~簡單的幸福
放0左學之後
我去0左綠灣買0左個蛋包飯外賣
自己一個行返屋企
0個時落緊微微雨
我冇帶遮, 亦都冇戴帽
D 雨係0甘滴落我個頭度
但係我著住好暖0既頸巾﹐ 戴住手襪
聽住Discman播緊0個隻 “一顆蘋果”入面0個句
“經過了漫長的等候 夢想是夢想 我還是一個我...
活著其實很好 再吃一顆蘋果”
忽然覺得呢個世界其實好靚,
我好開心﹐好幸福...
我覺得可以好似而家0甘係雨中散步﹐
係一件好難得0既事...
之後仲要俾我見到一架貨車﹐
上面寫住
"We are two small men with one big heart"
真係令我會心微笑...
其實幸福0吾一定要擁有或者佔據
幸福係要去感受0既一種體驗離0架。
最幸福的
是懂得感受幸福的人...
幸福就在你身旁
別讓煩惱和厭惡把你控制
只要你用心去感受﹐
你也能幸福.
Appreciating the lyrics of this song:
一顆蘋果 - 五月天
經過了漫長的等候 夢想是夢想 我還是一個我
那時間忘記挽留 最美時候 不經意匆匆的放過
曾經想擁抱的彩虹 盛開的花朵 那純真的笑容
突然有風吹過 那一轉眼 只剩我
我不懂 人世間的那些愁 他為什麼要纏著我
到底這會是誰的錯 還是我不放手
喔 人世間的那些愁 這世界給我的幽默
這是不是要告訴我 潮起終究潮落
總要有人來陪我 嚥下苦果
喔 再嚐一點美夢 要等你先開口 那冬天才會走
有些人經過我身旁 住在我腦中 在我心裡鑽洞
有些人變成相片 堆在角落 灰塵像雪一般冰凍
時間如果可以倒流 我想我還是
會卯起來蹉跎 反正就這樣吧 我知道我 努力過
我想到 遙遠遙遠的以後 會不會有人知道我
在這個寂寞的星球 曾這樣的活過
喔 遙遠遙遠的以後 天長和地久的盡頭
應該沒有人能搶走 我永遠的感動
總要有一首我的歌 大聲唱過
喔 再看天地遼闊 活著不多不少 幸福剛好夠用
活著其實很好 再吃一顆蘋果
I wanted to translate the whole thing into english,
but then doing that would lose the beauty and meaning of the lyrics...
I was happy until the moment I realized
my hand-eye coordination was unacceptably bad...
till today I thought I rely on mostly my skills
but now I realized it's all my luck....
my physical shape is so inconsistent..........
I can be so sharp one day and so slow another.
Playing doubles with Carmen tomorrow...
I was thinking I would be playing singles...
ah................. we'll see how we do.
I might be punching toilet walls again.
Why do they reply all at the same time,
and stop replying all at the same time too!?
-ROZ BLOG-
I would've written some quotes,
but why bother?
It's your own life...
live it your own way.
10.30.2001
as Kath said..
so many things..
so little time...
Just finished studying calc and English
I'm not even done reading damn Othello yet...
now I'm doing info tech...
shit...... and it's 1....
no time... for updates...
sorry.......
DAMN SHAKESPEARE....
Jenny... I'm sure aside from me,
many other ppl are reading ur hp too. heh
anyway.. I agree with you totally...
doing the same things with a different group of people is more fun...
and yea.. we will definitely kick ass when you're fully recovered,
but make sure you get enough rest before you start playing again....
Finally figured out how to draw the Rochai smile:
>__< __________
.\t t/ \\ I T E R U !! //
nevermind the speaking part...
October is coming to an end...
summing up what I have done...
hmm... all I can recall is
the wonderful weekend I had playing tournaments and hanging out with badminton friends...
so many things..
so little time...
Just finished studying calc and English
I'm not even done reading damn Othello yet...
now I'm doing info tech...
shit...... and it's 1....
no time... for updates...
sorry.......
DAMN SHAKESPEARE....
Jenny... I'm sure aside from me,
many other ppl are reading ur hp too. heh
anyway.. I agree with you totally...
doing the same things with a different group of people is more fun...
and yea.. we will definitely kick ass when you're fully recovered,
but make sure you get enough rest before you start playing again....
Finally figured out how to draw the Rochai smile:
>__< __________
.\t t/ \\ I T E R U !! //
nevermind the speaking part...
October is coming to an end...
summing up what I have done...
hmm... all I can recall is
the wonderful weekend I had playing tournaments and hanging out with badminton friends...
10.28.2001
Damn how can it be sunday already...
the week passed by so incredibly fast.
It was a really fun weekend tho...
hanging out till late since thursday night to saturday night...
and the continuous games of badminton that I've played...
wishing this weekend would never end...
I can just spend the rest of my life playing badminton
and hanging out with you guys everyday...
Finished somethings I was supposed to do...
feeling kinda tired from not doing much.
hmmm... wasted the sunday not doing anything....
I can't wait till badminton practice again,
but what is the point of going if there's no one's there to play against?
You know,
I think I give up...
not gonna go for early admission anymore.
Even though I put everything in, the most I can get is probably 90%....
and the point is, I will not put everything in,
because badminton is the only thing I will devote to....
I hate questions...
why the hell do u have to know so much?
Sometimes I just feel like it
wat do you mean 'there must be a reason that you feel like it'?
Sometimes I forget
wat do you mean '"you forgot" is not a reason'?
Psh........ I just wanna live my own life, free of questions...
i liked the gentleness of your tone,
and the way you held my arm and told me to take care.
however, this is all but a dream.... =(
the week passed by so incredibly fast.
It was a really fun weekend tho...
hanging out till late since thursday night to saturday night...
and the continuous games of badminton that I've played...
wishing this weekend would never end...
I can just spend the rest of my life playing badminton
and hanging out with you guys everyday...
Finished somethings I was supposed to do...
feeling kinda tired from not doing much.
hmmm... wasted the sunday not doing anything....
I can't wait till badminton practice again,
but what is the point of going if there's no one's there to play against?
You know,
I think I give up...
not gonna go for early admission anymore.
Even though I put everything in, the most I can get is probably 90%....
and the point is, I will not put everything in,
because badminton is the only thing I will devote to....
I hate questions...
why the hell do u have to know so much?
Sometimes I just feel like it
wat do you mean 'there must be a reason that you feel like it'?
Sometimes I forget
wat do you mean '"you forgot" is not a reason'?
Psh........ I just wanna live my own life, free of questions...
i liked the gentleness of your tone,
and the way you held my arm and told me to take care.
however, this is all but a dream.... =(
~ devoted
This world is so fuckin unfair...
how can that girl WIN!?? she won... psh...
so wat I did was...
I went up to her... I told her that I should've won
I even explained the whole thing to her
and then she couldn't argue...
and then I just walked away and left her there feeling guilty.. Muwaha.....
later... while she was playing doubles, I sat there and stared at her and made her nervous....
me and my evil revenge.
Wat the hell.... that doubles team WON!? Wat the fuck!?!?
They're not even 50% of the NORMAL me and Jenny...
We so should've been both champions.... *sigh* why............
Mixed I already expected to lose...
because really... Shao and I aren't such a good mix team.
We just each have our individual singles skills but don't work too well together.
Normally our opponents have one strong guy in the back and not too strong girl in the front
but for us it's strong girl that's not good enough to beat the guy
and not too strong guy who's not good enough at net shots...
strong/not too strong guy/girl as compared to other guys and girls
like really... I can say I can beat all those girls out there singles...
but comparing Shao and other guys he still needs work...
It's alrite. We both know we tried our best so there's nothing to regret about.
There's still next year and we'll work hard.
VRC tournament Arbutus B and Richmond B
HAVE to win something.... like.. get a ranking or something.
Next time I'll bring a pen.
My moment of glory today:
When I did a straight smash the first time the guy got it
but when I did a crosscourt smash the second time he couldn't
I feel so proud... hahaha even though it was just that one second and probably only Jerry was watching.
Churchill's gym sucks.
Churchill's drinks vending machine sucks.
It ate my $2 and when I pressed refund, it ejected 2 quarters..
WTF!?!?!?!
Wat I gained from the tournament:
2 bruises, one scratched knee, a strained muscle and lots of experience.
I'd love serious training and playing a lot....
but the tough part is to get my partner to love it too.
I'll get nowhere playing singles...
so I'm relying a lot on doubles....
Hanging out with badminton buddies is so fun
Ah... 3 nights consequtively...
so so fun... hahaha
Tonight we stayed in Shao's house
Watched "Full Time Killers"
It was pretty good... I liked both Andy and O
but I liked O better. Don't really like Andy's personality.
It's so confusing in some parts though
and the classical music was really....... uh.......
Was it right that O killed Andy in the end?
Same question...
would you kill someone to release him from pain?
Feel so sorry for 'Yum dat wah' too...
he became this half-crazy person who spent his time writing Andy's novel
but in the end, found out the story was fake.
Anyway.... after the movie:
Shy Jerry became not so shy anymore
we played a cards dare game and it was so funny....
Jerry's arm dance was funny...
I laughed like Jerry that was funny...
Pin acting like Jason that was funny...
Ann wearing that cap while playing DDR was funny...
DDR was fun... hehee watching ppl dance is fun.
Oh my god I'm so slow. hehe.... gotta train my brain to react quicker...
Jason's game was so complicated tho... hehee
In the end, Lin, Pin and Jerry were watching nasty commercials!!!
hahaha... so nasty.....
It's getting worse...
first day I should've won but I didn't.
second day we could've won but we didn't.
third day we couldn't win so we didn't....
People don't forget!
It's daylight saving time!
Is my logo really a '3-haired weird thing'?
Hahaha... that's the most popular answer...
The touch
I think I.......... hmmm...... do I?
damnit... stop thinking.
If I stop for one week it'll take me twice the time to recover
to keep up to the same level I have to keep playing...
and very weird-ly... my shoulder is getting better as I play more games.
updates from yesterday:
doubles game... *sigh* doubles game...
that was my another big hope..
first game was so good though
we beat these two really good SFU people...
I could smash so well!!!
Second game was not until like 2 hours after our first game..
didn't do too well.
They weren't even GOOD..........
I mean.. if we beat those two girls how can we lose to these two. AiSh...
OH well.
Is it fate!?? IT's ALWAYS the second match...
I ALWAYS lose when I have the most confidence....
and it's not like we can't win..
it's feels like some power is preventing me from winning.
I can't trust anyone no more..
can't even trust myself...
how could I not remember I won 3 games... T__T
Last night was good...
that japanese place has the best curry rice!!!
mMm.. and that drink was good too...
having dinner and chatting was fun... hehe
wanna do more of that.
This world is so fuckin unfair...
how can that girl WIN!?? she won... psh...
so wat I did was...
I went up to her... I told her that I should've won
I even explained the whole thing to her
and then she couldn't argue...
and then I just walked away and left her there feeling guilty.. Muwaha.....
later... while she was playing doubles, I sat there and stared at her and made her nervous....
me and my evil revenge.
Wat the hell.... that doubles team WON!? Wat the fuck!?!?
They're not even 50% of the NORMAL me and Jenny...
We so should've been both champions.... *sigh* why............
Mixed I already expected to lose...
because really... Shao and I aren't such a good mix team.
We just each have our individual singles skills but don't work too well together.
Normally our opponents have one strong guy in the back and not too strong girl in the front
but for us it's strong girl that's not good enough to beat the guy
and not too strong guy who's not good enough at net shots...
strong/not too strong guy/girl as compared to other guys and girls
like really... I can say I can beat all those girls out there singles...
but comparing Shao and other guys he still needs work...
It's alrite. We both know we tried our best so there's nothing to regret about.
There's still next year and we'll work hard.
VRC tournament Arbutus B and Richmond B
HAVE to win something.... like.. get a ranking or something.
Next time I'll bring a pen.
My moment of glory today:
When I did a straight smash the first time the guy got it
but when I did a crosscourt smash the second time he couldn't
I feel so proud... hahaha even though it was just that one second and probably only Jerry was watching.
Churchill's gym sucks.
Churchill's drinks vending machine sucks.
It ate my $2 and when I pressed refund, it ejected 2 quarters..
WTF!?!?!?!
Wat I gained from the tournament:
2 bruises, one scratched knee, a strained muscle and lots of experience.
I'd love serious training and playing a lot....
but the tough part is to get my partner to love it too.
I'll get nowhere playing singles...
so I'm relying a lot on doubles....
Hanging out with badminton buddies is so fun
Ah... 3 nights consequtively...
so so fun... hahaha
Tonight we stayed in Shao's house
Watched "Full Time Killers"
It was pretty good... I liked both Andy and O
but I liked O better. Don't really like Andy's personality.
It's so confusing in some parts though
and the classical music was really....... uh.......
Was it right that O killed Andy in the end?
Same question...
would you kill someone to release him from pain?
Feel so sorry for 'Yum dat wah' too...
he became this half-crazy person who spent his time writing Andy's novel
but in the end, found out the story was fake.
Anyway.... after the movie:
Shy Jerry became not so shy anymore
we played a cards dare game and it was so funny....
Jerry's arm dance was funny...
I laughed like Jerry that was funny...
Pin acting like Jason that was funny...
Ann wearing that cap while playing DDR was funny...
DDR was fun... hehee watching ppl dance is fun.
Oh my god I'm so slow. hehe.... gotta train my brain to react quicker...
Jason's game was so complicated tho... hehee
In the end, Lin, Pin and Jerry were watching nasty commercials!!!
hahaha... so nasty.....
It's getting worse...
first day I should've won but I didn't.
second day we could've won but we didn't.
third day we couldn't win so we didn't....
People don't forget!
It's daylight saving time!
Is my logo really a '3-haired weird thing'?
Hahaha... that's the most popular answer...
The touch
I think I.......... hmmm...... do I?
damnit... stop thinking.
If I stop for one week it'll take me twice the time to recover
to keep up to the same level I have to keep playing...
and very weird-ly... my shoulder is getting better as I play more games.
updates from yesterday:
doubles game... *sigh* doubles game...
that was my another big hope..
first game was so good though
we beat these two really good SFU people...
