"It was a big night
But it wasn't complete; it wasn't even close to the vicinity of being complete
Because I couldn't share it with you..."
"You complete me"
- Jerry Maguire

Amazing Grace...
sounds so good...
'Amazing grace how sweet the sound
that saved a wretch like me
I was once lost but now am found
was blind, but now, I see.'

I never show my dislike unless I know that person well...
so you'll never know wat I'm thinking until you know me well...

Wat the hell!?
She doesn't teach us a thing and she expects us to know...
I have no idea how to write a formal letter..
I asked her and she was like 'You can't expect help from me all the time...'
wat the *beep*.. she didn't even help me ONCE.....
wat does she mean ALL THE TIME!? Psh.......
Maybe she's an easy marker but maybe I should've taken Mr. Lloyd's class afterall...
AisH... too late to say anything anymore...

Listening to this old song
and getting so emotional again...

PS has cool commercials...
hahah I like that biking one

I promise I won't get influenced by people so easily ever again.
I'll try........ hehe

Haha I just remembered...
funny name... Anil...
even worse... Anal or anus.. hehehe

Pin on the left me on the right and Jenny in the middle:
' *Breathe* ichi ni san shi 櫻花落滿地 有一種神秘 凝結了空氣
ichi ni san shi 黑夜裡偷襲 去攻擊 煙霧當武器
ichi ni san shi 忍者的物語 要切斷過去 忠心是唯一
ichi ni san shi 隱身要徹底 要忘記 什麼是自己"
Jenny: NOooooooooooooooooooooooo

Badminton was okay...
doubles and mixed..
Jenny we're losing the touch!! ><...
maybe it's cuz I'm sick.. yes.. hehe
Mixed game... Magee + PG vs PW + her dad...
haha that was a good game.. so close.. 15-13...
Half court singles with Tina..GOD her drops are good....
but if u keep lifting it to her backhand.. yes that's the way to beat her
Pin improved a lot... really quick on his reflex.. just like Jenny. hehe
Jerry smashes are better than Victor smashes..
I think Jerry's a better player.
Yah.. rented court for next week cuz they have no more for this week..
Noooo I'm going broke...

Lunch @ Oakridge was pretty good...
Teriyaki Experience... SUCKS... always overcook the meat...
Cheese pretzel mixed with Cinnamon sugar....
it wasn't good anymore after I brought it home.

Slept the afternoon off...
wasting time again *sigh*
not good... still have my english letter to write
and my info tech proposal to do....
Math lesson to make up
physics quiz to study...
NOoooo can't wait till next friday.

I wanna watch ZOOLANDERS....
I wanna watch SHAOLIN SOCCER....
I wanna watch PARPARASAKURA...
I wanna watch so many movies but I got no time for any... ><...

Watching Jerry Macguire...
SHOW ME THE MONEY!!!!!

I'm losing my voice.....
by monday I won't be able to speak

Cup noodle lunch,
Satay hotpot and DQ sundae was good..
Mmm...
but they didn't help my coughing at all...heh

Security!! That's all it takes.

The Rochai cold routine:
1) Sore throat
2) Running nose
3) Coughing
4) Fever
I hope the fourth stage is optional....

Stood in the wind for 2 hours during the car wash
that's not good for my cold...
I was too concentrated in getting people's attention I didn't even have time to think
That was cool... my last car wash ever.

Pissed off again...
is it just me!?
Yah well, I think it is...
so easily pissed off at someone.
And especially that someone.

I thought about calling people up to get a drink after the carwash...
But I thought I only have 45 minutes
and people might not be home yet...
Nah... why bother.

Badminton was okay
I don't like mix doubles....
especially when I don't have a good partner...
I don't like standing in the front defending...
this sucks.
I'll be the guy when I play mix when Calvin's not around. heh

Tournaments coming up again...
I hope I'll win a consolation prize in the B tournaments
I hope I can win one game in the VRC tournament...
I dun even know which one I'm joining..
so expensive man.......

TOMOKO, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

HEY! Why is everyone not replying me on ICQ?
*sob sob* maybe it's cuz I have the *virus* heh

Hot pot was good... Mmmm... Tempura....
Saturday Night Live:
"I don't think your ready for this challenge
I don't think you ready for this challenge..." (opera version)
hah that was funny....
Death By Chocolate...
everything looks yummy but I'm too full to eat chocolate cake...
DQ...
Chocolate Sundae... mmMmm ........
"Enemy at the Gates"
... Jude Law so handsome!!!!!!!
Sascha got hanged... so cruel!
Why do that to a kid man......

I wore a necklace and people say I looked like Tracy
I wore a shirt and people say I'm "Anna-feel"
I wore a pink jacket and people mistaken me as Mel...
why!? I don't want to live in the shadow of other people's clothes....
Can't I have my own style when I wear my clothes!?

Pin's turtle was cute..
hehe kept running away and scratching Pin with his claws

IIHSA VHET2AWORVIPTEEFS TRUTFEFHIANECKO DIEFSNNEOCWE.O.L.PTIHYINSIIGSNS OISMTMUEP I.DA!.! D.ABMINASDTCUIPKIODUPTEPO.P L.EA...G.GAEITNA LIFE...
a series of thoughts hidden in a series of characters...

Why stop freakin sending me the forward letter..
the ALT8 DOESN'T WORK u ...........
Wat's in the container was BLOOD!
U go think about that urself.

I suddenly feel accepted.
It feels good. *smile*

I wonder why I am here now...
I'm starring at the screen updating something people wouldn't even bother to read
waiting for people to come online
watching people on my list who doesn't even talk to me go offline
feeling nothing...
not lonely, not sad,
but nothingness....

It's midnight
I'm bored
I'm coughing
I'm having hiccups
I'm feeling a headache
this is not good.....

something about me
I think I don't trust people easily anymore
I think it takes a long time before someone can totally gain my trust
it seems like till now... still.. no one is 100% worth my trust
I build this barrier before people even try to approach me
but that's just how I am...
insecure and stingy...
that's how I am.

AI...
stop copying me......
ah..... I've said it so many times already...
shit..

I hate fake people
who pretends to be good friends with everyone
but talks behind their backs...
just want to kick all of their damn asses....
why r we putting up with this?
why r we!?!?

I feel like I'm drinking blood everytime after I cough
Ow this is really hurting my throat...

Ohhh i love 王傑's voice...
sooooo sexy!!!!

stupid games...
stupid brother...
got pissed off cuz he couldn't play his new game
that pissed my dad off
and now I'm pissed off cuz my dad's in a bad mood.
Shit... I'm fixing everything for them...
my dad still thinks he's better at comp stuff than me
well..... watever. Screw it......

I hate people 'fu-hin'-ning me...
they don't even try......
fine...... psh......
don't come looking for me when u need me

Dun like sweetlips

快使用雙截棍 HEHEHAHEE
快使用雙截棍 HEHEHAHEE
習武之人切記 仁者無敵
是誰在練太極 風生水起
如果我有輕功 飛簷走壁
為人耿直不屈 一身正氣
-Jay - 雙截棍
hehe... cool song...

Scary blk B...
Forgot it was friday and I went to school 15 minutes late
thought it was jap so I took all my stuff but saw my friends in the other classroom
then I rememebred I have math in blk B with Letourneau.... ><...
Went back to my locker to get my math stuff... but her room was closed...
didn't dare knock on the door so I went back where my friends were and asked them wat to do
in the end I decided to skip Math and give her a note saying I was sick...
I AM sick... feel so guilty cuz she was so nice to me when I gave her the note too...
*sigh*... my second time skipping... since the first time I skipped in grade 8....
hai....罪惡感﹗﹗﹗ It's overtaking me....

Yes I'm taking band...
I'm going to morning band on fridays...
exxcellent..!!!

