.. months...

Have this commercial stuck in my head..
"Keep that funk alive... keep that funk alive..."

Had the tougest badminton training ever...
First we did speed drills,
which drained like 3/4 of my energy,
then we did half-court singles
and I was too tired I couldn't beat Joseph...
then we went jogging..
oh my god.. jogging...... for 20 minutes...
and I was the last to come in..
but some ppl cheated and went the short way.
Second round was okay...
in the end there were 4 guys left around me,
two sprinted to the end
and I thought 'damn I can't be the last again'
so I started sprinting and the guy behind me couldn't catch up with me.
haha.... my time was wat... 6:13 - 0:55 i think..
So... 5:18? That's pretty okay...
Jogging is normally okay..
but after all those drills and exercise..
I just felt like puking after the jog.

Finally joined membership today...
but I dun feel included at all!?
hmmm.... I wanna go play @ VRC,
but I duno if anyone will be there tomorrow,
since it's mother's day....

Singing!!
So feel like singing...
gotta go singing like crazy in HK.

So motivated today..
motivated after the badminton training..
wanted to do MORE exercise,
but ended up not doing anything AGAIN.... *sigh*

I'm not a sports person...
I dun do well in sports by talent...
I dun just stay healthy without doing any exercise...
All the things I've built up can just wear off in a month if I dun keep building it...
Things don't come easy,
no, not for me...

Non-stop day...
Morning band...
then school...
then bball afterschool...
then badminton after bball...
then shower and half dinner after badminton,
and night of Jazz after shower,
then baked cake after Night of Jazz,
and fell asleep watching Spy games... T__T
So sad... how can I fall asleep watching Brad Pitt!??!?!?

So freakin tired...
I thought I could manage to work through a whole day,
but I proved myself wrong....

I'm getting tanned....
my skin whitening plan... nooo
haha it's okay.
I'll change it to a tanning plan then.
I'll be as dark as a charcoal and scare my mom to death when I see her...
hehehe yea right.

Badminton sucked..
We did doubles but I was late,
so Phyllis already partnered up with Christina,
so I had to partner up with Matthew...
he's a good player,
but he's not a very good doubles player...
always running into me,
and all he does is smash, smash harder, drive, drive harder...
I kept making stupid mistakes...
very very poor perception, kept thinking the birdie was out when it was obviously in...
Pulled my left leg muscle too... it was sore the whole time so I couldn't run fast...
well... it wasn't THAT bad, but it's pretty bad.

The cake we baked was pretty good...
super moist chocolate cake.. mmmMm...
and whipping the cream was fun, I thought... hehe

Ok... enuf update today
I feel like fainting in front of the computer.
Nitez ppl.

Doing a lot of stuff today,
but not accomplishing anythin at all...

Some people are just never committed.

Today i am officially
"Rochai the red-nose rein-girl? rein-alien? watever..."

My skin got all red again after basketball today..
It was okay fun...
basketball's never as fun as badminton. heh...
Maybe cuz I'm not good at it!? hehe
well I caught many many planes during bball...
Right now I have around 260...
I gotta put on some sunscreen from now on...
dun wanna die from skin cancer....

English mock..
oh my god.. can't believe I got 21 for mc..
21!? Ah........ that is just bad...

haven't been doing much work these days.
Just to remind myself,
provincials are coming in a month and a bit...
I get freaked out for like 2 seconds,
then I just go,
Dun worry, I still have a month to study for it,
so enjoy the BiT part......

get ready to S-C-R-E-E-E-E-E-E-A-M!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Very, very fun day...
ah.. so very tired now..
and so not ready for school tomorrow. T__T

I got frustrated at my dad when I didn't know how to go to the Coca-cola bowl...
I never should've gotten mad at him....
ahhHH gotta think of some ways to make it up to him.