I could smash so well!!!
Second game was not until like 2 hours after our first game..
didn't do too well.
They weren't even GOOD..........
I mean.. if we beat those two girls how can we lose to these two. AiSh...
OH well.
Is it fate!?? IT's ALWAYS the second match...
I ALWAYS lose when I have the most confidence....
and it's not like we can't win..
it's feels like some power is preventing me from winning.
I can't trust anyone no more..
can't even trust myself...
how could I not remember I won 3 games... T__T
Last night was good...
that japanese place has the best curry rice!!!
mMm.. and that drink was good too...
having dinner and chatting was fun... hehe
wanna do more of that.
10.26.2001
Today isn't a BAD BAd day...
but I hate myself so much.............
why am I so careless and useless!?!?!
First it was math test...
it was such an easy test but I screwed up on some stupid mistakes...
Shit....... that got me depressed in the afternoon but I was cheered up once I thought about badminton.
Then I had badminton tournament at night...
there were only 9 girls so we only had to win 3 games to win the tournament
I won my first game easily...
I already won my second game by 3-1... but that girl kept saying it's 2-1..
so I thought 'I beat you once I can beat you again.' so I gave in
when I started playing well and got my smashes back
I pulled my right leg muscle and I couldn't play anymore
and they forfeited that game...... FUCK.........
fuckin cheater girl........
why was I so careless.... ai
if I made sure I already won 3 games I wouldn't have pulled my muscle
and I would be playing in the finals tomorrow...
fuckin shit...................... so so mad at myself and that girl.
If I play her again tomorrow, I'm gonna kick her ass so bad.
She hit to my right running leg on purpose too... cheap...
wat the fuck is wrong with her...
I was talking to her and I was like
'Oh I thought this T-shirt is the cloth'
and she was like 'step on it!'
and I was like 'no I'm gonna get beaten up by those guys if I do'
and she was like 'I don't care'...
and I was thinking... wat the fuck.......................
FUCK HER...... I'll seriously go crazy if she wins the tournament....
Pulling a muscle is bad enough
knowing I won that game but they forfeited it feels even worse.
Way way waaay worse.
Why am I so dumb!?!?!?!?!??! ai... dumb........ DUMB!!!!!!
Feels so bad..
It feels like... a huge huge chance put in front of me
but my legs gave up on me and I couldn't reach it by inches....
or more like... I had it... but I lost confident and released it, thinking I can get it back easily
but then my body gave up on me...
is this fate!?
*sigh*.. next year all the good ppl from U16 will be in U19....
ah... there's still arbutus B.... last chance.
Dinner was good though...
hehe it was kinda fun... with Shao, Jenny, Jason and Jerry....
Shao and Jerry couldn't stop laughing...
Jerry laughing without a sound...
Jason and Jenny telling jokes....
discussing about badminton...
that was good... hehe
So... @)(*#&(*@#&
I told my dad about it
and he was like
'OH... it's YOUR fault that u agreed to play the 5th game...
it's YOUR fault that u forgot how many games u won..'
I was so pissed off already.... and even more after that...
I KNOW it's my fault... but I just want someone to go along with wat I say.........
I wonder wat the girl will say if I tell her I actually won today...
she'll probably go 'Oh, that's TOO BAD ISN"T IT!? That u didn't remember in time..'
psh.... fuck....... get so mad when I think about her.
It feels so great to have friends care about you...
heh last year I went to the tournament alone....
ah................ wonder how I felt back then.
And Pin... here's my response to ur blog! hehe
There's nothing wrong with being homosexual....
Hahahahaha.......you're cool.. VERY COOL. hehehe
yup.. uh... duno wat else to write...
HEY! I wrote this paragraph JUST FOR U! hehehe
u should be glad that I took time writing it. j/k..
but I hate myself so much.............
why am I so careless and useless!?!?!
First it was math test...
it was such an easy test but I screwed up on some stupid mistakes...
Shit....... that got me depressed in the afternoon but I was cheered up once I thought about badminton.
Then I had badminton tournament at night...
there were only 9 girls so we only had to win 3 games to win the tournament
I won my first game easily...
I already won my second game by 3-1... but that girl kept saying it's 2-1..
so I thought 'I beat you once I can beat you again.' so I gave in
when I started playing well and got my smashes back
I pulled my right leg muscle and I couldn't play anymore
and they forfeited that game...... FUCK.........
fuckin cheater girl........
why was I so careless.... ai
if I made sure I already won 3 games I wouldn't have pulled my muscle
and I would be playing in the finals tomorrow...
fuckin shit...................... so so mad at myself and that girl.
If I play her again tomorrow, I'm gonna kick her ass so bad.
She hit to my right running leg on purpose too... cheap...
wat the fuck is wrong with her...
I was talking to her and I was like
'Oh I thought this T-shirt is the cloth'
and she was like 'step on it!'
and I was like 'no I'm gonna get beaten up by those guys if I do'
and she was like 'I don't care'...
and I was thinking... wat the fuck.......................
FUCK HER...... I'll seriously go crazy if she wins the tournament....
Pulling a muscle is bad enough
knowing I won that game but they forfeited it feels even worse.
Way way waaay worse.
Why am I so dumb!?!?!?!?!??! ai... dumb........ DUMB!!!!!!
Feels so bad..
It feels like... a huge huge chance put in front of me
but my legs gave up on me and I couldn't reach it by inches....
or more like... I had it... but I lost confident and released it, thinking I can get it back easily
but then my body gave up on me...
is this fate!?
*sigh*.. next year all the good ppl from U16 will be in U19....
ah... there's still arbutus B.... last chance.
Dinner was good though...
hehe it was kinda fun... with Shao, Jenny, Jason and Jerry....
Shao and Jerry couldn't stop laughing...
Jerry laughing without a sound...
Jason and Jenny telling jokes....
discussing about badminton...
that was good... hehe
So... @)(*#&(*@#&
I told my dad about it
and he was like
'OH... it's YOUR fault that u agreed to play the 5th game...
it's YOUR fault that u forgot how many games u won..'
I was so pissed off already.... and even more after that...
I KNOW it's my fault... but I just want someone to go along with wat I say.........
I wonder wat the girl will say if I tell her I actually won today...
she'll probably go 'Oh, that's TOO BAD ISN"T IT!? That u didn't remember in time..'
psh.... fuck....... get so mad when I think about her.
It feels so great to have friends care about you...
heh last year I went to the tournament alone....
ah................ wonder how I felt back then.
And Pin... here's my response to ur blog! hehe
There's nothing wrong with being homosexual....
Hahahahaha.......you're cool.. VERY COOL. hehehe
yup.. uh... duno wat else to write...
HEY! I wrote this paragraph JUST FOR U! hehehe
u should be glad that I took time writing it. j/k..
10.25.2001
Just watched 'The Cell'...
so weird and freaky...
it's... weird weird.... not just plain weird...
Would you kill someone to save him?
If he cannot save himself, all others can do is to kill him and end his pain...
in order to save himself he has to kill his imaginary evil self
but restrained and tormented by it,
he remained in his childhood and never grew strong enough to fight for himself...
It's so scary... if you get trapped in your own imaginary world
there is no one to rely on aside from yourself
and whether or not you can wake up from your coma
depends totally on your will power...
but damnit... imagine yourself in a place where no one's there..
no parents, no friends, no nothing.
Only you, yourself and your memories...
I think I would just die.
Anywho... The Cell... is a really really freaky but really good movie...
shouldn't watch it alone though. hahaha....
Some parts are so nasty... like..
the monster cutting up that guy's stomach and rolling out his intestines...
that was just nasty..............................
and chopping a horse up into pieces and seeing its heart still beating through glass...
Oh my god. How does the scriptwriter come up with all these.
my vocab sucks...
can't find the right word when I wanna say something...
how can u say '被刺激的' and '不捨得' in english!?!?
I'm getting lazy
I'm starting to like getting rides from other instead of driving
I'm starting to dislike the feeling of driving home alone in the dark
and walking through that damp, dark, twisting road from the garage to my front door.
heh... I still like driving... but I dun like driving home alone.
Finally no test or quiz tomorrow...
get to relax a bit...
wanna walk in the rain again to clear my mind...
singles tournament at night...
hope my arm and leg will be alright...
Had a busy busy day...
slept at 2 last night cuz I was studying calc and physics
Woke up at 6:45 this morning for morning band
had band scale test...
first block I had trombone master class and it was pretty boring
second block I got to sleep a bit while they were watching Othello
third block I had calculus quiz
fourth block I had physics quiz
then game @ Kitsilano after school
there was really no time for me to relax and get some food...
stomach was churning so bad after the game...
But it was a good game.
OH my god... 5-5... determining game...
Jason and Shao against Kits doubles..
3rd set... caught up from 7-10 to deuce...
and won by 12-11!! WOOHOO!!!
Jason and Shaolin are now our team heroes. Hehe...
can't stand to think that we ALMOST lost to Kits.. it was THAT close... one point...
We were all so excited and nervous.......
Hahah that was the best game... hehe for us audience.
so weird and freaky...
it's... weird weird.... not just plain weird...
Would you kill someone to save him?
If he cannot save himself, all others can do is to kill him and end his pain...
in order to save himself he has to kill his imaginary evil self
but restrained and tormented by it,
he remained in his childhood and never grew strong enough to fight for himself...
It's so scary... if you get trapped in your own imaginary world
there is no one to rely on aside from yourself
and whether or not you can wake up from your coma
depends totally on your will power...
but damnit... imagine yourself in a place where no one's there..
no parents, no friends, no nothing.
Only you, yourself and your memories...
I think I would just die.
Anywho... The Cell... is a really really freaky but really good movie...
shouldn't watch it alone though. hahaha....
Some parts are so nasty... like..
the monster cutting up that guy's stomach and rolling out his intestines...
that was just nasty..............................
and chopping a horse up into pieces and seeing its heart still beating through glass...
Oh my god. How does the scriptwriter come up with all these.
my vocab sucks...
can't find the right word when I wanna say something...
how can u say '被刺激的' and '不捨得' in english!?!?
I'm getting lazy
I'm starting to like getting rides from other instead of driving
I'm starting to dislike the feeling of driving home alone in the dark
and walking through that damp, dark, twisting road from the garage to my front door.
heh... I still like driving... but I dun like driving home alone.
Finally no test or quiz tomorrow...
get to relax a bit...
wanna walk in the rain again to clear my mind...
singles tournament at night...
hope my arm and leg will be alright...
Had a busy busy day...
slept at 2 last night cuz I was studying calc and physics
Woke up at 6:45 this morning for morning band
had band scale test...
first block I had trombone master class and it was pretty boring
second block I got to sleep a bit while they were watching Othello
third block I had calculus quiz
fourth block I had physics quiz
then game @ Kitsilano after school
there was really no time for me to relax and get some food...
stomach was churning so bad after the game...
But it was a good game.
OH my god... 5-5... determining game...
Jason and Shao against Kits doubles..
3rd set... caught up from 7-10 to deuce...
and won by 12-11!! WOOHOO!!!
Jason and Shaolin are now our team heroes. Hehe...
can't stand to think that we ALMOST lost to Kits.. it was THAT close... one point...
We were all so excited and nervous.......
Hahah that was the best game... hehe for us audience.
10.23.2001
Shit....
right shoulder has sharp pains everytime I do a big swing
right leg has muscle strain and I have to rely on my left leg
not doing so well and keep missing easy shots....
Not good....
hope I recover by thursday....
Math test was surprisingly easy...
screwed up on the last question though...
stupid tricky questions that messes ppl's minds up...
AiSh! Why can't they just put everything straight forward??
The point is that we know how to use it right? AiSH....
Jap test was harder than I thought..
but I did okay. hehe... so lucky though.
At first I didn't know wat warm was but I saw it on the question above.
I screwed up on all the receiving and giving verbs at first but figured them out in the end
I wrote crap in the composition... how can she expect us to write so much for one tiny pic?
I hope I did okay.....
Chem lab was so fun!!!
Mixing chemicals that make different color
I love that clear sapphire blue liquid we mixed...
and pink and purplish blue was nice too...
hehe wish we have more labs like this one...
No time no time..
no time to do anything
no time to slow down and think
because everything ahead is so rushing and important
there is no time left to slow down and enjoy the life we should be enjoying...
I'm not gonna try hard at the game tomorrow unless we lose...
which is not very probable...
I'm sorry but I just don't have the power anymore..
morning band... then game right afterschool...
physically can't take that much.
lost the thing....
I found her!!!
In fact I never tried...
I just did...
hah... so surprising...
Mmm... memories... hehe
Ha...haha.... ha. ha..... HAhaha..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, JENNY!!!
hehe... u are no long 16...
no one to pick udon for you anymore! hehehe
Losing memory again...
wat the hell.
Time for a walk in the rain...
that's only a permanent cure though...
So much frustration and intensity...
right shoulder has sharp pains everytime I do a big swing
right leg has muscle strain and I have to rely on my left leg
not doing so well and keep missing easy shots....
Not good....
hope I recover by thursday....
Math test was surprisingly easy...
screwed up on the last question though...
stupid tricky questions that messes ppl's minds up...
AiSh! Why can't they just put everything straight forward??
The point is that we know how to use it right? AiSH....
Jap test was harder than I thought..
but I did okay. hehe... so lucky though.
At first I didn't know wat warm was but I saw it on the question above.
I screwed up on all the receiving and giving verbs at first but figured them out in the end
I wrote crap in the composition... how can she expect us to write so much for one tiny pic?
I hope I did okay.....
Chem lab was so fun!!!
Mixing chemicals that make different color
I love that clear sapphire blue liquid we mixed...
and pink and purplish blue was nice too...
hehe wish we have more labs like this one...
No time no time..
no time to do anything
no time to slow down and think
because everything ahead is so rushing and important
there is no time left to slow down and enjoy the life we should be enjoying...
I'm not gonna try hard at the game tomorrow unless we lose...
which is not very probable...
I'm sorry but I just don't have the power anymore..
morning band... then game right afterschool...
physically can't take that much.
lost the thing....
I found her!!!
In fact I never tried...
I just did...
hah... so surprising...