Normally..
I have sore throat for a week
running nose for a week
coughing for a week
then fever for a week...
in 5 days I have gone through sore the first three stages already...
will I get a fever soon!? sucks.... fever on a weekend...

All we planned for....
it's not turning out right..
party cancelled...
didn't buy any present...
didn't do anything afterwards...
kinda pointless that we went out...
AiSh....

Badminton was okay...
cold still affecting me..
can't concentrate properly and keep hitting the rim...
still I won two easy games with Phyllis...
Learnt a lot of mix strategies and a bit of doubles...
okay day.. kept coughing......

Photo Day
It wasn't too bad
The camera lady was nice
she fixed my hair for me
(or maybe that was because the vice was right beside us but.. watever)
I hope my pictures will look nice this year...
my last year.... HAS to look good!!

Chem was good...
me got 9.5 on the quiz..
exxxcellent... negative answer was RIGHT then...
HOhohho...........

Walked all the way to Starbucks and there was no place to sit
so we walked to Hobbs and went shopping there... ah.. they have nice coats...
then we walked all the way to Oasis and halfway there I realized I have no money
so we walked back to TD bank and I got money
so we walked all the way back to Oasis again but found no seats there either...
so we walked all the way over to Cute Pearl...
luckily... we finally found the right place....
wat a jouney.

30's the magic number.

Nasty joke but I feel like putting it here:
"An old lady walked into a Grocery Store.
She wanted to buy the best dog food in the world for her little puppy.
She went up to the cash register to buy the food.
The sales-lady told her that the store did not allow old ladies to buy
animal food unless they show the actual animal because
a lot of old ladies like to eat the animal food themselves.
So the old lady went home, got her dog and went back to the store to buy her dog food.
The next day she came back to buy the best cat food around But the Saleslady
told her the same thing, so the old lady went back home and brought her cat
to the Grocery Store to buy the cat food.
The next day the old lady went to the Grocery Store again carrying a big
container. She went up to the sales lady and said, "Put your hand inside here".
The Saleslady shook her head. "NO", she said, "there is probably something in
there that will bite me!" "I promise you that there is nothing in here that will bite you". the old lady
said. So the Saleslady stuck her hand inside the container and screamed. "
what is inside the container?

It's friday night and I'm staring at the computer screen
updating my blog writing stupid nasty jokes
trying to get people to talk to me about interesting stuff
but... it's a friday night!!!!! Why is my friday night so dull??

Interesting results I got from this zodiac page
actually I think it's pretty true.. hmmm
"dislikes vulgarity, "scenes" and people who shout or are emotional, sentimental or irrational.
She likes to weigh all the pros and cons and to bounce new ideas off friends that she trusts.
She tends to act once she has she seen the overall picture and believes in the logic of the situation.
she has a hard time dealing with criticism and cannot stand being ignored.
Her love emotions are strong and passionate, but also secretive.
She has no time for superficial people who blather on about nothing.
She also has no tolerance for those who try to control or manipulate her emotionally."
these parts are kinda true...
hehe this is scary.

Take or drop band!?
Take or drop?
Take or drop?
If the morning bands aren't on wednesday game days
I wouldn't be reconsidering this again...

Calculus test
I'm half sure and half not
They just explained to me everything during lunch
and in the next 10 minutes I already forgot half of it.
Probably because of the cold...
why do I have to be sick this week!?!?
Physics quiz went pretty well tho....

Should I apply to Langara!?
should I!?
that would be like wasting $40...
nah I'll wait.

I hate working with someone who's sad...
doesn't try at all which makes me sad....

Practice was okay
kept playing games...
got so freakin tired..
practice right after skool's not such a great idea...
I'm so exhausted...drained of energy...
imagine morning band + school + games right afterschool...
that's gonna kill me...

Won singles against Kwok and Jim
Jason is too good man....
but I want to play more with him...
to get more practice...
Play him someday when I have more energy

Pretzel was good...
Cheese pretzel... MMmm
That guy's Amilia's brother!?
WhoA then he must be at least 30!
He looks like he's 20!
Wat the hell.....
it's alrite he's nice. Haha worker's discount....

Jenny drove me home..
haha that was fun....
Jenny running over cute cars
me running over ugly people. hehe
and seeing the floor move when I opened the door..
that was pretty scary. hehehehe.....

Somehow I keep thinking my raffle tickets are all sold
but they are not...
aISh...

There are too many things I have to do...
but I keep forgetting what they are...
and sometimes I even forget their existence..
if I write it down I forget where I wrote it...
what can I do!?
God please give me a better brain...

Too many things to do...
odd I drop
even I take
Why it's 11:38.
even...... WHY!? Is it fate?
WHY!?
I'm just looking for an excuse to drop band
so I won't feel guilty for betraying my trombone..
why is that so hard???????????

Nose still stuck...
the hot method works only for like 1 minute...
got tired of studying and stuck in this calculus problem...
I'm so mad that I was sleepy that day...
I just managed to copy down the notes but I didn't hear anything
my notes looks like crap and I can't read wat I wrote...
it's all because of stupid morning band! DAmn it..........
One more day to decide.. should I drop band?

Game vs Crofton/St. George
We lost 4-7
it wasn't that bad though
considering we were missing one better player
and the level of the St. George guys...
Kwok and Hung even won one set that's pretty good...
Sid and Peter.. *sigh* shouldn't let Peter play doubles that's wat I say
he's totally not a doubles player.... Sid gets cocky and pissed off when they lose...
they have to work on doubles a lot more...
Grace... I dun even know why the coach let her play instead of Carmen
maybe she thinks that it's an exhibition game
and it's the only game that Grace will play in... maybe....
Crofton girls are not good..... St. George guys are good....
Playing Hamber next week... pretty tough skool...
wish us luck

calculus is killing me...
math test unbelievably weird today
and that killed all my confidence for the calc test
confidence~ confidence~ where did you go???

this is my face now.. T_T...
calc.......... physics.......

Had a 'ham sub' today...
hahaha sounds so bad...
ham sub....... chee
would get laughed at if u name some food like that in HK.
anyway.. it tasted like crap...
not because it tastes bad..
but beacuse of my stupid stuck nose... *sigh*

STUPID firewalls...
stupid game....
STUPID BROTHER....
ai...... screws up everything and cause inconvenience....
SO STUPID.

brain not working..
shoulders aching...
flu worsening...
sprained muscle...
wrist suddenly ached like hell...
math test and chem quiz tomo
then game afterskool...
how worse can it get?

Running nose got worse today
my soup tastes like a creamy liquid with a bit of sweetness
but it's supposed to taste like Clam Chowder...
my food tastes like sweet chicken with tasteless rice...
but it's supposed to be curry chicken with rice...
Nooooooo having a stuck nose SUCKS.

Today I actually found that I enjoyed coaching
I enjoy playing... but coaching is fun too
it feels so accomplishing when you can
turn a player with totally no skills to one who can at least do some basic stuff.
My third dream...
is to be a badminton coach if I can't be a badminton player or invent the dream recorder.

My body aches
probably from the cold I got
I sprained my knee muscle
wat the hell... such a bad day
but I can't feel anything now...
so dumb after I caught the cold...
can't even think of a better vocab to replace 'dumb'.... aiSh

Skipping morning band tomorrow...
so I won't fall asleep during Math test and chem test
and so I will have energy for the game...
Have I ever asked for a note?
No....
have I ever skipped a lot of classes?
No....
Only for once I ask u for a note
and even tho you gave it to me you were reluctant
I could see that...
I could've just faked a headache the next morning
but I didn't....
Am I that not trust-worthy!?

Same shoes!! Ahhhhhhh NOooooooo
3 ppl...
sucks!

First game tomorrow vs Crofton/St. George...
can't lose!!!!!