Spent half a day at playland..
the first ride we got on was the waterfall thing...
hehe we got all wet so we decided to go on it twice..
second time we were all soaked.. haha but that was fun.
Then we went on the usual rides..
wooden roller coaster, ferris wheel, pirate ship, rainbow, corkscrew...
it was a smart choice not to go on rides that twirl...@_@
U know wat's unfair!??!
The teachers get a teacher's lounge @ Whitespot,
the # of teachers are wat..... 1/10 of the # of students!?
And they take the lounge while us students have to fight for seats outside...
THEN, teachers take the student's seats and we can't say anythin abt it...
wat the hell is wrong with people!?!?
Anyway.. back to fun stuff...
The best ride was probably the wooden roller coaster...
I wasn't scared when they took the picture cuz I was too concentrated in posing.. hahah
The rollercoaster went to fast and the belt was so lose I stood up when it went down the hill.. YEEhah...
and whenever we went over hills I screamed like hell..
hehe wat's an amusement park without some screams?!?!
It'll be so boring if all u can hear is silence in all the rides...
haha so I screamed like hell, whether I was scared or not. hehe
That explains why I have a sore throat now.. T__T
The scariest ride was, in my opinion, the pirate ship...
I HATE the feeling of anti-gravity.. it just really, really freaks me out.
Rides like Hellavator or Coasters aren't as scary,
because they have stuff that holds onto u and u KNOW ur not gonna die..
but pirate ship's so scary...
u feel so insecure in the air.. it really feel like ur gonna fall off.
I guess all I'm afraid of, to the very core, is dying...
Then we had some cottoncandy.. mMm..
and I finally know wat an elephant ear is.
anyway... highlight of playland..
was when Jenny, Jim and I went on The DRoP ZOne...
muhahaha.. that was REALLY fun.. scary but fun...
hehehe the guy was like '1, 2, 3, fly!'
but then I waited for around 2 seconds b4 I pulled the release...
wanted to surprise them... heheheh
It was even higher than the rollercoaster.... hahahahah SO fun!
but was it worth $10!??! hmmmmmm..............

6 words for the drop zone: 又要驚 ﹐ 又要玩 !!

My face's all red from sunburnt today... noooOo

After Playland,
Jim drove us to Tinseltown to watch Spiderman..
we got lost and drove to North Van...
by the time we reach downtown,
most of us were carsick and dizzy...
Jim and I got a drink,
and we went outside with Jenny and pretended to be homeless,
taking pictures with a porche behind us. hehe (pretty pointless.....)
Spiderman was all full.... we had to sit separately,
but overall the movie was really good...
I LOVE his suit!!! With black extruding webs..
just looks totally cool.
The story line was good, there weren't many boring parts...
I was so touched by the part when Peter's uncle died...
the last thing he said to him was 'Then stop pretending to be one (his father)'
and he didn't even get to make it up to him b4 he died..
I think I AM too easily touched... haha
but overall, the movie Spiderman, I like it... hehehe

After movie we went home...
and that's basically everything interesting that happened today...
hehee i hope everyday is like that,
but that is quite impossible.
Take tomorrow, there's school...........

Sometimes things are only good when you do them once in a while...
doing anything in excess will make it bad...

stupid!!

sleepy...

question:
If you were driving one day,
and you saw
a really old woman who's about to die,
a man who's saved your life and
the guy/girl of your dreams,
If ur car can only take one more person, who would u drive?
ask me for answer if interested

Scary ghost story...
The one abt the guy in the funeral..
totally freaked me out

a day of pointless driving...
drove to the tournament place,
just to find that our opponents didn't even bother to come,
and that I wasted two hours driving there to and fro
just for a small birdie decoration prize..
oMG!!
Well I did watch a couple of good games...
but still... taking an hour to drive there is definitely not worth it.

Somehow I published my entry but it is not showing at all.

In the afternoon i went to Richmond with Jenny, Albert and Toko,
thinking I would watch a movie or somethin with them.
But when we finally got to Richmond,
I had to get $ from Yaohan,
and we spent like 30 mins in Parker place..
When we got to SilverCity (cuz the movie in Richmond Centre already started),
but was already 5:45... and I have to go to dinner with parents at 7:00...
uh.... the next movie wasn't until 6:30,
so I ended up busing home with Toko.
Jenny driving isn't THAT scary...
ignoring her occasional mood-oriented speeding habit
and the slip on the steering wheel when she drove onto the pedestrian way..
haha dun worry, Jenny, all u need is experience.