Mmm... memories... hehe
Ha...haha.... ha. ha..... HAhaha..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, JENNY!!!
hehe... u are no long 16...
no one to pick udon for you anymore! hehehe
Losing memory again...
wat the hell.
Time for a walk in the rain...
that's only a permanent cure though...
So much frustration and intensity...
Again.. busy busy day...
school.. and then went to Oakridge to get present..
then back to school for band... and didn't come home till 8:30...
sucks...... this sucks
then I watched TV and had dinner and took a shower
and stared into space for a while and then studied math
and it's already 12....
why is time so 不好用 ??
I wish I had Doraemon's 'time trap' that stops time....
Can't wait till badminton tomorrow...
That'll mean I'll have finished my math test...
must do well....
it's an easy chapter... I HAVE to do well...
*pressure pressure more pressure*
Sooo sleepy...
almost dozed off in physics like 5 times...
couldn't keep my eyes open...
tried talking to Rosemary but she didn't care...
Jenny was busy doing her own stuff...
couldn't stand it in the end...
took short naps....
and the drowsiness finally wore off after I hit myself on the head 3 hard times.
Ai...... have to stay awake..... quiz next class...................
so mentally exhausted...
never used to do hw every night
so not used to it now.... sucks...
It's the way you speak...
it's not what you mean.
say:
"I will not remember what you said so remind me." and
"I will forget what you said, please remind me."
same meaning yet the second ones sounds so much better.
The trick of being 圓滑...
is something Rosemary will never learn.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, ANNA!!!!
Everyone's turning 17... hah
but somehow I wanna stay in 16....
school.. and then went to Oakridge to get present..
then back to school for band... and didn't come home till 8:30...
sucks...... this sucks
then I watched TV and had dinner and took a shower
and stared into space for a while and then studied math
and it's already 12....
why is time so 不好用 ??
I wish I had Doraemon's 'time trap' that stops time....
Can't wait till badminton tomorrow...
That'll mean I'll have finished my math test...
must do well....
it's an easy chapter... I HAVE to do well...
*pressure pressure more pressure*
Sooo sleepy...
almost dozed off in physics like 5 times...
couldn't keep my eyes open...
tried talking to Rosemary but she didn't care...
Jenny was busy doing her own stuff...
couldn't stand it in the end...
took short naps....
and the drowsiness finally wore off after I hit myself on the head 3 hard times.
Ai...... have to stay awake..... quiz next class...................
so mentally exhausted...
never used to do hw every night
so not used to it now.... sucks...
It's the way you speak...
it's not what you mean.
say:
"I will not remember what you said so remind me." and
"I will forget what you said, please remind me."
same meaning yet the second ones sounds so much better.
The trick of being 圓滑...
is something Rosemary will never learn.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, ANNA!!!!
Everyone's turning 17... hah
but somehow I wanna stay in 16....
10.22.2001
Haven't done so much work in a day for a looong time...
Badminton since 10...
got home at 2:30 but had to do english assignment
finished assignment at 7 and had dinner and took shower
then wrote pictures and wrote english script
then finished up math and studied a bit and it's already 12:30...
time is so 不好用 these days...
Badminton was good..
Shao and I beat Jenny and Jason again!
Ehhee I think we're actually not that strong..
it's just that Jason and Jenny's not working too well together yet...
gonna practice more on tuesday... ask Alex if we can do that.
Game on wednesday vs Kits without Jenny... T__T
So so tired... from doing homework..
haven't done homework that doesn't have to be handed in..since.. grade 9!?
hahaha ... ah.. it's never too late to start.
GOTTA do well on the math test on tuesday...
or else... die.............. X_X
So happy and surprised that Jason and Jim got me a present..
hehe thankyou guys.. I really like it..........
and Jerry.. thanks for the wristband!! Hehehe really like it too...!!
You see... I've never had a wristband b4 all my life. Hahaha
thankyou so much...... so 感動...
and how come we didn't see u guys in Oakridge!?!? heh....
Half cheese and half original pretzel..
hehehe so cool.
I scream! You scream! We all scream for ice-cream!!!
Badminton since 10...
got home at 2:30 but had to do english assignment
finished assignment at 7 and had dinner and took shower
then wrote pictures and wrote english script
then finished up math and studied a bit and it's already 12:30...
time is so 不好用 these days...
Badminton was good..
Shao and I beat Jenny and Jason again!
Ehhee I think we're actually not that strong..
it's just that Jason and Jenny's not working too well together yet...
gonna practice more on tuesday... ask Alex if we can do that.
Game on wednesday vs Kits without Jenny... T__T
So so tired... from doing homework..
haven't done homework that doesn't have to be handed in..since.. grade 9!?
hahaha ... ah.. it's never too late to start.
GOTTA do well on the math test on tuesday...
or else... die.............. X_X
So happy and surprised that Jason and Jim got me a present..
hehe thankyou guys.. I really like it..........
and Jerry.. thanks for the wristband!! Hehehe really like it too...!!
You see... I've never had a wristband b4 all my life. Hahaha
thankyou so much...... so 感動...
and how come we didn't see u guys in Oakridge!?!? heh....
Half cheese and half original pretzel..
hehehe so cool.
I scream! You scream! We all scream for ice-cream!!!
10.21.2001
~THANKS
Thankyou guys...
had a nice birthday..
even tho it wasn't unforgettable... it was sure fun
I typed up a whole lotta things and AGAIN the stupid server hung up on me. Why?
Had hotpot again tonight
but this time I didn't have to do anything...
hehehe exxcellent...
then sticker photos and then got a drink
and then we went to Dewi's house and then home...
Thankyou for the present..... really like it.
It was freezing cold outside...
OH and by the way, Dewi has a really nice dog...
She looks so loyal and caring...
-Rochai's thoughts of the dog after seeing through its eyes.
Mmm.. Peach red tea...
it's pretty good except it's too sweet.
Badminton was alright..
I'm getting my touch back..
got my drops back...
but I'm losing my clearing, smashing and backhand touches...
it's always one gain one lose isn't it?
Doubles with Jenny...
I feel we could've done better but OH well
leave the good stuff till the tournaments. heh
I realized I've lost a huge part of my innocence...
I've lost the surge of happiness I used to have receiving presents
I've lost the surge of excitement I used to have tearing wrapping papers guessing what people gave me.
I've lost the surge of anticipation I used to have before my birthday
I've lost the pointless happiness and that defeated the whole purpose of the party...
I feel so embarrassed of my stupidity
Thankyou guys...
had a nice birthday..
even tho it wasn't unforgettable... it was sure fun
I typed up a whole lotta things and AGAIN the stupid server hung up on me. Why?
Had hotpot again tonight
but this time I didn't have to do anything...
hehehe exxcellent...
then sticker photos and then got a drink
and then we went to Dewi's house and then home...
Thankyou for the present..... really like it.
It was freezing cold outside...
OH and by the way, Dewi has a really nice dog...
She looks so loyal and caring...
-Rochai's thoughts of the dog after seeing through its eyes.
Mmm.. Peach red tea...
it's pretty good except it's too sweet.
Badminton was alright..
I'm getting my touch back..
got my drops back...
but I'm losing my clearing, smashing and backhand touches...
it's always one gain one lose isn't it?
Doubles with Jenny...
I feel we could've done better but OH well
leave the good stuff till the tournaments. heh
I realized I've lost a huge part of my innocence...
I've lost the surge of happiness I used to have receiving presents
I've lost the surge of excitement I used to have tearing wrapping papers guessing what people gave me.
I've lost the surge of anticipation I used to have before my birthday
I've lost the pointless happiness and that defeated the whole purpose of the party...
I feel so embarrassed of my stupidity
10.20.2001
Happy birthday to myself! hah....
3 hours late.... arr........
I didn't put my birthday in ICQ
just to test how many people actually remembers my birthday
and I realized... not many...
but those who remembered....
thank you guys so much...
I really appreciate it....
(Steph, I got your card today!! RIGHT on my birthday!! Hahaha thankyou...)
(Tin... thanks..... made me so 感動 that you remembered my birthday...T_T )
(Elaine... thanks for the phonecall.... thanks..... 12 years.... and u've never forgotten.. )
The rest... thankyou you're all THE BESTS!! heh
Feel so tired....
got irritated by my dad at his reaction after he heard my math marks...
getting pissed off at my brother on my birthday and he didn't even get me anything
I was so busy walking around carrying stuff I didn't even have time to sit down and talk with friends
driving friends home @ 1:30 and washing dishes till 2:30
wasn't exactly how I wanted it to be but I guess that's just how it is.
Which is why I decided I'll never have hot pot at my house ever again.
^^ those who came... it's ur first and last time....
thankyou guys... I had lots of fun and I hope u did too.
"Go ahead, bite me" -kogepan
Did extreeemely well in badminton today
I'm so awake and active now... since I walked in the rain...
My brain is reacting so much faster and I am playing so much better.
I hope this will last till the tournaments end....
Did some pretty good slicing today....
Won all my mixed games...
Did pretty good in King of the Court too... heh
I'm so satisfied now... ^^
Lunch with my dad...
bro didn't even bother to go out for lunch
didn't even eat together as a family today...
my dad didn't tell him it's my birthday cuz he didn't want to force him to go
PSH..... sometimes I am just SO IRRITATED by him.....
HOw can he be so.. CARELESS!??! INCONSIDERATE!? AISH...................
Didn't feel that it was my birthday today until the moment I got the cake...
I just felt it was an ordinary day...
even more ordinary than an ordinary day....
seemed like no one cares, no one remembers...
no one on the phone said Happy Birthday to me even...
it seemed like the 'hotpot' idea has defeated the 'roz's birthday' idea...
until I had the cake and made the wish and opened presents...
I felt happy... I felt special...
It's sad to think how rare the chances are,
that all of us will be able to get together like we did tonight...
next year when it's my birthday...
some people would be gone to the east coast
some I might've lost contact with
some might not be able to come anymore...
it just made me think that we should treasure the times we have together in high school
because there is not much time left...
I was mad when everyone complained about their hunger
but when the soup was boiling they were too busy watching TV
I was mad when my bro started shooting rubber bands at people
but it almost hit my head and I yelled at him
I was mad when I couldn't control myself yelling at my bro
and became an idiot in front of my friends
I was mad when Jenny left without even telling us anything
and left us there guessing what she was doing and where she is
I was mad when I found out my dad didn't put the dishwashing powder in
but when I found the user manual it doesn't tell me anything about how to use it...
yah... those were my moments of anger for today....................
but the fun moments made up for it.
No one wanted the prawns aside from me and Toko
and once I said I'll peel them off
people started to want them.
it's amazing how lazy people can get...
and not even the bait of food and lure them to work.
So much food left...
I can hold another hotpot just with my family with the leftover food... heee....
especially vegetables.. aside from Maggie, no one ate vegetables...
I didn't know everyone liked meat just like me. Hahaha....
3 hours late.... arr........
I didn't put my birthday in ICQ
just to test how many people actually remembers my birthday
and I realized... not many...
but those who remembered....
thank you guys so much...
I really appreciate it....
(Steph, I got your card today!! RIGHT on my birthday!! Hahaha thankyou...)
(Tin... thanks..... made me so 感動 that you remembered my birthday...T_T )
(Elaine... thanks for the phonecall.... thanks..... 12 years.... and u've never forgotten.. )
The rest... thankyou you're all THE BESTS!! heh
Feel so tired....
got irritated by my dad at his reaction after he heard my math marks...
getting pissed off at my brother on my birthday and he didn't even get me anything
I was so busy walking around carrying stuff I didn't even have time to sit down and talk with friends
driving friends home @ 1:30 and washing dishes till 2:30
wasn't exactly how I wanted it to be but I guess that's just how it is.
Which is why I decided I'll never have hot pot at my house ever again.
^^ those who came... it's ur first and last time....
thankyou guys... I had lots of fun and I hope u did too.
"Go ahead, bite me" -kogepan
Did extreeemely well in badminton today
I'm so awake and active now... since I walked in the rain...
My brain is reacting so much faster and I am playing so much better.
I hope this will last till the tournaments end....
Did some pretty good slicing today....
Won all my mixed games...
Did pretty good in King of the Court too... heh
I'm so satisfied now... ^^
Lunch with my dad...
bro didn't even bother to go out for lunch
didn't even eat together as a family today...
my dad didn't tell him it's my birthday cuz he didn't want to force him to go
PSH..... sometimes I am just SO IRRITATED by him.....
HOw can he be so.. CARELESS!??! INCONSIDERATE!? AISH...................
Didn't feel that it was my birthday today until the moment I got the cake...
I just felt it was an ordinary day...
even more ordinary than an ordinary day....
seemed like no one cares, no one remembers...
no one on the phone said Happy Birthday to me even...
it seemed like the 'hotpot' idea has defeated the 'roz's birthday' idea...
until I had the cake and made the wish and opened presents...
I felt happy... I felt special...
It's sad to think how rare the chances are,
that all of us will be able to get together like we did tonight...
next year when it's my birthday...
some people would be gone to the east coast
some I might've lost contact with
some might not be able to come anymore...
it just made me think that we should treasure the times we have together in high school
because there is not much time left...
I was mad when everyone complained about their hunger
but when the soup was boiling they were too busy watching TV
I was mad when my bro started shooting rubber bands at people
but it almost hit my head and I yelled at him
I was mad when I couldn't control myself yelling at my bro
and became an idiot in front of my friends
I was mad when Jenny left without even telling us anything
and left us there guessing what she was doing and where she is
I was mad when I found out my dad didn't put the dishwashing powder in
but when I found the user manual it doesn't tell me anything about how to use it...
yah... those were my moments of anger for today....................
but the fun moments made up for it.
No one wanted the prawns aside from me and Toko
and once I said I'll peel them off
people started to want them.
it's amazing how lazy people can get...
and not even the bait of food and lure them to work.
So much food left...
I can hold another hotpot just with my family with the leftover food... heee....
especially vegetables.. aside from Maggie, no one ate vegetables...
I didn't know everyone liked meat just like me. Hahaha....
10.18.2001
Walking in the rain did help!!
I feel so active and hyper now..
can't believe Alice and I lost to Hung and Kwok... haha
but aside from that I did so well in badminton cuz I was jumping around all the time
I beat Jim twice in singles...