While I was walking home today
two crows were pecking the ground beside the sidewalks
I would've got so scared and went to the other side of the road usually
but today I just walked by...
I kinda feel that they're not as evil now...
while I'm scared of them, they're scared of me too.

something I learnt from math:
assumptions aren't always right...

still couldn't let go of band..
Ai... 算了
I think I cannot escape from the evilness of band...
hahaha....

Had a talk with Christine again...
thanks so much for listening to me Christine...
haha I talked a hell lot about badminton
which I'm pretty sure she isn't that interested in
but she waited till I finished...
really.. thankyou

Time can change so many things...
and now I can be pretty sure that
yes, EVERYTHING changes...
there are no exceptions to this rule of life...

Wat's the point of this?
Shit man...
Just say wat ur thinking and I'll deal with it...
I hate this pointless conflict that's going on while we pretend to not know it.

elulsive
- (adj) difficult to define or describe
kudo
- (n) a praising remark
'how 'bout that ever elusive kudo'

masochistic
- (n) a willingness or tendency to subject oneself to unpleasant or trying experiences
divinity
- (n) the state of being extremely pleasant; delightful
'how' bout no longer being masochitic
how 'bout remembering your divinity'

terror
- (n) intense, overpowering fear
disillusionment
- (n) the feel to free from illusion or false belief
frailty
- (n) moral weakness
consequence
- (n) the relation of a result to its cause
silence
- (n) the absense of sound
nothingness
- (n) nonexistence
clarity
- (n) clearness of thought
thank you all those...
full lyrics

Ow my body hurts
the pain is all over my body...
i wonder if this is from the cold...
damn it man...

Can't stop sneezing...
running nose...
sore throat...
ah... what makes this worse..
are tests this week
and game this wednesday...

Once u start spending
You won't be able to stop.
A theory I learnt from my running nose:
I started using tissues unconsiderately
and I realized once I started using lots of tissues
I would wanna use more and more.
Is that a valid theory?
what do u think!?

I wuz gonna go make another blog,
and not let anyone know about that.
but then i thought of wat Kath said
'Don't be afraid to show yourself'
yea....... I shouldn't right?
there are always differences in the way people think
that you can't always assume what you think is right.
I think I'm trying to learn to deal with that
and maybe you should, too.

Kath, I think you are perfectly in shape and healthy..
haha keep up with those situps and pushups!!
I'll be supporting u... heheh

Never stop dreaming...
I never thought my dream was gonna come true...
but it has...
if you stop dreaming,
that's equal to giving up the chances of accomplishing your dream...
If you stop, you'll never get it
if you don't...
and wat do you know?
There are always surprises and miracles.

Just like I've said
I'm mean, I'm selfish
and I'm too tired of explaining...
so screw it...

Finally got my old list back
using my old computer...
somehow I miss the short small list I had in my new computer...
A small group of close friends
is always better than a large group of friends who are not close.
Maybe I need a list cleanup
but then I think, the long list might come in handy...
so I decided to use my new computer more
and use the old one when I need it. ^^

One of the worst feelings...
is to see your memory slowly fade away...
I saw the words in my head
I tried to catch on to them but they drifted further and further away
in the end I struggled to pick up the remaining pieces
but find that nothing is left...

I accidentally clicked something
and had to type this all over again..
this sucks...
this is another one of the worst feelings..
is to know that you typed something good
but erased it by accident
and cannot come up with it again anymore.

Lemme type more about badminton..
I kinda stopped cuz I got mad at my brother.

Badminton was pretty good today...
even though I had a sore throat I played pretty well...
Pin improved a lot I can see.... he can return Jim's smashes now...
Doubles was cool...
And that mix doubles game... PG vs Magee
and we won!
PG PRIDE! haha uh.....
shit.... no one in PG gives a damn for badminton anyway.. screw them.

Dinner would've been very fun today
IT WOULD'VE if my damn brother didn't screw everything up.
He wanted to stay home to play his damn diablo game....
......................
so frustrated... he thinks I'm mad cuz I missed the fun @ Cactus...
but NO....... I'm mad cuz of HIM.... fuckin selfish person......

Called my mom today
hehe I would've made her late for work
but no I'm a nice daughter and I hung up after 2 minutes. ><...

Gotta do some studying tonight...
badminton study. haha
.... right..........
Ah! I AM a freak!

Nothing lasts forever...

I finally know wat blog stands for
--- WEBLOG.
Hah how could I not have guessed...
Weblog eblog wblog blog ...

Sore throat...
Chlorine burnt my throat last night
that's probably why I have a sore throat today...
sucks.

Badminton was fun.

My brother.... @#(*&(@*&#(*&@#
so frustrating.........................
I could've went out for dinner with my friends tonight
but I didn't cuz I thought we would go out for dinner with my family
but NO..... he had to screw things up...
shit......... so fuckin pissed off now.

New shoes hurts my toe....
it's alrite I'll get used to it.

My only concern
is it that serious?
If it drops out in the middle
I don't know wat I'll do...

This is really too good to be true!!
What I've been hoping and waiting for...
in 3 years... 3 years of fitness and other training
we might make it to the provincials!?
This is too good to be true!

New grip is the thinnest grip they ever made...
it's so tacky... a bit too sticky I think...
but it's alrite. I'll get used to it
and make the best use of it. hehe

New court shoes...
they say that's the most comfortable shoes
But why does my feet has to have an arch!?
hah oh well.. I'll get used to it too.

Badminton training was pretty fun
did a lot of doubles
I really suck in aiming
and my reflex is slow...
that's why Jenny will be good in the front
and I'll be good in the back... setting her up for a smash up front.
yes.. we'll have to work on that.
Lost to David and Bosco...
I think they have better skills especially David
Bosco smashes pretty hard
And we didn't do well that game..
kept hitting the rim..
and one big problem for us:
we make too many unforced errors...

This is really too good to be true!!!
Heh.... so excited.
More tournaments, training, and stuff..
it's like a dream come true...

Jenny, this year we have to win something at the B Tournament
AT LEASt get like.. 3rd consolation prize... hahah
><.... maybe it's tougher than it sounds like though.
And mix too, Shao. haha... win something.... get a rank...
Swimming @ UBC was fun...
ah... feel so tired now after not swimming for a while
Arms and legs hurt a bit...
hope I can be okay tomorrow for badminton...
Mmm... M & M's.. I want more....

THIS IS TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE!
THIS IS TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE!
THIS IS TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE!
THIS IS TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE!
THIS IS TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE!
THIS IS TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE!
THIS IS TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE!
THIS IS TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE!
THIS IS TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE!
THIS IS TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE!
THIS IS TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE!
THIS IS TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE!
THIS IS TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE!
THIS IS TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE!
THIS IS TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE!
THIS IS TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE!

New grip, new court shoes....
exxcellent day...

I saw the 無奈 in our vice-principle's face
It kinda made me feel guilty for hating him
He is not as evil as we think.....
But our principle... definitely.... evil.

Class sucks without you two...
no one laughs with me about stupid jokes
no one makes stupid jokes with me
no one makes fun of the teacher with me anymore...
one doesn't care
and one laughs when it's not funny, doesn't when it is.
...........><...........
this sucks. THIS SUCKS LIKE SHIT
Like wat Kath and I agreed on,
'EVERYTHING HURTS LIKE HELL AND SUCKS LIKE SHIT.'

Friday night hangouts are still fun
except I think I'm goin crazy soon
it doesn't feel as free anymore...
keep thinking 'do I have any hw or any tests!?'

'Blow Dry'
pretty good movie
I love the part when the woman did the Night Hair for the old lady
it was beautiful...
'I don't even know if I have a tomorrow or not...'
so sad but true...
I wonder if I'll think that way when I'm 80
IF I live till 80, that is.
Josh and Rachel didn't appear much
the storyline was pretty good
the hairstyles were astonishing...
the ending was kinda sad..
the mayor was singing his heart out but no one was there to listen...
no one was there to cheer... no one was there...