Living in a world of passiveness.. heh

Tournament today...
took us around an hour and 15 mins to drive there..
wasn't too bad... it didn't take too much fuel either.
The tournament was pretty good..
the gym was really bright.. TOO bright...
I did really really poorly in the first game..
we lost 12-15, 0-15... Impossible man...
I was already doing poorly in the first game,
but we still managed to get 12 points...
the second game we just totally lost it.
But I thought if I did better we could've beaten them.
Second game was against some 13 yr old kid...
feel kinda bad smashing at them.. but.. watever. hehe
Third game was the best game...
against Bonnie and Joanne... my BN friends..
It was actually fun.
After staying there for 7 hours
I think i got used to the hotness and stuffiness of the gym,
and I finally started to do well and sweat.
I'm playin too much power and not enough brains..
gotta think man! think!!! Think where to hit the birdie...
think wat their weaknesses are, think attackin their weaker player...
But sometimes I'm so concentrated on hitting a good return,
I dun think and I just play with wat I feel..
not very smart.
My glorious moment of the day: was when they served a really high serve to mid-court, I faked a smash and dropped them instead... and they just stood in awe......
Consolation finals tomorrow.. Arrgh that means I gotta drive to Coquitlam AGAIN.. ><

Thankyou, Jenny (Law)!!
Thankyou so much for bein there with me today...
even tho u were sleepy and bored...
U stayed with me till the end.
couldn't have asked for anythin better...
you're just simply the best.

My new habitual phrase: "Oh my god! I duno wat I'm doing..."

Excellent. Got my next tournament planned out already.
Duno how pissed off my dad will be when he finds out that I'm joining yet ANOTHER tournament...

Belinda's such a nice person..
she's so cheerful and talkative and stuff,
ppl feel comfortable around her...
I think her personality has a lot to do with her friends...
Her friends are really outgoing...
they can speak to a stranger like they're friends with them.
haha kinda wishing I had her personality.

tried so hard to prepare everything last night,
but it end up that I can drive today cuz my bro didn't go to tutor...
I should be happy because now I dun have to bus,
but I'm upset because all my effort is wasted...
Argh.. if only they let me know one day earlier that I can use the car....
Sucks to only have one car sharing in a family.

OMG I am so pissed off...
EVERY SINGLE day I'm getting like 25 E-mails infected with virus,
Argh....

Cheered up after talkin to Steph...
it's great to go bak to HK,
and it's even greater to know someone's waiting for u there.

Planning my 4 hour bus ride to and fro Coquitlam,
was mentally exhausting but accomplishing...
now I seriously know my way there..
know which way we're going,
which bus to take,
which direction to head to...
Almost memorized the map and all the stations,
checking to see which one will give us the least waiting time..
I can drive there tomorrow if I had a car...
It's not that hard to drive to Coquitlam anymore. heh

Worst badminton day ever....
I was playing doubles with Phyllis
and we lost every single game...
just as we were abt to win the last game,
the training was over... oh my god..
I didn't know wat I was doing...
playing my worst...........
And Calvin's back..... sucks!!
Somehow I'm less motivated and play much worse when Calvin's coaching....
Planning to join membership...
but the thing is, I pay less if I join later..
that means if I join after summer..... I'll pay a lot less,
but then by then I'm not sure if there'll still be space.....

Damn.......
it just sucks when I can't play well,
and Calvin will think that I suck,
and everything just SUCK.....
S-U-C-K SUCK.............

Gotta bus to coquitlam tomorrow..
and that just SUCK too.....

so not in a good mood......

One day last week I couldn't find anyone at all..
today I saw so many ppl,
but then I lost the point of looking for people,
because I ended up leaving all of them and walking home alone...
So duno wat I'm doing lately...
living in a cloud of fog...
can't see the way in front of me,
bumping into things in the way...
Lost my direction and the point of moving on
I'm just screwing everything up....... argh

What if they decide to delete all my entries one day?
what if the log I've been keeping for almost a year
gets flushed down the internet drain?
what if, one day this site closes down because of webspace limit,
and I am not able to recover all the memories I left here?
what if one day this thing just disappears??
questioning the point of this blog...
am I keeping record of all this just so that they'll be deleted in the future?
am I just trying to draw on sand, knowing the tide will come one day and wash everything off?
why is everything so pointless all of a sudden?
why?