Shao and I beat Jenny and Jason in mix! 5-1! Heheh....
I think we were lucky.. and I'm not usually that hyper.. hehe
OH my god... got hit on the head and I couldn't stop talking...
strained my left waist... and my left neck hurts
but it's alll goooood........
UNCONTROLLABLE HYPERNESS...
so 感觸...
無意中 found a bookmark my friend gave me...
She wrote in the back:
"You and I will always be best friends.
Wherever you are, wherever I am, you and I,
we will always remember each other.
This little bookcard will always remind of me and you...
the time we laughed (together)... always.
勿忘我..."
Haha... we were best friends in grade 8...
最怕 she already forgot about me before I forget about her...
勿忘我......
You'll never know me because you never tried to get to know me.
I feel so active and hyper now..
can't believe Alice and I lost to Hung and Kwok... haha
but aside from that I did so well in badminton cuz I was jumping around all the time
I beat Jim twice in singles...
Shao and I beat Jenny and Jason in mix! 5-1! Heheh....
I think we were lucky.. and I'm not usually that hyper.. hehe
OH my god... got hit on the head and I couldn't stop talking...
strained my left waist... and my left neck hurts
but it's alll goooood........
UNCONTROLLABLE HYPERNESS...
so 感觸...
無意中 found a bookmark my friend gave me...
She wrote in the back:
"You and I will always be best friends.
Wherever you are, wherever I am, you and I,
we will always remember each other.
This little bookcard will always remind of me and you...
the time we laughed (together)... always.
勿忘我..."
Haha... we were best friends in grade 8...
最怕 she already forgot about me before I forget about her...
勿忘我......
You'll never know me because you never tried to get to know me.
Walked in pouring rain for one whole hour today
and it wasn't until I start walking alone,
that I realized I enjoy walking alone in the rain.
I reached my house but I wanted to walk more.
I told myself 'I need money' so I walked out to 41st again to CIBC and got money
I was soaked but I couldn't care less.
And I realized... I didn't need a reason to go anywhere...
I go because my will drives me to.
I like living alone...
going home after a walk in the rain,
cuddle on my very comfortable creamy colored sofa with creamy colored carpet
pour myself a warm cup of Horlick
and enjoy my afternoon watching badminton videos.
I like the feeling of power... that I'm in control of my life.
But I can't... because I don't live alone....
I hate questions...
why do I do this, why do I do that...
I do it just cuz.
I like the feeling of freedom...
and walking in the rain seems to give me that feeling.
After walking home in the rain
my face was pale but my features looked more clear...
I am seeing through myself.....
Tomorrow I will be 17.
Tomorrow I will rid the coat of a 16 yrs old
and finally become legally and biologically 17.
So? Years doesn't make people mature...
experience and mental growth does.
I think more clearly in the rain
I had a feeling if I had to do my math test right after walking in the rain
I would do well.
I have a feeling that I've been missing for the pass few weeks...
my confidence...
It's always some speaker or someone who raises my hopes
and through time, people and friends rub off pieces
and eventually... my hill of hope will return to the plateau it was before.
If I really want to be a badminton champion...
If I would work hard towards my goal
does that mean everything will work out for me?
does that mean my family will approve of what I think and not give me pressure for my acedemics?
Can't take too many chances... because life is too short...
and if one shot doesn't do it... there's not always second chances.
and it wasn't until I start walking alone,
that I realized I enjoy walking alone in the rain.
I reached my house but I wanted to walk more.
I told myself 'I need money' so I walked out to 41st again to CIBC and got money
I was soaked but I couldn't care less.
And I realized... I didn't need a reason to go anywhere...
I go because my will drives me to.
I like living alone...
going home after a walk in the rain,
cuddle on my very comfortable creamy colored sofa with creamy colored carpet
pour myself a warm cup of Horlick
and enjoy my afternoon watching badminton videos.
I like the feeling of power... that I'm in control of my life.
But I can't... because I don't live alone....
I hate questions...
why do I do this, why do I do that...
I do it just cuz.
I like the feeling of freedom...
and walking in the rain seems to give me that feeling.
After walking home in the rain
my face was pale but my features looked more clear...
I am seeing through myself.....
Tomorrow I will be 17.
Tomorrow I will rid the coat of a 16 yrs old
and finally become legally and biologically 17.
So? Years doesn't make people mature...
experience and mental growth does.
I think more clearly in the rain
I had a feeling if I had to do my math test right after walking in the rain
I would do well.
I have a feeling that I've been missing for the pass few weeks...
my confidence...
It's always some speaker or someone who raises my hopes
and through time, people and friends rub off pieces
and eventually... my hill of hope will return to the plateau it was before.
If I really want to be a badminton champion...
If I would work hard towards my goal
does that mean everything will work out for me?
does that mean my family will approve of what I think and not give me pressure for my acedemics?
Can't take too many chances... because life is too short...
and if one shot doesn't do it... there's not always second chances.
10.17.2001
UBC First term unconditional early admission average: 95%
Wat the fuck???????
Now that I know I'm never gonna get uncon EA
I can relax a bit and not stress myself out as much.
Might be a good thing afterall... *sigh*.
OHhh I just found out the 95% includes scholarships and stuff...
but the normal one is still 92... HA! HA! HA!
uh.......... still have to work hard.............
/_\...... stress stress stress
Do you treat all your friends the same?
Think about it...
do you naturally categorize your friends into 'Guys' and 'Girls'
and act differently in front of different groups?
And then there's this thing...
ppl of the same gender tend to gossip about ppl of the same sex
so girls gossip about girls and guys gossip about guys
so it's safer to tell the opposite sex about secrets cuz they don't gossip abt the opposite sex.
Theory accepted???
It's so annoying...
I just get the urge of annoyance so easily these days..
Could be just one annoying expression
or one annoying moment....
I get one momentary urge of annoyance and
I just wish I can turn around and say
'I DUN GIVE A DAMN...'
The ONLY time EVERY MEMBER came to the sectional...
and there was no room.....
...... just kill me.
Can someone teach me Flash!?
ai...........
Writing photos is a hassle...
and I'll have to repeat that process again when we get our grad pics...
but it's alrite.. I enjoy it. hehehe...
Dadio.....
yup that's me.
Ate too much today..
Breakfast + lunch + Tea + dinner...
do not dare look down to my stomach...
If a secret is not supposed to be told,
then why is it told on first place?
then 'secret' is just an abstract thing that does not exist at all...
What do you see in me?
If life is meaningless then why are you living?
Why don't you just go die?
Wat the fuck???????
Now that I know I'm never gonna get uncon EA
I can relax a bit and not stress myself out as much.
Might be a good thing afterall... *sigh*.
OHhh I just found out the 95% includes scholarships and stuff...
but the normal one is still 92... HA! HA! HA!
uh.......... still have to work hard.............
/_\...... stress stress stress
Do you treat all your friends the same?
Think about it...
do you naturally categorize your friends into 'Guys' and 'Girls'
and act differently in front of different groups?
And then there's this thing...
ppl of the same gender tend to gossip about ppl of the same sex
so girls gossip about girls and guys gossip about guys
so it's safer to tell the opposite sex about secrets cuz they don't gossip abt the opposite sex.
Theory accepted???
It's so annoying...
I just get the urge of annoyance so easily these days..
Could be just one annoying expression
or one annoying moment....
I get one momentary urge of annoyance and
I just wish I can turn around and say
'I DUN GIVE A DAMN...'
The ONLY time EVERY MEMBER came to the sectional...
and there was no room.....
...... just kill me.
Can someone teach me Flash!?
ai...........
Writing photos is a hassle...
and I'll have to repeat that process again when we get our grad pics...
but it's alrite.. I enjoy it. hehehe...
Dadio.....
yup that's me.
Ate too much today..
Breakfast + lunch + Tea + dinner...
do not dare look down to my stomach...
If a secret is not supposed to be told,
then why is it told on first place?
then 'secret' is just an abstract thing that does not exist at all...
What do you see in me?
If life is meaningless then why are you living?
Why don't you just go die?
10.16.2001
Just read a very interesting theory:
"everything in this world is evil.
pure existance is evil.
we should not be here and i surely shouldn't.
birth is evil, movement is evil, everything.
so why should we live, when everything is evil?
i don't think i should live,dun wanna. there is no reason.
if u think of one pls tell me.desparate in knowing.
seriously,there is none. i hate life.
even being happy. even being nice. there is no hope in life.
even if u achieve sth u will eventually die. y bother? just die"
.... kinda makes sense in a not making sense way.
No one has the courage to die anyway...
the purpose of life is to find our own meaning of life
and enjoy living our life...
if you never lived, you will never have enjoyed.
And that is even sadder than dying right?
Just registered for the Churchill tournament...
uh yea... hehe all 3 events.... for fun...
but of course... it would be extra if I win anything...
but really deep inside... who doesn't like winning!?
so unsure
so unpredictable
so uneasy...
Sucks...
Knew I couldn't do anything without warming up
but I went anyway cuz no one went.
sucks to be sucky.
Today's drill was good..
practising being in the back...
my backhand drops and flat shots improved so much altho it's not consistent...
And singles game was okay... Jenny probably wasn't doing her best.
Net shot game was fun... hehehe crosscourt slices... yah...
Badminton is good... heheh...
For some reason I was really really dumb today
Especially in Math... *sigh*
I erased the answer I had cuz I thought I did it wrong without even checking twice...
I copied y+3 instead of y-3..
I calculated (6/2)^2 to be 3 instead of 9...
I spent one damn hour doing only one section of the worksheet...
How am I gonna pull my marks up like this.... ah.....
I feel like my brain cells are dying....
and I'm getting dumber and dumber every day.... T__T
Got a ride from Winnie afterschool..
so nice... hehehe... I want rides everyday.
Who'll gimme rides everyday!? I'll pay that person... $5 a week. hahaha
yah right...... like I have that much money to spare.
"everything in this world is evil.
pure existance is evil.
we should not be here and i surely shouldn't.
birth is evil, movement is evil, everything.
so why should we live, when everything is evil?
i don't think i should live,dun wanna. there is no reason.
if u think of one pls tell me.desparate in knowing.
seriously,there is none. i hate life.
even being happy. even being nice. there is no hope in life.
even if u achieve sth u will eventually die. y bother? just die"
.... kinda makes sense in a not making sense way.
No one has the courage to die anyway...
the purpose of life is to find our own meaning of life
and enjoy living our life...
if you never lived, you will never have enjoyed.
And that is even sadder than dying right?
Just registered for the Churchill tournament...
uh yea... hehe all 3 events.... for fun...
but of course... it would be extra if I win anything...
but really deep inside... who doesn't like winning!?
so unsure
so unpredictable
so uneasy...
Sucks...
Knew I couldn't do anything without warming up
but I went anyway cuz no one went.
sucks to be sucky.
Today's drill was good..
practising being in the back...
my backhand drops and flat shots improved so much altho it's not consistent...
And singles game was okay... Jenny probably wasn't doing her best.
Net shot game was fun... hehehe crosscourt slices... yah...
Badminton is good... heheh...
For some reason I was really really dumb today
Especially in Math... *sigh*
I erased the answer I had cuz I thought I did it wrong without even checking twice...
I copied y+3 instead of y-3..
I calculated (6/2)^2 to be 3 instead of 9...
I spent one damn hour doing only one section of the worksheet...
How am I gonna pull my marks up like this.... ah.....
I feel like my brain cells are dying....
and I'm getting dumber and dumber every day.... T__T
Got a ride from Winnie afterschool..
so nice... hehehe... I want rides everyday.
Who'll gimme rides everyday!? I'll pay that person... $5 a week. hahaha
yah right...... like I have that much money to spare.
Noooo I missed it again..
my events are gonna be posted in the next day again
cuz I didn't update in time..
only 3 minutes...
oh TIME, WHY DIDN'T U WAIT FOR ME????
Had the freakiest dream last night...
so freaky and realistic... ><.....
I am frightened by my own evilness.....
ICQ is so screwed up..
it's either I can't receive other's msgs
or they can't receive mine...
SUCKS!
Went to Oakridge today afterschool...
hehe finally got some presents down..
still 1 more to go for this month.....
easy job... hehe
Noooo I'm so bad..
I start blaming people for things they haven't done...
just like they say
"I blame the floor being hard when I trip myself..."
AISH........ hate it hate it...
Cheese pretzel is still the best...
dun think I'll ever get tired of it..
heheh and the one today was extra cheesy. hehee
my events are gonna be posted in the next day again
cuz I didn't update in time..
only 3 minutes...
oh TIME, WHY DIDN'T U WAIT FOR ME????
Had the freakiest dream last night...
so freaky and realistic... ><.....
I am frightened by my own evilness.....
ICQ is so screwed up..
it's either I can't receive other's msgs
or they can't receive mine...
SUCKS!
Went to Oakridge today afterschool...
hehe finally got some presents down..
still 1 more to go for this month.....
easy job... hehe
Noooo I'm so bad..
I start blaming people for things they haven't done...
just like they say
"I blame the floor being hard when I trip myself..."
AISH........ hate it hate it...
Cheese pretzel is still the best...
dun think I'll ever get tired of it..
heheh and the one today was extra cheesy. hehee
10.14.2001
Don't really remember anything anymore
after taking a nap in the afternoon....
hmmm... sleeping makes people dumb
Badminton was pretty fun...
played a few games after warming up half court
first game was me & Jenny vs Jerry & Tina
if Jerry's school team partner was as weak as Tina
there's no reason how Kwok and Hung can lose to them... hmmm
I guess he's stronger than Tina then.
Second game was me & Jenny vs Shaolin & Jerry
that was fun even though we lost...
gotta train ourselves to beat them...
Third game was me & Jerry vs Jenny & Shaolin
we didn't finish the game but we were winning...
That was fun... hehehe
can't wait till the tournaments start.
Nooo they changed the rules to 5 games of 7...
sucks....
sucks SO MUCH!!!
Just watched a badminton video that Lin lent me...
mixed doubles... so good.
It's so weird... they don't play like Calvin teaches us
the girl sometimes goes back too and the guy comes up front
I guess it really depends on the partners and their communication... hmmm
細 Small
心 Heart...