If I don't laugh
that doesn't mean I'm not happy
If I laugh
that doesn't mean I'm happy.
It's just this ironic... double personality thing
yea it's midnight and I'm not making sense.

Jenny = sidewalk rage girl
BEWARE....
she might have already laid her curse on you....
Un-uncursable curse. haha

It's funny how Friday went through so slowly
I feel that all I did today was do the video thing.
Totally forgot about school, badminton, and stuff we did b4 badminton.
It's good to let my mind rest a bit.

Badminton was cool
can't believe we lost to Phyllis and Gladis...
doubles is cool
that game we did in the end was cool
actually badminton was pretty fun...
but I really have not much to say about it today...

A trip to the old bookstore
they had books from 100-200 years ago
and their store is like a maze...
maybe I should go there more often.

Finally got the pretzel I wanted
but... it's not as fulfilling as I wanted it to be.

stop copyin off me you freakin freak... Argh.
Is it mine!? You ask yourself one more time, was that mine!?
HELL YEA!

It's weird that I have totally no interests in shopping with I'm with friends
I just watch them shop...
and do nothing.
Toko... it's alrite I enjoy shopping with u guys. heh

I kinda enjoyed the moments before Jenny came
when we were sitting in the basement talking
that was fun and cozy...
and that's just how I want it to be, you know...
sitting around.. talk for a bit... joke for a bit... and get cozy...
doesn't always HAVE to do something.
Just being with friends is fun.

And I think I know wat the problem with her is..
it's that I never got these moments with her.
She's always so.. accomplishing...

By the way, Toko if you're reading this..
haha that thing we both agreed on outside Blockbuster..
hehe that was funny....
see we both have good taste. (uh.. right.. haha)

Feel guilty for leaving my dad alone in the house for 2 hours
I thought my brother was gonna be back by 9 but he wasn't...
ah.... should spend more time with my family
treasure's the word... I should treasure the family I have now....

Maybe I shouldn't have let people know about this blog at all
cuz now I have to be careful not to mention names
just in case they read my blog someday...
and this is really giving me a headache...
AiSH....................

Forgot to plan Tomoko's b-day thing
forgot to ask for the tape we really wanted
forgot to get snacks from 7-11
Toko's line 'Welcome to the World of Forgetting!'

"穿梭時間的畫面的鐘 從反方向 開始移動
回到當初愛你的時空 停格內容 不忠
所有回憶對著我進攻 我的傷口 被你拆封
誓言太沉重淚被縱容 臉上洶湧 失控"
-反方向的鐘 - 周杰倫
This song's so good....

Shit... I sprained my toe...

Thinking too much about our badminton lineup
it's not something we can decide
it's useless to think about it
but sometimes.. I just can't help it.

When I see problems
I try to see things in 3rd person's view
I try to not let my emotions get involved
I try so hard to make the right decision
but then I realized I'm not always right.
Even if I see things in 3rd person's view
even if I don't involve my own emotions
I still make wrong decisions...

I tried to reach in but
for that hour it seemed impossible
maybe it's just me.

Once again
while I'm accompanying you
you're accompanying me as well...

I didn't feel lonely when I was alone...
That's a good step forward

6333 people died in the WTT attack...
Rest In Peace, people...
and Bless us too, up there.

Badminton was okay
I just realized both my sneakers had holes
I need new shoes!
New sneakers and new court shoes...
need either yellow birdies... or a painted gym
any color but white and yellow....
it's so blinding...

Left shoulder pain...
If it's from badminton
shouldn't it be right shoulder!?

My birthday coming in one month...
turning 17... ><... so old...
if I get to live till 85...
I've already gone through 1/5 of my life
time is passing way too fast...
the last 1/5 of my life I will probably spend sitting in a rocking chair doing nothing
the second 1/5 of my life I will probably be working like crazy trying to earn $
the third 1/5 of my life I will proabably be too busy taking care of my kids
the fourth 1/5 of my life is the time when I will retire... and enjoy my life...

I did it...
I added another page to my homepage
but that took me like 2 minutes
I just cut and paste the lyrics
but I like both the song and the lyrics.
Click on the link on the bottom to download the song.

I almost forgot to update my blog today
am I falling behind on everything now?
from slacking too much,
I think I'm feeling the consequences....

孤軍作戰
My own self-consciousness is hitting me
does it matter that I suck?
Yes it does.

I feel like I'm being used as a backup again
why?
I don't even get mad anymore
all I can feel is sadness.

I was dozing off in Calculus
I totally understand how people can fall asleep in class
it's not that the class is boring
it's because of the lack of sleep....
Morning band...... Aish..... want to drop it
but then my thoughts keep quavering...

I didn't want to do it
Yes I didn't want to.
She doesn't care at all
doesn't do any work but want good results
that's not possible.

CD-Writer not working anymore...
ArgH...........................

"WARNING: Some experts believe that the use of any keyboard may cause serious injury. Consult statement on the back of this keyboard."
Haha that's the stupidest warning I've ever seen.

Frank suggested I add a
'HE' and 'SHE' page to my homepage.
Interesting idea.
I might actually do that.

My hair all tangled together when I tried to wash it
the more I try to untangle it,
the worse tangled it got.
Ai I just wanted to untangle my hair....
but unsuccessful, I'm all messed up.

Is it worth it to drop band just because I hate morning band?
Plus I don't like other trombone players
plus I don't have time to practice or do sectionals...
and then I ask myself
'what will you do to your trombone who has been with you through all these years of suffering?'
and I go
'............................................. >< !!!'
I'm so tired of band.

To find someone with the right feel
that sounds so easy but is in fact so hard.
Because no one out there knows how you feel
it takes a lot of courage
takes a lot of tries
before we can really find someone who's right.
Yea... haha and since I have no courage
it'll take me triple the time to find my right person...

Had the urge to update my homepage
WHA? Is that what homepages tempts me into doing?
Then wat did I make an unupdatable homepage for?
Hah....

Noone takes badminton seriously...
damn people who doesn't respect badminton...
OPEN GYM bball taking 30 min of our training time!?
Wat the fuck!?
It's only OPEN GYM DAmnit.... we have TRAINING...
Mr. T :" 2 hours? Do you need 2 hours?"
I was like... YEA u asshole.... we're a SCHOOL TEAM....
so fucking screwed...
People started playing volleyball and basketball in the gym...
everyone wants to win but no one wants training...
Grace has no skills at all
People are all outta shape and unready for games
To be honest, our girls' team SUCKS LIKE SHIT

Got Eason and Jay's CD that mom got me yesterday
Jay is soooo good!!!!
Eason's not bad... hehe

Stomach attacks...
getting stomach attacks for no reason
This morning those 5 minutes was like hell
I had a mooncake and I felt like puking...
have to bring medicine all the time again... *sigh*

Water spilling in chemistry was fun
felt so accomplishing that we did the whole lab wrong
and redid it, but still had time to finish all the questions
PLUS drawing the graph... and finishing the whole lab in class.
Haha that's wat u call SPEED man.. hahaha....

Kath... I'm glad that your alright now
we don't need guys!
GIRL POWER MAN! hehehe
uh.. yes...
Just remember ur not alone....

Kwok beat Hung
and Jim beat Kwok!?
Hahaha so weird.

Left stomach pain
'Could it be your liver?'
someone said...
could it!?
What's wrong with my liver?
NOoo.... getting pains everywhere...

There's always something to say
because my mind can never stop thinking.

Did you notice they removed the bball frame in the carpark across from the church!?
Did you notice the sign 'Beware of dogs' outside the house but there never seem to be any dogs?
Did you notice the fallen leaves on the ground are yellow, and make a crunchy sound when you step on it?
Did you notice?