"I used to be singing all the time,
then my friends get tired of me and tell me to shut up.
So I shut up.
But soon, they wonder why I'm not singing anymore and ask me to sing.
So I start singing again.
This process just keeps repeating itself.."
aren't we all just tryin hard to live up to the values of other people,
tryin to please other people while other people tries to please you...
We're all in the club yet we say it's bad.
We say it's bad yet we dun do anything abt it,
and life just drags on...

ah.. math test...
totally screwed up
and didn't know wat I was doing.
haha........... I have 100% to lose...

I had a deja-vu....
I was at the dance and we did something
and I thought 'oh my god... I've dreamt of doing this b4!'
and it was exactly like it... haha
feels so mystical.. heh

okay... I had a really harsh day but it brought me a good end...
I slept at 3:30Am last night cuz I was studying for the math test,
and I woke up at 7 this morning cuz I thought there was high jump practice,
I went to school and realized there was no practice,
so I studied math in the library instead...
then I screwed up my math test,
and they kicked us out of the cafe in blk A cuz they had to do a stupid FSA thing,
so I studied chem in the library with Janice.
During lunch I was studying chem still
and I only had a cheese scone and apple juice that costed me $2.75
Then there was the chem test...
haha by the end of the period everyone was talking
and we were even discussing answers out loud,
but the teacher was surrounded by people and didn't hear us at all.
Then there was jap, and I made 2 really, really dumb mistake on the really easy quiz we had..
Afterschool I walked home with Jenny,
then just as I was gonna take a nap
my dad peeled orange for me so instead I got lured to play the computer till 4:30
then I took a nap for 1.5 hours, and had dinner and went to the dance...
here comes the sweet part...haha
the dance was waaay better than prom..
seriously, why the hell did I pay $85 for prom when I only have to pay $3 for this!?
The dance itself was pretty bad actually,
bad lighting, bad atmosphere, so many ppl were just standing, watching but not dancing,
they didn't have the huge screen or flashing lights or shadow thing they had 2 years ago,
and the songs those ppl requested were pretty bad...
but we had fun.. and we were jumping like crazy when they played the YMCA song..
It's so nice.. I felt no pressure at all,
and I didn't feel that anyone would care that I dance poorly...
In prom, since the dance floor was so small and there were so many ppl watching,
I didn't even want to dance cuz I feel ashamed that I can't dance...
and then we were in formal clothes and stuff and weren't as crazy as tonight...
Tonight was probably even more fun than gr 10 dance...
Afterwards we went to Cute Pearl, sat and chatted for a bit..
it was nice.. I felt like we went bak to grade 10.. kinda.. hee..
at least I didn't feel the pressure I have as a grade 12.
*sigh* and again, this is our last dance in high school...
took some pix so I can always remember the fun we had tonight...

Math.. ahhHH!
I didn't think this chapter was hard..
all it is is confusing........
like Winnie always says,
'CONFUUUUSION' (with the hand thing)

Haven't even started chem yet...
ar.... I've got an hour and a half to study for it tomorrow during blk A
they BETTER not kick us out of the cafe again...

Pretty cold and breezy day today...
and why did I wear short sleeves!?
hmmm...... I don't know...
I just have no sense of temperature at all.

English mock provincial was okay...
I wrote faster than I thought
and I finished the exam by 3:15
took 15 minutes to check...
so in the real provincial I'll have around 30 mins extra.
The multiple choices were hard...
harder than the ones I did before I thought.
Euphesm!?!? Rhetorical question? Whimsical query!?
I mean.. wat the heck are those...
The poetry was pretty bad...
I couldn't think of anything to write
so I kept repeating myself and making up stuff...
I kinda enjoyed writing the response for the short story and the essay
They were good topics.. hehe
I've learnt to not expect too much from English...
just as long as I got 80%..............

Dance tomorrow night...
it'll be our last high-school dance.
Trying hard to recreate the fun we had in grade 10 Spring dance...
but since grade 10 so many things have changed,
we've grown and we've changed...
but still... we'll make it a fun and memoriable night.

Ouch.... I sliced the corner of my lip with wooden chopsticks while eating noodles..
And now it really hurts.... been hurting for like 3 days already..
Arrgh...

Gonna go to Coquitlam with Jenny (law)...
but how are we gonna get there??
By bus probably...
damnit... it would be so nice if I had a car... *sigh*

Sometimes u just gotta accept instead of blame...
blaming is a really bad habit...
me still trying very hard to learn rid of it....