Cheese pretzel and twist cone for lunch..
Mmm.. that was good...
went to shop around with Pin afterwards...
went to Richmond with Lin, Jenny, Pin and Ann later
couldn't get any of the 2 presents I had to buy...
not to mention another 3 that I need in November
and another 3 in December.... T___T...
i can see my money flying away....
眾裡尋他千百度
驀然迴首
那人卻在燈火闌珊處
-SEXY EYES-
So many things to do tomorrow...
ai...
didn't do anything this weekend
and leaving everything till the last minute..
this is wat I get... hahaha ><
bored is better than busy...
easy easy..
take it easy, man...
after taking a nap in the afternoon....
hmmm... sleeping makes people dumb
Badminton was pretty fun...
played a few games after warming up half court
first game was me & Jenny vs Jerry & Tina
if Jerry's school team partner was as weak as Tina
there's no reason how Kwok and Hung can lose to them... hmmm
I guess he's stronger than Tina then.
Second game was me & Jenny vs Shaolin & Jerry
that was fun even though we lost...
gotta train ourselves to beat them...
Third game was me & Jerry vs Jenny & Shaolin
we didn't finish the game but we were winning...
That was fun... hehehe
can't wait till the tournaments start.
Nooo they changed the rules to 5 games of 7...
sucks....
sucks SO MUCH!!!
Just watched a badminton video that Lin lent me...
mixed doubles... so good.
It's so weird... they don't play like Calvin teaches us
the girl sometimes goes back too and the guy comes up front
I guess it really depends on the partners and their communication... hmmm
細 Small
心 Heart...
Cheese pretzel and twist cone for lunch..
Mmm.. that was good...
went to shop around with Pin afterwards...
went to Richmond with Lin, Jenny, Pin and Ann later
couldn't get any of the 2 presents I had to buy...
not to mention another 3 that I need in November
and another 3 in December.... T___T...
i can see my money flying away....
眾裡尋他千百度
驀然迴首
那人卻在燈火闌珊處
-SEXY EYES-
So many things to do tomorrow...
ai...
didn't do anything this weekend
and leaving everything till the last minute..
this is wat I get... hahaha ><
bored is better than busy...
easy easy..
take it easy, man...
10.13.2001
So you were thinking... of?
Happy or depressing thoughts?
Problems or solutions?
The past or the future?
haha just like Jerry said..
don't let emotions control you..
you're the one who controls them.
Shit I just typed a whole paragraph of things and it's all gone now..
all gone...
you know we always say how powerful a computer is
but in fact, if we don't tell them what to do,
they are as useless as a bunch of plastic crap.
So mad...
I'm about to explode.
so weird...
I automatically switch into 'no-talk' mode
when I'm with people I'm not familiar with
How am I gonna survive university with all new, unfamiliar people?
Nnoooo now I dun wanna grad anymore.
I want to be myself at all times
so unnatural...
so afraid that people will start finding me annoying
so unsure of what other people think
so self conscious that makes myself mad
so easily offended by others
so lack of self confidence and assurance
I don't like the weak me...
I'd really like to speak what I think but I can't
Stayed up till 4 last night
to watch Shaolin Soccer..
man.. it's the best cantonese movie ever!!
It'll be so cool if everyone knows kung-fu...
I like how they never give up until they physically can't stand it anymore
I like the goalie who looked like Bruce Lee.. he's cute heh
I like the 3rd see-hing who volunteered to be the goalie.. knowing that he can't take it
I like Vicky's character... even though she turned bald in the end
I like the whole movie.. it's so cool!!!
Spent the night having teppanyaki @ Shao's
then watching Rush Hour 2
then just sitting and talking...
didn't talk much... most of the time I just listened
it's so weird... when I'm with a group of people sometimes I get all stupid
when people ask me things I just smile back at them...
and by the way.. listening uses up much more energy than you think....
I feel so stupid...
Got so addicted to reading this novel I lost track of the time..
so dumbdumbdumbdumb..
even though I'm reading this the second time I'm still addicted...
Badminton was okay..
2 on 1 singles sucks...
don't really like singles.
Churchill B Tournament coming up..
hmmm duno which events I'll join.
Maybe all three.
What the hell is this?
"10/14/01 1:18 AM: Oops, I think I broke it. Sorry, please try back shortly. "
can't update my blog... Arrrgh
didn't even wanna explain...
that's how bad it is.
It's annoying how some parents think they can control the lives of their son/daughter.
Happy or depressing thoughts?
Problems or solutions?
The past or the future?
haha just like Jerry said..
don't let emotions control you..
you're the one who controls them.
Shit I just typed a whole paragraph of things and it's all gone now..
all gone...
you know we always say how powerful a computer is
but in fact, if we don't tell them what to do,
they are as useless as a bunch of plastic crap.
So mad...
I'm about to explode.
so weird...
I automatically switch into 'no-talk' mode
when I'm with people I'm not familiar with
How am I gonna survive university with all new, unfamiliar people?
Nnoooo now I dun wanna grad anymore.
I want to be myself at all times
so unnatural...
so afraid that people will start finding me annoying
so unsure of what other people think
so self conscious that makes myself mad
so easily offended by others
so lack of self confidence and assurance
I don't like the weak me...
I'd really like to speak what I think but I can't
Stayed up till 4 last night
to watch Shaolin Soccer..
man.. it's the best cantonese movie ever!!
It'll be so cool if everyone knows kung-fu...
I like how they never give up until they physically can't stand it anymore
I like the goalie who looked like Bruce Lee.. he's cute heh
I like the 3rd see-hing who volunteered to be the goalie.. knowing that he can't take it
I like Vicky's character... even though she turned bald in the end
I like the whole movie.. it's so cool!!!
Spent the night having teppanyaki @ Shao's
then watching Rush Hour 2
then just sitting and talking...
didn't talk much... most of the time I just listened
it's so weird... when I'm with a group of people sometimes I get all stupid
when people ask me things I just smile back at them...
and by the way.. listening uses up much more energy than you think....
I feel so stupid...
Got so addicted to reading this novel I lost track of the time..
so dumbdumbdumbdumb..
even though I'm reading this the second time I'm still addicted...
Badminton was okay..
2 on 1 singles sucks...
don't really like singles.
Churchill B Tournament coming up..
hmmm duno which events I'll join.
Maybe all three.
What the hell is this?
"10/14/01 1:18 AM: Oops, I think I broke it. Sorry, please try back shortly. "
can't update my blog... Arrrgh
didn't even wanna explain...
that's how bad it is.
It's annoying how some parents think they can control the lives of their son/daughter.
10.12.2001
Ah.. lost 3-8... T__T
Thought we would have 4 games for sure
but no... I guess there is no 'for sure' sure....
Jason and Shao... Kwok and Hung...
guys lost ALL their games.. so disappointed...
they played against who.. Andy and Michael...
and the other two pair with this guy I know who hits really hard
and some other unknown guy...
I think they practice a lot together though..
and maybe if Jason and Shao had practiced more together b4 the game...
or maybe if we saved that lineup for Churchill we'll have a chance...
hah..... uh nevermind.. watever.
It's alright... just as long as we can still play. ^^
Still think that we're missing one good girls player...
can't rely on guys cuz the guys in other schools are too good...
what will happen after me, Jenny, Jason, Shao and Jim grad?
Hmmmm....... I wonder...
That dumbass scale test...
haha I screwed up so much..
Bb one octave... ah............... ><
Had a nap and automatically woke up after one hour..
I wake up automatically now so much...
it's kinda handy sometimes but.......
no... it sucks all other times.
''Whose line is it anyway?'
such a good and funny show!!
hehe the actors are so talented...
Grumpy old man for math sub...
he's so stupid...
.......... pissed off at my dad again...
sweet...
wonder if it's the same on the other side of the planet.
It looks so warm and comfortable...
makes me wanna hug it so much
but it's so hard to judge wat it's thinking from it's looks...
I'm afraid if I hug it it'll bite me instead.
I want to win...
I want to win so bad
but winning and losing isn't everything...
just as long as I enjoyed the game and tried my best...
Have some sportsmanship man!!!!
STAND UP and FACE IT LIKE A MAN
Kinda happy from that compliment...
'one of the best girl player he saw from high school'!?!?
But wat am I compared to Davita.... T__T....
What kind of friends are you?
I'm a 'Rachel'... but I dun think I am one....
ICQ is so screwed up...
*sigh* but me still depending on it.
Nooo I feel so cheap......
so so cheap.......
It's so weird when everyone else thinks something is funny but I don't
and then when I think something is funny they don't.
Feels so different in a bad way.
Wanna watch
SHAOLIN SOCCER
so much.. hehehe finally got hold of the VCD
Thought we would have 4 games for sure
but no... I guess there is no 'for sure' sure....
Jason and Shao... Kwok and Hung...
guys lost ALL their games.. so disappointed...
they played against who.. Andy and Michael...
and the other two pair with this guy I know who hits really hard
and some other unknown guy...
I think they practice a lot together though..
and maybe if Jason and Shao had practiced more together b4 the game...
or maybe if we saved that lineup for Churchill we'll have a chance...
hah..... uh nevermind.. watever.
It's alright... just as long as we can still play. ^^
Still think that we're missing one good girls player...
can't rely on guys cuz the guys in other schools are too good...
what will happen after me, Jenny, Jason, Shao and Jim grad?
Hmmmm....... I wonder...
That dumbass scale test...
haha I screwed up so much..
Bb one octave... ah............... ><
Had a nap and automatically woke up after one hour..
I wake up automatically now so much...
it's kinda handy sometimes but.......
no... it sucks all other times.
''Whose line is it anyway?'
such a good and funny show!!
hehe the actors are so talented...
Grumpy old man for math sub...
he's so stupid...
.......... pissed off at my dad again...
sweet...
wonder if it's the same on the other side of the planet.
It looks so warm and comfortable...
makes me wanna hug it so much
but it's so hard to judge wat it's thinking from it's looks...
I'm afraid if I hug it it'll bite me instead.
I want to win...
I want to win so bad
but winning and losing isn't everything...
just as long as I enjoyed the game and tried my best...
Have some sportsmanship man!!!!
STAND UP and FACE IT LIKE A MAN
Kinda happy from that compliment...
'one of the best girl player he saw from high school'!?!?
But wat am I compared to Davita.... T__T....
What kind of friends are you?
I'm a 'Rachel'... but I dun think I am one....
ICQ is so screwed up...
*sigh* but me still depending on it.
Nooo I feel so cheap......
so so cheap.......
It's so weird when everyone else thinks something is funny but I don't
and then when I think something is funny they don't.
Feels so different in a bad way.
Wanna watch
SHAOLIN SOCCER
so much.. hehehe finally got hold of the VCD
10.11.2001
So stupid...
I made 2 stupid mistakes in a row on a QUIZ...
damnit....
wat's worse is I found out after Letourneau said there's no time...
WHY!?!?!? *sigh*.. screw up on a quiz...
wat'll happen when I do the next test.... T__T...fail...
Aw 2 days of 'must-do-homework'
and now I'm back to 'slack-and-slack-more'.....
how am I gonna survive my grade 12 year.....
I like my badminton flash.
Haha so proud of it... even tho it's ugly...
so wat? I made it. heh...
Surprise...
The letter is worth 30
the partner thing is worth 40
how much is the play worth!?
>____
Game against PW tomorrow..
WIN WIN WIN!!!!!
OH MY GOD..... nasty...
A person who looks like she has no bones...
A man squirting milk out of his eyes...
A woman with eyeballs sticking out...
A man mixing chocolate powder and milk in his stomach
and get chocolate milk running out of his nose...
NASTY......... oh my god.. freaks!!!!!!!!!!
Physics test was okay....
I think I got all the questions.
^^...... didn't do too bad.
Was gonna go home and take a nap and come back at 5:30...
but no.. the practice was at 3:30....
haha lied there for an hour...
felt so sleepy....
but practice afterwards was good....
must win game tomorrow....!!!!!
I made 2 stupid mistakes in a row on a QUIZ...
damnit....
wat's worse is I found out after Letourneau said there's no time...
WHY!?!?!? *sigh*.. screw up on a quiz...
wat'll happen when I do the next test.... T__T...fail...
Aw 2 days of 'must-do-homework'
and now I'm back to 'slack-and-slack-more'.....
how am I gonna survive my grade 12 year.....
I like my badminton flash.
Haha so proud of it... even tho it's ugly...
so wat? I made it. heh...
Surprise...
The letter is worth 30
the partner thing is worth 40
how much is the play worth!?
>____
Game against PW tomorrow..
WIN WIN WIN!!!!!
OH MY GOD..... nasty...
A person who looks like she has no bones...
A man squirting milk out of his eyes...
A woman with eyeballs sticking out...
A man mixing chocolate powder and milk in his stomach
and get chocolate milk running out of his nose...
NASTY......... oh my god.. freaks!!!!!!!!!!
Physics test was okay....
I think I got all the questions.
^^...... didn't do too bad.
Was gonna go home and take a nap and come back at 5:30...
but no.. the practice was at 3:30....
haha lied there for an hour...
felt so sleepy....
but practice afterwards was good....
must win game tomorrow....!!!!!
hmmmm..
updating my blog later and later everyday...
should I keep up on my school work
or keep up on updating my blog!?
haha... the answer is so obvious.
Won!!! We won!!!
Our first win......
Let's have a winning streak
hahah... impossible.. T_T....
If we can beat PW...
if only we can beat PW.
back hurts
arm hurts...
head hurts too from too much calculus....
X_X.. dead after 1
Rushed to Macdonalds to get a hamburger b4 the game today
hah... mMMm... it was good... gave me energy.
Singles game was okay... that girl had nice drops...
me kept screwing up... I knew she was gonna drop but I backed up just in case..
then she makes a nice drop and I'm too slow to get it... ><...
OH well. I won anyway. hehe...
Mix game was okay...
hah got so scared when after Jason smashed at the girl..
she looked like she was gonna cry any moment
and when her partner asked her how she was
she was really mad and went 'Don't touch me!'
and I was like.. 'whoa...... she must be reeeeeeeally pissed off...'