I start thinking too much again walking home alone.
I start noticing things I usually don't.
I let my imagination run wild, too wild, sometimes
I scare myself...

Saw so many mysterious things today
Saw a weak looking man unloading somethings from a van
-I start thinking
'Hey this is the annoying van that always gets complain for parking there!
Hey so this is the owner of that annoying van!
Aw I feel so sorry for him. Wait, maybe he's evil inside with innocent appearance
What does he have in that trunk of his car?
Maybe he's planning on another murder...
shit... am I the only one around here?'
Yes.... my imagination does goes a little bit over the line sometimes.

A gray dog-like creature
with pointy ears and really skinny body
Does that sound like a coyote to you?
Freaky..

Getting emotionally weaker and weaker
Just a little blow can break me into pieces.

It's so hard to not care
so hard to not mind...
but also so hard to let others know
that you DO mind.

We're stepping into Winter soon
the weather is getting colder,
days getting shorter
and nights getting longer,
people's moods are getting less cheerful
and many are becoming lazy.
Why can't Summer stay?

Ankle pain
I need new shoes
but then again,
I'm afraid I'd lose the feel of balance
that I have tried so hard to maintain.

Reading the prophecies of the century
"In the year of the new century and nine months.
From the sky will burn at 45 degrees
Fire approaches the great new city.
In the city of god there will be great thunder.
Two brothers torn apart by chaos while the fortress endures.
The great leader will succumb,
the third big war will begin when the city is burning."
This is so freaky...
But I don't believe in prophecies
I believe in what we are now.
No one can tell the future
because the future is in our hands.

In different moods using different computers
is it things that change my mood,
not my own feelings!?

I don't feel like I belong anywhere.
Maybe I belong to my life in HK.
But no, after 4 years in Canada,
I now truely don't belong anywhere.
I'm still floating around...
like what I had in my info long long time ago
~感覺飄浮~ Feel da flo.

Shit...
seeing the ???? above
I realized I can't type chinese with Netscape 6
this sucks. Waiting for my old comp's return.

~ encouragement

so encouraged in badminton
but again,
my thoughts kept revolving back and forth about that matter...
doubles?

Calvin said "Your school's gonna win then!"
I wonder how many kids he's said that to....
sooner or later, everyone's gonna win
He went to Kits...
haha if he goes back and give them lessons
we're dead... heh

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Game with Phyllis and small kid: 17-14
It was so close
they must have felt unfair
Jenny was so sure she didn't touch the birdie,
and I was so sure we had 14 though. *sigh* kids...

Game with Bosco and David: 10-15
It was a close game
I was expecting we would lose...
but I think we could've won
if we didn't force ourself to not hit the birdie up.
I need to work on my drop shots
Jenny has to work on her backhand
Yea...
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Right shoulder ache...
It feels like a toothache
except it's on my shoulder...
Ow... where's mommy? i need massaging.... ><

It's about time to wake up

Reviewing my sticker photos
haha I feel young again
Every sticker bring memories that were already buried
I looked so weird in grade 8 and 9... heh
it's alright...
I've grown to learn....
~To Dai K:
miss you so much after seeing our sticker pictures!
esp. the 24 non-stop pictures...
ai.. when will you be back to have fun with me again?
~To Stephanie,
haha you know what I'm gonna say...
I was viewing the 24 non-stop pictures we took...
I promised you I'd give you half after I sort it...
but how can I cut 24 continuous pictures into half!?
that ruins the whole meaning... heh
I can totally remember what we were doing while the machine was taking pictures non-stop
heh we didn't know and kept laughing and did all sorts of weird things..
hahah ai..... how I wish you were here........

Got a new computer today!
LCD mon, new scanner, new speakers with a woofer, new everything
hehe I'm already numb about getting new computers
It's like I'm skipping from a materialistic world to a realistic world...
or more like from a kid's mind to a more mature mind...
not getting excited about getting new stuff anymore.

Finally got around to recording the MD
It's depressing how a young talented musician can die at such a young age
but in a way.. he asked for it....
he died from drug overdose...

important people in our lives come and go...
wat matters is that they HAVE been in our lives
sometime, somewhere, somehow, they changed us...
they shape who we are right now.

glad to see the return of a good friend

If you HAVE to know who my bestfriend is...
I'd say 1) Myself 2) My Racket
Iso 150 Long... I can get a 250
but again... I'll miss my old racket if I get a new one.
emotions are so annoying sometimes.

*What a painful day...*

being the only trombone in morning band wasn't that bad
we only played for like 5 minutes warm up
and the rest was just listening to Mr. Taylor talk.
What I want is 5% attendance and +10% on theory and +5% on playing tests.
I couldn't think of a good reason to do that so I didn't tell him.
Does everything require a reason?
Life is so harsh this way...

I hate it when people do that
shit..........
knowing nothing but saying things like they know everything....
that pisses me off so fucking much.

It's so easy to let anger overtake my tiredness...

Passed math class in pain...
should've taken the medicine in blk A
I hope ppl didn't think I'm weird when I was squirming around in pain
didn't get to take medicine till the end of the class...
still in fear of Letourneau's scariness....
horrible memories from last year.....

I ordered Ovaltine
but what I got tasted, looked and smelt like Horlick
two very similar yet different drinks
Was wat I drank Ovaltine or Horlick!?
You see if there has always only been one of the same kind
I wouldn't have to be so confused right now.
If there's always only one choice for our lives
I wouldn't have to be so confused all my life...

I write things on my 'to-do' list so I won't forget
but because I forgot I had a 'to-do' list,
I threw it in the washing machine
and still cannot remember wat I was supposed to do.
Life sucks doesn't it?

I cannot get back to how we were before summer
cannot sense what you think as well
cannot be as good as we were anymore...
Rather than blaming it on you
I'd say I changed.

OH my god
I get so mad just hearing things about this
What the hell........
CHEATER........
Ahhhhhhhhhhhh
have to tell the coach about this.......
that girl SUCKS..........
player with bad sportsmanship is very unwelcomed.......

Considering getting a VRC membership
but it is so not worth it...
Nah, I'm gonna be playing badminton 6 days a week anyway...
I'll reconsider in 2002.

The Pretzel Addiction
Ah! I got infected by Jenny!
Parmesan Cheese pretzel...
mMMMmm................

Rack of Lamb was goood.....
Mmmm.... wanna have some more...

The ending of 'Mo Yip Lau Mun'
at first everyone thought it was gonna be a happy ending
but in the end, the girl found her husband
the man gave up his love life for work
It's so true what that girl said
'每個人都有唔同0既成就感...'
One chose work, the other chose love
Why didn't it work out like it's supposed to?

I've seen that 眼神 in two people so far
and it's kinda freaky...
do guys like to do that?

~ exhausted

Someone said I'm materialistic after reading my blog.
I wonder if he knows what materialistic means...

Spent 30 minutes making a page I'll be proud of and never have to update
please visit www.geocities.com/rochaitheoriginal if bored.

Being very unreasonable today.
Very very unreasonable.
I don't know why but sometimes
I just don't want to care about anything and do watever.
It wasn't her fault I didn't have a reason to be mad
I meant it as a joke
but 2 seconds after the joke I realized I WAS mad.
So I left.

*smile* becoming like the character in 'Kodomo no Omocha'
><.... love him so much!! Esp the part when he was small
and when he turns into a leopard.... !!!!!!
It's hard to imagine how a kid can live through a life like that....
until he met Sana...

don't understand you anymore
haha but it's about time....
it's alright I'll let go.

Ah..... stomach churning and burning...
I only had one large sip of Pepsi man...
only ONE SIP!!!!!!!!
Stupid useless stomach *pain......*

We did our english writing sample today
and I wrote about my grandmother...
thinking about it made me so sad that I actually had the urge to cry
but of course i didn't....
wish I had better english to translate all my thoughts into my essay....
You're up there grandma...
we'll be seeing you in a couple of twenty years....
doesn't sound that far does it?

Finally.... I'm gonna talk about badminton tryouts
wasn't as fun as I thought
we didn't have birdies and had to use sucky ones
new gym floor was polished and reflecting so I couldn't see the birdie
couldn't see birdie anyway when we were playing cuz of the stupid white wall
the gym was so hot and stuffy and I was tired from school
well.... in my expectations I got in the team
Above my expectations my brother got into the second round of tryouts.
and also, we got a couple of really good players in this year!
Disappointingly, no new really good female players showed up
but from seeing our team now, we have great potential to be in the playoffs at least....
I seriously I want the team to be good......

New vocab invented:
smary [adj] = scary + smart
- if someone is smary, that person is smart in a scary way
for ex. That studying freak over there is so smary!
Right........... hahaha......

Finished my Calculus homework
I'm actually kind of enjoying doing my calc hw...
DAMN I'm turning into a freak!!!! NOoo!!!!!!!!!!!!
anyhow... had a talk with Christine
and now I feel much better...
Now that I'm unstressed...
I'm excited about the badminton tryouts tomorrow..
It's gonna be so fun!!!!!
And this is.... a nice nice day.... hahaha
everything's good.. except for DAMN ALLINA....
He doesn't give a shit for badminton... psh..
he wants us to have a better team.... yea right....
DAMN him.... feel so sorry for Adrian that she married such a wicked husband....
No junior badminton team
sorry buh-bye.
I just wonder how the badminton team will surivive after we leave...
no one will be organizing anything
Allina won't give a shit...
nooo badminton team facing a fatal downfall......

It's funny how much I learnt from Helen...
because she... is just a relection of her.

HAhaha... I feel like laughing out loud
feels so good after talking to Christine.

Why am i watching a cartoon pig sing on TV?
HAHAHAHa..... this is so freaking stupid........

well. All I can think of is the tryouts tomorrow...
and how I'm gonna be dead Friday morning being the only trombone...
ah.............>
There used to be so much to see everywhere..
homepages... net diaries.... everything...
but now everyone's too lazy to update them!!!!
And that means now I have nothing to read...
and this sucks!!!!!

I just realized that when I'm mad like crazy
all I have to do is take a nap
and I'll forget everything and be happy again after that.
But for some people,
even if you forget their wrongs
they don't...

So freakin mad at my dad
the only 2 ppl who can make me cry is
my dad and myself...
fuck...........

Don't ask me to give u guys rides
I dun have my car keys anymore...
fuck....................

I dun even know if I can go to badminton on friday
so dun freakin ask me....
fuck...........!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My room's not my room...
I get no privacy.....
fuck.........

How can he just yell at me to come out from my room
how can he just yell at me IN my room
how can he just yell at me to wake up while I'm sleeping
............... DIU!

Can't everything just pass after one night of sleep.
The answer is no.
WHO'S INCONSIDERATE???????????????????
AHHHHHHHHHHHHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

I want my own space
I want somewhere where I won't be disturbed
I want someone who I can just call to without having to think whether I'll disturb them or not
I'm not wanting too much am I?
I'm not getting what I want..............

I look at myself in the mirror
I keep telling myself repeatedly
'Don't let it drop.........'
but it seemed like the more I do that the more it did...

They're TWO DIFFERNT THINGS
I hate it when people threaten me
You're not letting me go to badminton?
Fine I'll bus there.
I'll just leave and come home whenever I want
is that wat you wanted????? AI............

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Damn the terrorists!!!
what the heck!?
They're killing so many people
it's such a tragedy...
Bush is mad...
US is ready for war...
this is scary..........

It's back to those days again...
one week of school and I'm tired of it
I want badminton team to start
I want to be worry-free
I want to grad....
It's unbelievable how fast I change my mind
It's unbelievable how fast I change from having a good mood to a bad mood too
everything ... .... just pisses me off.

She comes to me when she needs me
she accompanies me when she wants to
she ignores me when I call to her
she runs away when I need her...
and she.... is my dog......... ><......
I'm tired of putting up with her....
yes... this is it.

I'm sorry for being so moody and stingy these days
can't help it...

I think I'm dropping band.
Nah I'm just saying that...
wat can I do with my trombone if I drop band?
Sell it!? but...
it seems to have developed some sort of mutual link with me already,
which made me sad from the thought of selling it.
But why? I almost had to play 3rd cuz Kristine and Robin were playing 1st
so Tim ting had to play 2nd, and from the position Petros was sitting he played 2nd too...
I don't like Kristine or Robin they're (*@&#
Petros and Tomoki are okay but.....
Band sucks. And I just realized that a bit too late.

The mole and the bun
moved from Chem --> Jap
The mole: Ohayou!~
The bun: Baka!

11:11..... I'm seeing it again
but the lucky charm doesn't seem to be working.

I had a dream of Ms. Letourneau last night
she was checking homework,
and I was missing one page,
so I kept flipping my binder
but all I could find were these chinese comic newspaper strips
and she was getting really mad....
freaky dream...................

the keys were lying right there
but they were surrounded by poison ivy,
and that nobody ever bothered to do the work
to discover the hidden door
that led to many of the most precious treasures in the world...

"The chair in the restuarant" theory
I totally agree with it.

At first, the squirrel was scared of everyone crowding in to see it's new home
it was scared that they would break anything and ruin its perfection.
But very soon, others got tired and bored of seeing its home,
and not before long, all of the huge crowd had returned to their homes in the forest.
Now the squirrel is left lonely and uncared of in its sad, little new cottage
hoping that someday, someone would rediscover the beauty of its home.

When will people be tired of my blog?
I was scared by this thought for a sec
but now that I think of it
who cares if no one reads it
this blog is for people who wants to know me
and those people come and go don't they?

I'm coming to realize something...
And this is kinda sad and saddening. ><
Maybe it's my self-consciousness.....

I hate being backup....
for anything....
ANYTHING god damnit..!!!!!!!!!!!!
AI.................

Badminton was alright.
I was so energetic I played like 4 times in a row
but afterwards I felt my energy draining out
still need more endurance....
need food......

I just realized that
there's not much fat in my waist..
all the fat is in my stomach ><......

We got birdies
And I got birdies
and everyone's happy!! ^^

Parmesan Cheese pretzels are always the best...
beats Original!

I can't believe my contact lens expired...
wat a waste of $.

I can feel myself having a bit of abdomen muscles...
maybe it's from the situps. hahaha

selfish is normal
too selfish is bad
way too selfish hurts ppl
and in the end they all come back to you.

I had a weird, weird dream last night
I dreamt that me and a group of people
kept sneaking into this huge house..
and we were trying to fish something from above
and see if the stupid girl in the room would notice it
and one time she did notice
and she called the cops and we got caught..
then it suddenly jumped to this scene where I was looking at pictures
somehow the people in the pictures kept disappearing and reappearing
and it was so weird...
and I saw this sticker picture I took with a group of people...
It was green.. the only person I remember who was in the picture was Shaopin
cuz he made this really weird face...
Yah... I wonder wat the dream means....

Badminton was pretty good today
We did a bit of half court singles and I won every game
but I got so close to losing to this guy...
he had really really tight net shots although he didn't have much tenique..
I was like 'Damn I can't lose to a new guy!!!!! ><' and I won.
I finally realize why I like Morgan better than Calvin
-- because Calvin doesn't seem to care much of me,
but Morgan notices who plays well...
Calvin said he'll move people up and move people down...
I wonder when I can move up.....
He said at least one person in the group will be playing in the national team someday
I'm so sure that will not be me...
but I can't help to think that if I keep working hard and training hard...
maybe one day I can be a champion player too...