So funny.. I naturally called David hung 'Hung' cuz I'm too used to calling them 'Hung and Kwok'...
So close.. 7-4... thought we could've won more games.
Another sectional..
and again, only Tomoki came.
*sigh*.. wat group is this!? Sucks....
Had a weird sub in math who spoke so so fast...
he was weird lookin too... hah
and I bet he skipped lots of the notes Letourneau was gonna give us.
well it's alrite.. just as long as I understand the stuff.
Chem test was so easy!!!
hope I can ace this one...
yes I will... then I won't have to worry about physics as much.
Too bad I can't replace math with anything... *sigh*....
Ai... forgot to piss Jerry's coach off today...
they won their game anyway.... got no excuse.
That woman beside the coach.. she's evil man..
she looked like this woman in 'Scary Movies 2'...
nasty...
updating my blog later and later everyday...
should I keep up on my school work
or keep up on updating my blog!?
haha... the answer is so obvious.
Won!!! We won!!!
Our first win......
Let's have a winning streak
hahah... impossible.. T_T....
If we can beat PW...
if only we can beat PW.
back hurts
arm hurts...
head hurts too from too much calculus....
X_X.. dead after 1
Rushed to Macdonalds to get a hamburger b4 the game today
hah... mMMm... it was good... gave me energy.
Singles game was okay... that girl had nice drops...
me kept screwing up... I knew she was gonna drop but I backed up just in case..
then she makes a nice drop and I'm too slow to get it... ><...
OH well. I won anyway. hehe...
Mix game was okay...
hah got so scared when after Jason smashed at the girl..
she looked like she was gonna cry any moment
and when her partner asked her how she was
she was really mad and went 'Don't touch me!'
and I was like.. 'whoa...... she must be reeeeeeeally pissed off...'
So funny.. I naturally called David hung 'Hung' cuz I'm too used to calling them 'Hung and Kwok'...
So close.. 7-4... thought we could've won more games.
Another sectional..
and again, only Tomoki came.
*sigh*.. wat group is this!? Sucks....
Had a weird sub in math who spoke so so fast...
he was weird lookin too... hah
and I bet he skipped lots of the notes Letourneau was gonna give us.
well it's alrite.. just as long as I understand the stuff.
Chem test was so easy!!!
hope I can ace this one...
yes I will... then I won't have to worry about physics as much.
Too bad I can't replace math with anything... *sigh*....
Ai... forgot to piss Jerry's coach off today...
they won their game anyway.... got no excuse.
That woman beside the coach.. she's evil man..
she looked like this woman in 'Scary Movies 2'...
nasty...
10.10.2001
Opps...
9 minutes late with my update...
It's gonna bring my whole day's event to the next day then.
OH well. Today's another bright new day. Hee...
I realize I'm not doing much thinking these days...
all I write about is what happened...
*sigh*.. maybe that's why my brain's turning slower..
cuz of the lack of usage... hehheh
Game against Magee tomorrow..
me playing singles and mix... >Kinda nervous... kinda excited...
but I think I can handle it.
Yes I can, the great great rochai. Hee....
we have a big chance of winning...
but on friday... almost no chance with that lineup.. T__T....
and it's PW!!! NOooo... I even know friends in there so I know how well they play....
OH well. I'll talk to Alex wednesday night and see what she thinks.
20 minutes nap gets me all refreshed...
played pretty good today except I strained my leg muscle..
hmmm.. damn......
oh well, same thing, I CAN HANDLE IT. hah....
Someday when I can't handle anything anymore...
I think I'll lose it and go crazy...
how can someone stand to not being able to handle anything!?
As the bundle gets larger and larger
the stick gets more and more bent..
until one day when it can't take the pressure anymore..
it'll snap into two ugly pieces... one day...
No time tomorrow to do anything...
Have to do nikki and math review in the morning
Sectional at lunch (dun even know if anyone remembers)
game right afterschool...
something's wrong..
something's VERY wrong...
I have no time to eat! NOooooo
So glad that we had the EQ Drill
so we didn't have to do the physics test...
I was so not ready...
must be 幸運之神的眷顧 *smile*!
She said we might have a Calc pop quiz...
damnit..... calc... *sigh*
I have totally no confidence in Calc...
EQ Drill was fun because afterwards we went to Cute Pearl..
Toko took a looong loong time coming up with the word 'insult'
I ordered an ice-cream waffle which made me want to puke...
Went to a store which is about to close and plan to buy a few things
Saw Frank on the way back to school
then I met Hannah and walked home with her.
Hmmm... did so much but it feels so unfufilling.
Feels so great that I beat Sidney today 15-5...
heh he was so cocky before I thought he really could beat me...
or maybe I was just lucky
but still... it feels so good to win.
Practiced mix with Jason...
haha still not working very well together...
I think it's my problem...
Played doubles with Jenny...
don't feel the 默契 we used to have...
I duno. I guess it takes time to return to how we were before summer.
Badminton's fun fun fun!!!
Something I put off for 2 months,
I finally accomplished.
Studied chemistry, did half of my nikki
and I'm actually doing math homework.
I feel so accomplishing!!!
I feel that I need more control now..
can't always rely on luck and talent...
can't always slack off and expect to get good grades...
gotta control myself from reading novel
from playing too much ICQ
from doing irrelevant stuff...
gotta control myself to start doing hw and studying. Yes.
\ _ / <-- 堅決 no 眼神.
9 minutes late with my update...
It's gonna bring my whole day's event to the next day then.
OH well. Today's another bright new day. Hee...
I realize I'm not doing much thinking these days...
all I write about is what happened...
*sigh*.. maybe that's why my brain's turning slower..
cuz of the lack of usage... hehheh
Game against Magee tomorrow..
me playing singles and mix... >Kinda nervous... kinda excited...
but I think I can handle it.
Yes I can, the great great rochai. Hee....
we have a big chance of winning...
but on friday... almost no chance with that lineup.. T__T....
and it's PW!!! NOooo... I even know friends in there so I know how well they play....
OH well. I'll talk to Alex wednesday night and see what she thinks.
20 minutes nap gets me all refreshed...
played pretty good today except I strained my leg muscle..
hmmm.. damn......
oh well, same thing, I CAN HANDLE IT. hah....
Someday when I can't handle anything anymore...
I think I'll lose it and go crazy...
how can someone stand to not being able to handle anything!?
As the bundle gets larger and larger
the stick gets more and more bent..
until one day when it can't take the pressure anymore..
it'll snap into two ugly pieces... one day...
No time tomorrow to do anything...
Have to do nikki and math review in the morning
Sectional at lunch (dun even know if anyone remembers)
game right afterschool...
something's wrong..
something's VERY wrong...
I have no time to eat! NOooooo
So glad that we had the EQ Drill
so we didn't have to do the physics test...
I was so not ready...
must be 幸運之神的眷顧 *smile*!
She said we might have a Calc pop quiz...
damnit..... calc... *sigh*
I have totally no confidence in Calc...
EQ Drill was fun because afterwards we went to Cute Pearl..
Toko took a looong loong time coming up with the word 'insult'
I ordered an ice-cream waffle which made me want to puke...
Went to a store which is about to close and plan to buy a few things
Saw Frank on the way back to school
then I met Hannah and walked home with her.
Hmmm... did so much but it feels so unfufilling.
Feels so great that I beat Sidney today 15-5...
heh he was so cocky before I thought he really could beat me...
or maybe I was just lucky
but still... it feels so good to win.
Practiced mix with Jason...
haha still not working very well together...
I think it's my problem...
Played doubles with Jenny...
don't feel the 默契 we used to have...
I duno. I guess it takes time to return to how we were before summer.
Badminton's fun fun fun!!!
Something I put off for 2 months,
I finally accomplished.
Studied chemistry, did half of my nikki
and I'm actually doing math homework.
I feel so accomplishing!!!
I feel that I need more control now..
can't always rely on luck and talent...
can't always slack off and expect to get good grades...
gotta control myself from reading novel
from playing too much ICQ
from doing irrelevant stuff...
gotta control myself to start doing hw and studying. Yes.
\ _ / <-- 堅決 no 眼神.
10.09.2001
PLEASE let it be sunny tomorrow!! SUNNY!!!!
The weather forcast shows a sun behind the clouds...
so unsure... T_T...
I dun get #7.... Kinematics review...
Woke up automatically @ 11:30 today...
it never used to happen but now it's happening more frequently...
I wake up myself and can't fall back to sleep....
I don't like it....
Spent the afternoon mostly with Toko...
Was gonna rent a movie
but we ended up not watching one
Went to London Drugs and did a bit of shopping for Toko's mom
and then she got a cup of coffee
and we went to her house
then we went to LD again to get my brother a Ti-83
Went to Blockbuster.. ah.. I love the smell there..
and then we walked to my house and chatted a bit.
haha sorry Jenny... forgot to tell u we're walking...
Uh.. not much to say.
I was gonna take a shower and do my physics review
but I was so into my novel when I looked at the clock it was 11 already
and I haven't taken a shower yet... T_T...
so I took one.. and quickly tried doing my review...
but I got stuck on #7....
so I end up playing ICQ.. and updating this blog.
Chain reaction... hahaha
Right shoulder still have sharp pains...
Sucks... maybe I should see a chiropracter
kinda pissed off that I got used...
but it's alrite hah..
I dun get affected...
in the end everything goes back to where it originated from.
~I am rubber, you are glue
whatever you say bounces off me and sticks to you~ hah
It's winter..
getting colder and colder
as my brain starts to turn slower and slower...
Not good... not good......
Nooo... I got lazy last night..
so I have to pay for it tonight..
I already have my tomorrow planned...
do homework till late tonight..
school... then go home and sleep...
then come back for badminton practice..
exxcellent.
The weather forcast shows a sun behind the clouds...
so unsure... T_T...
I dun get #7.... Kinematics review...
Woke up automatically @ 11:30 today...
it never used to happen but now it's happening more frequently...
I wake up myself and can't fall back to sleep....
I don't like it....
Spent the afternoon mostly with Toko...
Was gonna rent a movie
but we ended up not watching one
Went to London Drugs and did a bit of shopping for Toko's mom
and then she got a cup of coffee
and we went to her house
then we went to LD again to get my brother a Ti-83
Went to Blockbuster.. ah.. I love the smell there..
and then we walked to my house and chatted a bit.
haha sorry Jenny... forgot to tell u we're walking...
Uh.. not much to say.
I was gonna take a shower and do my physics review
but I was so into my novel when I looked at the clock it was 11 already
and I haven't taken a shower yet... T_T...
so I took one.. and quickly tried doing my review...
but I got stuck on #7....
so I end up playing ICQ.. and updating this blog.
Chain reaction... hahaha
Right shoulder still have sharp pains...
Sucks... maybe I should see a chiropracter
kinda pissed off that I got used...
but it's alrite hah..
I dun get affected...
in the end everything goes back to where it originated from.
~I am rubber, you are glue
whatever you say bounces off me and sticks to you~ hah
It's winter..
getting colder and colder
as my brain starts to turn slower and slower...
Not good... not good......
Nooo... I got lazy last night..
so I have to pay for it tonight..
I already have my tomorrow planned...
do homework till late tonight..
school... then go home and sleep...
then come back for badminton practice..
exxcellent.
10.07.2001
Slept through the day again after badminton...
ah... so uncomfortable to sleep in sweaty clothes
Uck..........
But u see... if I take a shower and wash my hair
then I won't be able to sleep.... so dumb... T_T
Sucks... I sprained my muscles everywhere...
whenever I cough my back hurts...
my right shoulder has sharp pains...
sprained my right leg muscle
ah.... haha my body's so vulnerable
I dreamt that I found a number on my racket!
But it's only a dream... T_T...
there's still no number in real life...
Badminton was okay...
only okay... not as fun as before anymore...
am I losing interest!?!?
Or maybe I just lack the energy to think and play like usual
I can't control myself....
still kept hitting the rim and missing the birdie...
why!?!?!?!?
Can't play well with Jenny anymore... ><.....
Me suffering:
*cough* OW!
*cough* OW!
*cough* OW!
*cough cough* OW OW!
Rest tomorrow...
US started the war today!?!?
I dun freakin care....
why does my dad has to make me stay home........
Haha forgot to say yesterday,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, JERRY....
*sigh* very soon I'll be turning 17...
wat the hell.......
I realized I get stomach pains if I eat something too fat or oily in the morning...
Plain bread is good..........
Everyone getting sick...
the first group of people who got sick are all cured...
now the second group are getting cured
but I am still not.........
My friend just gave me the urge to play piano again...
Once in a Blue Moon....
such a nice song.
Shit my ear is bleeding...
*sigh* wat's wrong with me?
Everything's wrong with me these days....
ah... so uncomfortable to sleep in sweaty clothes
Uck..........
But u see... if I take a shower and wash my hair
then I won't be able to sleep.... so dumb... T_T
Sucks... I sprained my muscles everywhere...
whenever I cough my back hurts...
my right shoulder has sharp pains...
sprained my right leg muscle
ah.... haha my body's so vulnerable
I dreamt that I found a number on my racket!
But it's only a dream... T_T...
there's still no number in real life...
Badminton was okay...
only okay... not as fun as before anymore...
am I losing interest!?!?
Or maybe I just lack the energy to think and play like usual
I can't control myself....
still kept hitting the rim and missing the birdie...
why!?!?!?!?
Can't play well with Jenny anymore... ><.....
Me suffering:
*cough* OW!
*cough* OW!
*cough* OW!
*cough cough* OW OW!
Rest tomorrow...
US started the war today!?!?
I dun freakin care....
why does my dad has to make me stay home........
Haha forgot to say yesterday,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, JERRY....
*sigh* very soon I'll be turning 17...
wat the hell.......
I realized I get stomach pains if I eat something too fat or oily in the morning...
Plain bread is good..........
Everyone getting sick...
the first group of people who got sick are all cured...
now the second group are getting cured
but I am still not.........
My friend just gave me the urge to play piano again...
Once in a Blue Moon....
such a nice song.
Shit my ear is bleeding...
*sigh* wat's wrong with me?
Everything's wrong with me these days....
10.06.2001
So tired and sleepy even tho I slept till 1:30 today...
brain turning so slowly...
I saw Joseph's smash coming
I think 'oh no!'
I take a step
but by then it's already too late.... Ah....
Wake up! My brain cells! Wake up!!!!
played so poorly...
I guess both Elisha and I are having a bad day...
but she's having a worse one because I beat her hah.
Lost to Jenny and Joseph...
How can I lose to Joseph!?!?
AhhhHhh... biggest failure....
kept on missing... played like me three years ago
kept hitting the rim or hitting it out.... AiSH...
maybe my racket is fake!?!? T_T... my lovely lovely racket...
it's alrite.. I won't abandon you even if you really are fake...
Mmm.. cheese pretzel is still the best flavor!!
Gotta try their chocolate sauce someday....
If I have enough money
I'd open a pretzel/coffee store on 41st
and earn lots and lots of $ ripping off PG people. HARHARHAR...
Yea Jenny I'll give you half too for providing the idea.
That is... IF i have money....
(you: .......................)
Birthday presents are giving me a headache...
Why does everyone has to be born in October!?!?
*sigh* too many Libras...
supposedly balanced libras are now unbalanced.
Okay... I'm not making sense here.
Driving around again...
so so fun...
no more fuel..
so not fun... =(
Last night was so dangerous actually...
didn't stop in time at an intersection
and almost got hit by this car cuz I stopped too far out.
hahahaha.. that was exciting.
Suddenly remembered about the dream I had last night
I dreamt about Ann.... Ahahha
she was pretending to be the ghost in 'The Ring'...
and she had a green face and she was wearing a kimono...
somehow she ended up selling laundry powder...
and she was demonstrating how to use it...
so she poured some into a bathtub (bathtub!?!?)...
and I remembered that part so clearly
because my bathtub leaks... and I was wondering if hers does too.
heh... weird, weird dream...
It's so weird how much more I talk to my mom through E-mail
but once we get on the phone...
we keep running out of topics...
I feel that I'm boring her telling her my stuff...
she doesn't tell me her stuff cuz she thinks she'll bore me..
hmmm.... sucks!
Haha I think we are right, Jenny
While we're thinking how weird guys are,
they are probably thinking how weird girls are. hehe
Maybe protons thinks electrons are weird too and vice versa... hah
What are neutrons then!? Uh........................
That reminds me of the love chemistry Christine and I worked out last year
Don't remember all of them anymore...
Synthesis = Two people becoming a couple
Decomposition = a couple breaking up
Single Replacement = A 3rd person separating a couple and being with one of them
Double Replacement = 2 ppl exchanging partners with a pair of couple
The rest I don't really remember...
it was really interesting tho.. and it made sense. hehe
Show no respect for people who deserves to get their ass kicked.
PLUR !? not to them.
Re-reading 神鵰俠女...
it's so good....
Good books are never boring no matter how many times you read them.
“我以為大聲說
就能成真
我以為不想不說
就能不讓發生”
ALALALALA...
拒絕收聽 ,
謝絕探訪 .
Christine's 道理﹕
女人要專一...
haha
would you rather be with someone who's 專一 but not 長情
or someone who's 長情 but not 專一﹖
I think I am the 專一但不長情 type....
haha.. which type are you?
goodbye, goodbye,
leave without a trace...
where did the old 'me' go?
I cannot find the answer with the new 'me' blood in me...
starting to not be able to tell between true and fake
sometimes the truth looks so fake
but the fake looks so true....
irony is killing me AhhhhhhhhH!
brain turning so slowly...
I saw Joseph's smash coming
I think 'oh no!'
I take a step
but by then it's already too late.... Ah....
Wake up! My brain cells! Wake up!!!!
played so poorly...
I guess both Elisha and I are having a bad day...
but she's having a worse one because I beat her hah.
Lost to Jenny and Joseph...
How can I lose to Joseph!?!?
AhhhHhh... biggest failure....
kept on missing... played like me three years ago
kept hitting the rim or hitting it out.... AiSH...
maybe my racket is fake!?!? T_T... my lovely lovely racket...
it's alrite.. I won't abandon you even if you really are fake...
Mmm.. cheese pretzel is still the best flavor!!
Gotta try their chocolate sauce someday....
If I have enough money
I'd open a pretzel/coffee store on 41st
and earn lots and lots of $ ripping off PG people. HARHARHAR...
Yea Jenny I'll give you half too for providing the idea.
That is... IF i have money....
(you: .......................)
Birthday presents are giving me a headache...
Why does everyone has to be born in October!?!?
*sigh* too many Libras...
supposedly balanced libras are now unbalanced.
Okay... I'm not making sense here.
Driving around again...
so so fun...
no more fuel..
so not fun... =(
Last night was so dangerous actually...
didn't stop in time at an intersection
and almost got hit by this car cuz I stopped too far out.
hahahaha.. that was exciting.
Suddenly remembered about the dream I had last night
I dreamt about Ann.... Ahahha
she was pretending to be the ghost in 'The Ring'...
and she had a green face and she was wearing a kimono...
somehow she ended up selling laundry powder...
and she was demonstrating how to use it...
so she poured some into a bathtub (bathtub!?!?)...
and I remembered that part so clearly
because my bathtub leaks... and I was wondering if hers does too.
heh... weird, weird dream...
It's so weird how much more I talk to my mom through E-mail
but once we get on the phone...
we keep running out of topics...
I feel that I'm boring her telling her my stuff...
she doesn't tell me her stuff cuz she thinks she'll bore me..
hmmm.... sucks!
Haha I think we are right, Jenny
While we're thinking how weird guys are,
they are probably thinking how weird girls are. hehe
Maybe protons thinks electrons are weird too and vice versa... hah
What are neutrons then!? Uh........................
That reminds me of the love chemistry Christine and I worked out last year
Don't remember all of them anymore...
Synthesis = Two people becoming a couple
Decomposition = a couple breaking up
Single Replacement = A 3rd person separating a couple and being with one of them
Double Replacement = 2 ppl exchanging partners with a pair of couple
The rest I don't really remember...
it was really interesting tho.. and it made sense. hehe
Show no respect for people who deserves to get their ass kicked.
PLUR !? not to them.
Re-reading 神鵰俠女...
it's so good....
Good books are never boring no matter how many times you read them.
“我以為大聲說
就能成真
我以為不想不說
就能不讓發生”
ALALALALA...
拒絕收聽 ,
謝絕探訪 .
Christine's 道理﹕
女人要專一...
haha
would you rather be with someone who's 專一 but not 長情
or someone who's 長情 but not 專一﹖
I think I am the 專一但不長情 type....
haha.. which type are you?
goodbye, goodbye,
leave without a trace...
where did the old 'me' go?
I cannot find the answer with the new 'me' blood in me...
starting to not be able to tell between true and fake
sometimes the truth looks so fake
but the fake looks so true....
irony is killing me AhhhhhhhhH!
Been coughing for one whole week already...
why is it still here?
I never used to cough for such a long time...
so afraid that one day I'll find myself coughing blood,
seeing the doctor tellin me I have lung cancer...
so afraid that one day that might actually happen to me....
Moody me @ 1.
I like the free feeling when I drive
I don't like the feeling when I have to think where I have to go to
I like the cozy feeling when I lie around doing nothing
I don't like the feeling when everything's all planned out and forced out
Party was okay...
I'm sorry I was really late...
stomach almost burnt again bcuz of lemon tea...
dinner... pork chop noodles... super peppery... mmMmm...
singing was okay..
watching Christine and Katie dance and sing was really entertaining...
This time it feels so different from other hang outs...
hmmm.... maybe cuz most of us are sick...
So tired.
All I can recall from today was driving at midnight...
wouldn't it be great if I didn't have to go home
and will never get lost or run out of fuel...
I will just drive around aimlessly
without having to worry about time or getting lost...
that'll be so fun...
Almost forgot I had badminton...
mix sucks...
so boring...
and that guy who couldn't stop talking...
he just kept yakking and yakking and yakking...
ARGh..... just wanted to tape his mouth up and slap him 10 times...
Bosco's a funny kid... hahaha he became a she today.
Long hair dude is so cocky...
so so cocky.. but it's alrite when he's on my side. hah
I'm not built for playing mix... I'm so slow in reacting....
Since 10:00 this morning I've been doing things nonstop...
I woke up,
I went to the doctor's
I went to lunch with my dad
I went home
I drove Christine and Katie to Oakridge
we got a present for Rosemary
I drove them to Richmond
we shopped around for a bit
I drove back homeAfter 5 minutes of cloth changing, etc
I left my home for badminton
after 1.5 hours of badminton
I drove Jenny home
I went home
I took a shower
I drove Rosemary and Kathleen to Richmond
We had dinner
We went singing
I drove Katie, Christine, Rosemary and Kathleen home
I drove around myself for a bit
I drove home finally at 12:45...
Did so many things
but I find myself not accomplishing a lot...
just did a lot of pointless driving...
but I didn't mind... I like driving...
HARHARHAR.... highest score.. 666....
evilness....
AiSh... = Ai + Psh!?!?
I have no life
no life no life no life no life no life... *echoes on...* T_T
slow vs fast
gradual vs sudden
cool vs gentle
watever vs plan
me vs u
why is it still here?
I never used to cough for such a long time...
so afraid that one day I'll find myself coughing blood,
seeing the doctor tellin me I have lung cancer...
so afraid that one day that might actually happen to me....
Moody me @ 1.
I like the free feeling when I drive
I don't like the feeling when I have to think where I have to go to
I like the cozy feeling when I lie around doing nothing
I don't like the feeling when everything's all planned out and forced out
Party was okay...
I'm sorry I was really late...
stomach almost burnt again bcuz of lemon tea...
dinner... pork chop noodles... super peppery... mmMmm...
singing was okay..
watching Christine and Katie dance and sing was really entertaining...
This time it feels so different from other hang outs...
hmmm.... maybe cuz most of us are sick...
So tired.
All I can recall from today was driving at midnight...
wouldn't it be great if I didn't have to go home
and will never get lost or run out of fuel...
I will just drive around aimlessly
without having to worry about time or getting lost...
that'll be so fun...
Almost forgot I had badminton...
mix sucks...
so boring...
and that guy who couldn't stop talking...
he just kept yakking and yakking and yakking...
ARGh..... just wanted to tape his mouth up and slap him 10 times...
Bosco's a funny kid... hahaha he became a she today.
Long hair dude is so cocky...
so so cocky.. but it's alrite when he's on my side. hah
I'm not built for playing mix... I'm so slow in reacting....
Since 10:00 this morning I've been doing things nonstop...
I woke up,
I went to the doctor's
I went to lunch with my dad
I went home
I drove Christine and Katie to Oakridge
we got a present for Rosemary
I drove them to Richmond
we shopped around for a bit
I drove back homeAfter 5 minutes of cloth changing, etc
I left my home for badminton
after 1.5 hours of badminton
I drove Jenny home
I went home
I took a shower
I drove Rosemary and Kathleen to Richmond
We had dinner
We went singing
I drove Katie, Christine, Rosemary and Kathleen home
I drove around myself for a bit
I drove home finally at 12:45...
Did so many things
but I find myself not accomplishing a lot...
just did a lot of pointless driving...
but I didn't mind... I like driving...
HARHARHAR.... highest score.. 666....
evilness....
AiSh... = Ai + Psh!?!?
I have no life
no life no life no life no life no life... *echoes on...* T_T
slow vs fast
gradual vs sudden
cool vs gentle
watever vs plan
me vs u
10.04.2001
Where's everyone!?
I'm so bored.......................
Uh........ yea........
sleep... doctor... Richmond... badminton... back to Richmond..
that's my very excellent plan.
Ah.. I wonder how many people reads my blog..
if u read this and I duno that ur reading it..
please leave me a msg...
just so I know.....
it sucks to not know anything.
Stick people stick people...
they look so easy to make
but now I totally understand how hard it was to make that flash thing.
Feefeefee...
fafafafafo.
Mmm... it's midnight and I want chocolate...
not any chocolate
but chocolate with almond in the middle..
damn why did my brother sell all his chocolate!? NOooo....
Feel like scanning stuff...
saw the picture of my grandma...
T_T... rest in peace....
I'm so bored.......................
Uh........ yea........
sleep... doctor... Richmond... badminton... back to Richmond..
that's my very excellent plan.
Ah.. I wonder how many people reads my blog..
if u read this and I duno that ur reading it..
please leave me a msg...
just so I know.....
it sucks to not know anything.
Stick people stick people...
they look so easy to make
but now I totally understand how hard it was to make that flash thing.
Feefeefee...
fafafafafo.
Mmm... it's midnight and I want chocolate...
not any chocolate
but chocolate with almond in the middle..
damn why did my brother sell all his chocolate!? NOooo....
Feel like scanning stuff...
saw the picture of my grandma...
T_T... rest in peace....
Badminton practice was really cool.. hehe
it was only supposed to be 30 minutes
but no one told us to leave so we stayed for 3 hours instead..
got some training from Jason... I think I improved on singles..
but why? Jenny and I are deproving in doubles!! NOooo....
gotta train singles @ skool training
and get doubles training @ VRC..
NOoo but we're doing mix. OH well...
Right arm hurts and left back is numb....
Screw those grade 9s.
especially that ROBERT kid...
he's gonna get his ass whooped really soon...
so fuckin cocky and dumb...
whole bunch of crazy grade 9 assholes and bitches.
On fire again!!!
reborn and reburn... OH! heheh
U see Jerry,
ur coach's gonna get pissed off real bad soon.. haha
Such a good day... heh
Slept in cuz I had blk A spare
Blk B we had a surprise quiz but I knew everything
Blk C Oyama told me I'm 0.5 marks away from perfect on the test
Very tasty lunch @ Oasis... Egg and Fried rice.. MMmm.....
Surprisingly I wasn't late for Blk. D... Hmmm
Blk D Got 85% on the practice test even though I didn't study
Afterschool 3 hours of badminton...
no one pissing me off today...
today's such a goooood day!! *smile*
I hate it when I try to argue a theory with my dad,
I always end up getting yelled at...
he's so unreasonable...