Hot pot with Elaine and her family
I don't feel as close to her anymore...
maybe it's because we both didn't speak much...
cuz both of our parents were here...

Couldn't stop myself from reading 'Kodomo no Omocha'
really interesting and cute comic
I duno how the author can come up with such interesting ideas...
for ex.... this mom... has a squirrel living on her head...
it's a cool comic.. and some parts of it made me think
hehe..... I like this comic...

no vocabs today... I'm already tired of it.

I finally finished my chinese RPG game last night
But when I came back most people went offline already
Was it worth it to leave ICQ and go play RPG?
I would've said no but someone interesting was there to talk to
so..... I guess it doesn't matter.
Now I have one less thing to worry about.
I want to turn into the boy in 'Kodomo no Omocha'
he's so uncaring, so rebellious,
but inside he's this weak emotional person...
haha I like him so much!!!
Ah.... now I'm turning from idolizing older people
to liking kids........ not good........ hah

Serendipity..
-the luck some people have in finding interesting/valuable things by chance
Serendipitous
-unplanned event but has a beneficial result
Septuagenarian
- A peron between 70 and 79 yrs. old
Septicaemia
- blood poisoning
Learning four long long words today...
serendipity....

I saw 11:11 again!!!!
Luckiness luckiness
I meant..... luck! haha......

Gotta finish that game tonight
last stage last stage...
I won't lose anyway with that cheat program. haha....

Passing around happiness!
HAppiNEsS!
You know wat u said, Jenny, that the sadness covers the happiness
I think it really depends!!!!!! Today.... nothing can cover my happiness..... hehehe

ROAD RAGE........
Running down ugly people...
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA............
making very sharp right turns almost hitting a car...
HAHAHAHAHAA
that was fun I almost forgot about. hehe....

Can't resist from eating.....
just keep eating, eating and eating
NOooooooooo
School makes me do that
I duno why.
Maybe that's why they say school is evil...
it truely is.......... !!!!!!
The school: MUwaHAHAHAHAHA... *trails on and on...*.....

OH and aside from seeing 11:11,
I just saw 12:12!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Someone's thinking about me!? hahahaha...
Good good day......
happiness just doesn't stop.....
spread it spread it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Kath u got my happiness
and that doubled mine!!!!!!!!!

"hahahah mien..u HAVE goen crazy..hehehe....i think u've read too much beauty and the beast..hehe...now u're like..happy gay.haha"
- Jenny (Lee), that's the most interesting message I've receieved today.
Reading too much Beauty and the Beast makes me happy gay?
AHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAA.................

TRIPLE R....
(Road Rage Roz)....

Bosco - cool name...
Rosco - not so cool name...
Rossy - bad name...................
HAHAhahaa......

Good day good day gooood goooood day!!!
Was late for band.. but it didn't matter
Info tech was so relaxing... didn't even do much
English was easy... reading a fairy tale...
Calculus was not bad.... so used to Letourneau already
lunch was pretty good... the congee sucked but it was fun
Physics was again, relaxing and laughing.... ah....
hanging out after school is nice.... very nice
the horlick drink was a bit too sweet but it's all good...
Falling asleep gave me energy for badminton
even though I was late, we missed the drills!
Out of 4 sets of King of the Court,
I had the highest score in 3 of them.
Single games after training was good.
Morgan style torture.... running and pushups
but surprisingly I wasn't that tired after it.
hehe... played so well today
feeling so happy....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Everything's perfect.....

Interesting song:
"I was gonna clean my room, until I got high
I was gonna get up and find the broom, but then I got high
My room is still messed up, and I know whyyy
Because I got high, because I got high, because I got high

I was gonna goto class before I got high
I could've cheated, and I could've passed, but I got high
I'm taking it next semester, and I know whyy
Because I got high, because I got high, because I got high

I wasn't gonna run from the cops, but I was high
I was gonna pull right over and stop, but I was high
Now I'm a paraplegic and I know whyyy
Cause I got high, because I got high, because I got high"
-Afroman, 'Because I got High'

-非份之想-

so so happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
uncontrollable happiness......
pouring out from my heart...... !!!!!!!!!

It's not even 12 yet
but everyone's gone...
Am I the only one who stays up this late now?
不甘心 to be the only one different...
I can't adapt to grade 12 life, I really cannot...

Indifference!?
- complete lack of interest in something
Indignant..
- shocked or angry because something is unjust
Indolence~
- laziness
Indubitable!!!
- emphasizing that something is definite and cannot be doubted.
Induce--
- to cause
Learning 5 new vocabs today.
This has no special meaning.
They are just words that appeared in p. 858 & 859
of my "Collins Cobuild English Dictionary"....

You see, if I learn 5 new vocabs every night,
by the end of the month,
I would've learnt 125 new vocabs!
Yea right....

I was singing in the showers again, and this song popped up in my head:
"Baby won't you tell me why
there is sadness in your eyes
I don't wanna say goodbye to you
Love is one big illusion
I should try to forget
but there is something left in my head
I won't forget the way you're kissing
the feeling so strong
were lasting for so long
but I'm not the man you're heart is missing
that's why you go away I know..."
- MLTR - That's why you go away
been so long, still so good.

Returning to the place
the place is still the same
I am still the same,
but everything else is different...
I dun feel that I belong there anymore....
>< feeling kinda empty.
Something's missing.

I can see the tiny blood vessels in my eyeballs
and that is not a good sign...
lacking sleep and I have morning band tomorrow..
the good thing is I have badminton! Yes.......!

It's weird that I used to get happy when I see my friends
now I just get moody.
......................... ................. not good.
I have seemed to become more critical after summer
..... whether it's a good change or not... we'll see wat happens...

Is there anything interesting about me?
UH...... how would I know!?
Why don't you tell me?
Who would like themselves so much
to find out wat's interesting about themselves...
That survey sucked.
Chemistry sucked.
Last year was so much more fun.........

新倚天屠龍記
still playing that game and can't finish it
I got to the point where I was so bad
that I kept dying and couldn't win this guy
so I had to download this program which makes me unbeatable....
this sucks.
Why can I never succeed in doing anything? Why?

First day of school wasn't bad
I had friends in all my classes
I get to wake up late tomorrow
I wish everyday of school was like today
we do nothing but listen and talk to friends. ^^

So glad that I took info tech
Slavery's being so nice and lenient
We're learning C++ and Java maybe
everything's cool....
and I still think James looks like Slavery's son. heh

Physics class is so fun!
Both Jenny's, Kathleen, Maggie, Winnie, Kian and Dewi
they're all in my class....
and when I'm with Kathleen in Ms. Adrian's physics class
I can't stop laughing....
Kathleen + physics = uncontrollable laughing....
Kath, we were quiet today!!!
That's a good start. heh.

I picked up so much language from my friends
everything I say, I learnt from someone else
ai... when can I speak myself?

Seeing a disgusting hairy man on TV
sooo nasty....................................
why am I even watching this... ><....
isn't it supposed to be 'The 70's show'?
What the hell is this show...

There HAS to be a badminton team this year...
there HAS to be.... !!!!!!!! *grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr*

In love with this chinese novel
reading this the second time
but it's still really good....
wouldn't it be nice if everything's like that?
Everything that's good can stay that way forever...
it would be so much easier to make choices. heh.

~Summer finale~
To me, today was the last day of summer....

Doing nothing at school
Breakfast @ Macdonalds
late annual signing
going home and going to Richmond
taking pictures and getting food
shopping in Parker
dinner at home
badminton at Dunbar
... me enjoying my day before I have to start working

I was waiting for the birdie,
and when the birdie did come,
I couldn't reach it.........................
-Rochai no 感嘆...