*sigh*.. dad's..
never understand that in their daughter/son's generation
we have different way of thinking and that
they are not always right.
it was only supposed to be 30 minutes
but no one told us to leave so we stayed for 3 hours instead..
got some training from Jason... I think I improved on singles..
but why? Jenny and I are deproving in doubles!! NOooo....
gotta train singles @ skool training
and get doubles training @ VRC..
NOoo but we're doing mix. OH well...
Right arm hurts and left back is numb....
Screw those grade 9s.
especially that ROBERT kid...
he's gonna get his ass whooped really soon...
so fuckin cocky and dumb...
whole bunch of crazy grade 9 assholes and bitches.
On fire again!!!
reborn and reburn... OH! heheh
U see Jerry,
ur coach's gonna get pissed off real bad soon.. haha
Such a good day... heh
Slept in cuz I had blk A spare
Blk B we had a surprise quiz but I knew everything
Blk C Oyama told me I'm 0.5 marks away from perfect on the test
Very tasty lunch @ Oasis... Egg and Fried rice.. MMmm.....
Surprisingly I wasn't late for Blk. D... Hmmm
Blk D Got 85% on the practice test even though I didn't study
Afterschool 3 hours of badminton...
no one pissing me off today...
today's such a goooood day!! *smile*
I hate it when I try to argue a theory with my dad,
I always end up getting yelled at...
he's so unreasonable...
*sigh*.. dad's..
never understand that in their daughter/son's generation
we have different way of thinking and that
they are not always right.
10.03.2001
there doesn't always has to be a reason behind things...
sometimes, things just happen.
still coughing..
still have running nose..
I wonder how long this is gonna last.
I have too many ideas
too many thoughts
too many plans
but I never get to do them
never get to be listened to.....
Extremely annoying people
no matter what they do
they turn out to be annoying anyhow.
Something's wrong..
something's very wrong
but I cannot tell what.....
sometimes, things just happen.
still coughing..
still have running nose..
I wonder how long this is gonna last.
I have too many ideas
too many thoughts
too many plans
but I never get to do them
never get to be listened to.....
Extremely annoying people
no matter what they do
they turn out to be annoying anyhow.
Something's wrong..
something's very wrong
but I cannot tell what.....
Lost so poorly to Hamber today...
Haven't gotten a 0-11 for long long time...
hai... this sucks.
I dun feel like playing doubles anymore...
get pissed off so easily when I play with someone who doesn't know how I think.
Damn cheap cheaters....
even though we would've lost anyway
we wouldn't be as mad..
FsH...... Cheater Hambers.
We had a chance to win if we changed the lineup...
If Shao and Tabitha played singles and mix
they have a chance of winning 3 games..
Hung and Kwok won one and they could've won the second...
that's 2 more...
Jenny and I play doubles at least we could've won the weaker pair...
that's one more...
which makes it 6 games to 5....
AiSH.... we screwed up in our lineup. Hamber.. grr...
Hamber, Churchill, PW and Magee made it into the playoffs last year
this year.... I hope we can win either Churchill, PW or Magee...
and get into the freakin playoff.............................
I don't see why Alex has to let Peter play
he sucks in doubles he's not good enough in singles...
he's like.. the odd player that's not good enough for anything.
Best boys lineup:
Singles: Jason pan
Doubles: Shao and sid/Jim, Hung and Kwok
Best girls lineup:
... there's no best lineup..
we're missing one good player to make a full good team...
If only Davita was here....
Analysis:
-> Phoebe and Lydia
They're too good... hahah
Jason and I played against them and we lost
we didn't work too well together though
but it was a fun game.
Me didn't work too well in the back..
still need training....
-> The other two girls
Jenny and I could've beaten them...
OH well. One of the girls played in Badminton BC though
I'm guessing she probably played singles
that's why she kinda suck at doubles.
Own team analysis:
-Tabitha has to work on her shots a lot
-Kitty has to work on accuracy of hitting the birdie and serving it in...
-Jenny Lam is pretty good all-round... she should work on strategies
-Me... I should work on my back hand and drop shots
-Jenny should work on her back hand and overhead shots
-Hung and Kwok should work on strategies and footworks
-Shao should work on singles
-Sid should work on being less cocky and arrogant
-Peter should work on his doubles skills
-Jim should work on doubles skills and accuracy
-Billy should get his ass kicked and slap himself 10 times in the face for being so cocky.
I'm reborn!
My spirits are revived...
haha yes.
From now on I will work harder and harder... on badminton.
j/k...
Haven't gotten a 0-11 for long long time...
hai... this sucks.
I dun feel like playing doubles anymore...
get pissed off so easily when I play with someone who doesn't know how I think.
Damn cheap cheaters....
even though we would've lost anyway
we wouldn't be as mad..
FsH...... Cheater Hambers.
We had a chance to win if we changed the lineup...
If Shao and Tabitha played singles and mix
they have a chance of winning 3 games..
Hung and Kwok won one and they could've won the second...
that's 2 more...
Jenny and I play doubles at least we could've won the weaker pair...
that's one more...
which makes it 6 games to 5....
AiSH.... we screwed up in our lineup. Hamber.. grr...
Hamber, Churchill, PW and Magee made it into the playoffs last year
this year.... I hope we can win either Churchill, PW or Magee...
and get into the freakin playoff.............................
I don't see why Alex has to let Peter play
he sucks in doubles he's not good enough in singles...
he's like.. the odd player that's not good enough for anything.
Best boys lineup:
Singles: Jason pan
Doubles: Shao and sid/Jim, Hung and Kwok
Best girls lineup:
... there's no best lineup..
we're missing one good player to make a full good team...
If only Davita was here....
Analysis:
-> Phoebe and Lydia
They're too good... hahah
Jason and I played against them and we lost
we didn't work too well together though
but it was a fun game.
Me didn't work too well in the back..
still need training....
-> The other two girls
Jenny and I could've beaten them...
OH well. One of the girls played in Badminton BC though
I'm guessing she probably played singles
that's why she kinda suck at doubles.
Own team analysis:
-Tabitha has to work on her shots a lot
-Kitty has to work on accuracy of hitting the birdie and serving it in...
-Jenny Lam is pretty good all-round... she should work on strategies
-Me... I should work on my back hand and drop shots
-Jenny should work on her back hand and overhead shots
-Hung and Kwok should work on strategies and footworks
-Shao should work on singles
-Sid should work on being less cocky and arrogant
-Peter should work on his doubles skills
-Jim should work on doubles skills and accuracy
-Billy should get his ass kicked and slap himself 10 times in the face for being so cocky.
I'm reborn!
My spirits are revived...
haha yes.
From now on I will work harder and harder... on badminton.
j/k...
10.02.2001
nonono,
truly,
I am a failure...
I was too sure it wasn't that high
but when I found out it was
I dropped down from far far above,
dead already before I could regret...
AhhhhhH I duno how to face my dad.
I never let him know about my tests but this one he just happened to know of
If I tell him the truth... I don't want to make him mad..
moreover... I dun want to disappoint him
If I tell him a lie.... I'll feel guilty for it and he'll find out if Letourneau sends an interm.
Fuck wat should I do!?
Can't pretend to haven't got the test back yet forever....
shit I'm so screwed.
It was a good decision that Jenny's playing singles...
I'm sick and strengthless and I'm better in playing doubles...
Kitty's better in the front so I guess I'm a better partner with her
looking at probabilities we'll probably lose the game tomorrow...
OH well. Experiences... we need more experiences.
Pheobe and Lydia... tough players...
hope they're not playing in the senior team
Jenny... ADD OIL we're all fully supporting you...
you can do it!!!!!!
My left shoulder is numb...
can't even feel pain.
"Don't let your emotions control you"
easy to say, hard to do.
Trying to think in the shower
with hot water pouring on my head and burning my skin.
Conclusion: Work hard, work harder, work even harder.
truly,
I am a failure...
I was too sure it wasn't that high
but when I found out it was
I dropped down from far far above,
dead already before I could regret...
AhhhhhH I duno how to face my dad.
I never let him know about my tests but this one he just happened to know of
If I tell him the truth... I don't want to make him mad..
moreover... I dun want to disappoint him
If I tell him a lie.... I'll feel guilty for it and he'll find out if Letourneau sends an interm.
Fuck wat should I do!?
Can't pretend to haven't got the test back yet forever....
shit I'm so screwed.
It was a good decision that Jenny's playing singles...
I'm sick and strengthless and I'm better in playing doubles...
Kitty's better in the front so I guess I'm a better partner with her
looking at probabilities we'll probably lose the game tomorrow...
OH well. Experiences... we need more experiences.
Pheobe and Lydia... tough players...
hope they're not playing in the senior team
Jenny... ADD OIL we're all fully supporting you...
you can do it!!!!!!
My left shoulder is numb...
can't even feel pain.
"Don't let your emotions control you"
easy to say, hard to do.
Trying to think in the shower
with hot water pouring on my head and burning my skin.
Conclusion: Work hard, work harder, work even harder.
The moon's so bright and round tonight!
Happy Mid-Autumn's Festival, people!
I can feel it...
my mom watching the same moon from the other side of the planet
and me watching it at night alone
even though there's time difference,
that moment it seemed like time stayed still
The same, bright moon, linking two people who are miles apart...
It's saddening to hear all the bad news from HK
Are humans prone to sufferings once we are born?
What is the point of living?
what we own, we leave behind after we die
What we learn, we bring with us to the ground...
Worthless wisdom...
I cannot see that we are much happier than the mentally disabled...
Making a flash with stick people playing badminton
is harder than it looks...
Have a feeling I'm gonna get a bad mark for my english assignment..
mine was so short... and poorly written...
AiSh screw it.. unconditional early admission.. screw it all...
what's meant for me is meant for me.....
wat's not is not no matter how hard I try...
Only Tomoki came to our sectional
good Tomoki... haha
let all those other ppl fail... psh....
It's normal it's normal it's normal it's normal...
If I keep saying that, it will be normal.
yes it will be.
Getting pissed off so much I'm starting to feel numb.
Worked on homework and study today afterskool w/ Rosemary @ Oasis..
chatted a bit... heh.... pretty irrelevant topics tho.
Thanks for accompanying me though heh...
There are 3 types:
1) This type of people doesn't annoy you but you kinda want him/her to
2) This type of people annoys you but you don't really mind
3) This type of people annoys you and you are getting really pissed off
4) There's really no one that's totally un-annoying is there?
Once someone crosses the line between 2) and 3)...
..................
recognizing the consequences for the way you act is very important
I think I'm starting to annoy Mr. Taylor. haha....
that reminds me..
Pin thinks this man in "Enemy at the Gates" looks like Mr. Taylor
I didn't think so but after observing him a bit during tonight's band practice
I find them pretty alike!!! heh....
When I couldn't call my dad and start seeing people leave after band
I panicked....
It's been a while since I panicked....
something you used to rely so much onto has suddenly disappeared or betrayed you
that feeling makes me panic...
I walked around and saw the round, bright moon on top of a tree
It calmed me... hah sounds so fake but it did...
the power of the moon....
This TV show..
a man goes around killing people for revenge for his mom
he is mentally illed...
by law he is a criminal...
but he is just someone who tried too hard to protect his mom...
Sad ending...
I hate seeing mentally illed people being punished for something they think they did right.
In their world what they did may seem right because his normal senses are gone
all he thinks and knows is right is his own set of distorted values...
But it wouldn't make sense if you blame it on people who caused his mental illness
Ah... it's the world.. blame it on our cruel, cruel world.
The chorus melody of 'Dad I'm home' in Jay's new CD is so good...
it's only one single line repeated 4 times
but it's so good....
Happy Mid-Autumn's Festival, people!
I can feel it...
my mom watching the same moon from the other side of the planet
and me watching it at night alone
even though there's time difference,
that moment it seemed like time stayed still
The same, bright moon, linking two people who are miles apart...
It's saddening to hear all the bad news from HK
Are humans prone to sufferings once we are born?
What is the point of living?
what we own, we leave behind after we die
What we learn, we bring with us to the ground...
Worthless wisdom...
I cannot see that we are much happier than the mentally disabled...
Making a flash with stick people playing badminton
is harder than it looks...
Have a feeling I'm gonna get a bad mark for my english assignment..
mine was so short... and poorly written...
AiSh screw it.. unconditional early admission.. screw it all...
what's meant for me is meant for me.....
wat's not is not no matter how hard I try...
Only Tomoki came to our sectional
good Tomoki... haha
let all those other ppl fail... psh....
It's normal it's normal it's normal it's normal...
If I keep saying that, it will be normal.
yes it will be.
Getting pissed off so much I'm starting to feel numb.
Worked on homework and study today afterskool w/ Rosemary @ Oasis..
chatted a bit... heh.... pretty irrelevant topics tho.
Thanks for accompanying me though heh...
There are 3 types:
1) This type of people doesn't annoy you but you kinda want him/her to
2) This type of people annoys you but you don't really mind
3) This type of people annoys you and you are getting really pissed off
4) There's really no one that's totally un-annoying is there?
Once someone crosses the line between 2) and 3)...
..................
recognizing the consequences for the way you act is very important
I think I'm starting to annoy Mr. Taylor. haha....
that reminds me..
Pin thinks this man in "Enemy at the Gates" looks like Mr. Taylor
I didn't think so but after observing him a bit during tonight's band practice
I find them pretty alike!!! heh....
When I couldn't call my dad and start seeing people leave after band
I panicked....
It's been a while since I panicked....
something you used to rely so much onto has suddenly disappeared or betrayed you
that feeling makes me panic...
I walked around and saw the round, bright moon on top of a tree
It calmed me... hah sounds so fake but it did...
the power of the moon....
This TV show..
a man goes around killing people for revenge for his mom
he is mentally illed...
by law he is a criminal...
but he is just someone who tried too hard to protect his mom...
Sad ending...
I hate seeing mentally illed people being punished for something they think they did right.
In their world what they did may seem right because his normal senses are gone
all he thinks and knows is right is his own set of distorted values...
But it wouldn't make sense if you blame it on people who caused his mental illness
Ah... it's the world.. blame it on our cruel, cruel world.
The chorus melody of 'Dad I'm home' in Jay's new CD is so good...
it's only one single line repeated 4 times
but it's so good....