Attracted to people on invisible more than normal online
it's so weird... I just feel like talking to people on invisible more..
Maybe it's the eye....
the single staring eye

"Yat but ngau siu"
weakest link in cantonese version
it's so funny......... hahahahaha
couldn't stop laughing.
But the show's supposed to be serious... heh....

Still couldn't sleep well last night...
I tried not to think I tried everything
but it just didn't work...

Badminton @ Dunbar was fun
I'm seeing more things playing against my partner
and maybe we can work on it...
the thing about doubles is...
you have to assume what you're thinking is what your partner thinks
when the two can think the same...
anything is possible...
My backhand was poor today
kept hitting the birdie out...
or hitting the rim...
not good....

Got so scared by a basket of clothes
It looked like a kneeling corpse...
I know it's impossible but I duno why I got so scared
...... starting to get paranoid.

新倚天屠龍記
super fun.....
how can I get addicted to an RPG game before school starts?
Aiya.... not good...

他他 深深愛著她
他他 永遠的嗎?
他他 送她玫瑰花和吉它
她她 也深愛著他
她她 不變的嗎?
她她 收到的玫瑰花已枯萎了! Mm~ 枯萎了!
他和她 愛很美 浪漫就像玫瑰花
他和她 愛很難 很小心也不一定留得住它
他和她 有時後可怕靜靜地死去它不掙扎不說話!

他他 輕輕吻著她
他他 彈著吉它
他他 最愛摸她的長頭髮
她她 看著那個他
她愛聽他彈吉它
她寂寞的小世界 被他溶化慢慢溶化
她和他 愛的Melody多到擠不下
她和他 人隨時也可能沒有明天 不要害怕
她和他 讓靈魂自由 看見愛與被愛在打架 算了吧!
-> -她 他 徐若瑄
Such a beautiful but sad song...

So excited!
Suddenly everyone came online....
2 hours ago I was still staring at the screen doing nothing
aw Steph... where did you go??

Aha refresh again and now you see this:
the Rochai 100% efficiency. *wink* hah

"I'll try to mail the letter as soon as I remember."
see anything wrong?
-> another sentence that doesn't make sense said by Rochai...

Shao vs Jerry
14-14....
damn I really really wanna watch the end of the match
that stupid mean lady.................. psh....... kicked us out...

Not really fearing school itself....
but fearing time passing so fast and graduation...

I just remembered something that happened last tuesday
while I was driving home from badminton
there was a car in the back alley outside my garage
and it looked very suspicious...
so I was gonna park in the front instead
but there was another car there
when I went back to the alley the car was gone...
I saw the car leaving...
that guy in the car glared at me...
so freakin scary...
be careful......
especially at night......

Ah.. so Tracy is back
but still I feel nothing
*sigh*.....

And Anna is back from HK
gotta return her annual soon
dun wanna carry it all the way to school....

Did you have any interesting dream last night?
Go to www.freakydreams.com and see what it means...
hehe..... cool site.

A headache and then now a stomach ache...

Badminton wasn't as fun as I thought it would be
the last badminton before school starts...
the nice lady wasn't here
and we got kicked out by this not-so-nice lady...
And I dun think I'm ever gonna finish that sick, soft piece of choco-chip cookie...
I wanted to play mix, some singles and more doubles
but NO.... she had to kick us out even though the courts were empty...
I played okay in doubles
but I just totally sucked in the singles box game
I got 0 and Jenny probably had like 10.....
I'm afraid I will just tumble downwards from now on....

Most stupid thing I said:
"The last tray of pretzels... were sent here.... from somewhere.. a very far place.."
haha.... I didn't know wat I was talking about
couldn't organize the words to make a right sentence...

Still keep getting "plunge" and "lunge" mixed up
when I said "plunge Jenny!"
I have this image of her plunging and I can't stop laughing...

I think I'm losing it...
I can't stop once I start laughing
I try to control myself for like 2 seconds
then I start laughing again...
maybe it's because of my headache.....
been sleeping too late these days
and I woke up early today...
my dad forgot to turn off the alarm
and i was waken by this loud, loud noise that I couldn't ignore at like 6AM...
couldn't sleep last night cause I was too excited thinking of our team
I feel like I'm going back to the days when it takes me a long long time before I can fall asleep...
and I hate it....
I really do.

Been doing stupid things all day long
Couldn't open the car door...
I still duno why I couldn't open it,
but I think it had something to do with the lock
Then I accidentally hit the bicycle racks when i opened the car door
I'm sorry Shao, hope I didn't dent your car...
Been laughing about stupid things all day...
can't think straight and can't speak properly...
ahhhhh................

"What Women Wants"
is an okay movie I think
couldn't really concentrate to watch it coz of the headache
but that mysterious old woman smiling part...
that part just totally sucked.

It's really nice to just lie around the house with friends
watch TV and do nothing....
anything can be fun if you're doing it with good friends.
and I liked sitting in the car exploring the streets
heh that was fun.

One more day till school starts
maybe it won't be that bad afterall
at least there's badminton in the first term...
I HOPE there is...............

Reading "Black Jack 2"
it's so weird how the author can turn
an ordinary surgery story into
some story with some kinda deep meaning...
The story about his friendship with a whale
is so sad.... it's so ironic
he refused to save it because he wanted it to leave so it won't be killed
but in the end the whale got killed cuz he refused to save it...
so tragic...

I just wanted to go home for dinner cuz I thought my bro would be away
and I didn't want my dad to have dinner alone...
got so mad when he said
'What's the point of coming back for dinner when you're going out afterwards?'
..................................... so freakin mad....
I didn't even make him hurry....
and he started bringing up old things
I didn't want to argue with him.... ai...

Damn the freakin bus who kept honking at us...
It's just 2 seconds can't he wait? jeez...

I wanted to go to the 'Don't show the elephant' place
but I guess I'll wait till next time.
Tea at Nicco was good...
played big 2 and I kept losing...
but it was nice....

Haven't walked on the streets alone for a while
it feels different
I feel so light
walking home took 15 minutes but it seemed like 5 minutes to me
It feels great to have nothing to worry about... yet......
wish I can stay this way forever *smile*

feel so stupid that I carried my discman
even though it doesn't have any batteries.....

"River, Forest, (high-pitched voice) Blueberry Hill!!!"
--> Rochai watching kids cartoon @ 3:42

Can't sleep well these days
even if Jenny didn't wake me up at 2
I woke at 11 and couldn't sleep well after....
Woke up thinking about badminton
but didn't have any dreams about it...

This session of training finally ended
I think I totally sucked today...
Even though I won that sucky guy... 7-5...
wat the heck I could've beat him 7-0.....
Lost to that long hair dude again
even lost to Andy and Phyllis...
today is so not my day...
I keep thinking if I didn't play Morgan the first game
I would have done better overall
Spaghetti and chicken mixed with water in my stomach
not a very good combination....
Blah... excuses excuses.
I suck.... /_\
And now Morgan's gone and Calvin's back
noooo....
and DAMN I forgot to ask Andy to show me that lifting thing...
only good thing that happened at badminton today:
I got Alex's number... exxcellent.

Sore throat again after singing too much in the showers
my new hobby: singing in the car alone along with the CD I burnt
yah NOW you start thinking I'm weird.

sad, sad, so so sad...

I'm starting to be aware that people actually READ my blog
I mean..... this is just meant to be put here
so my friends know what I'm up to
so they know why I died if I suicide
so they can share my ups and downs
I mean... this is nothing worth reading really...

Very very looking forward to schoolteam games when school starts
but very very not looking forward to school opening
very very looking forward to Japan after grad
but very very not looking forward to graduating...

"其實呢個公仔好似你,
成日將自己收收埋埋,
但係當你開到最後一層
你會發現裡面有一粒糖
可以好甜 ,好甜..."
- from this cantonese drama forgot wat it was
The Russian doll Frank gave me reminded me of that...
hey thanks! Hehe...I love the small.. peanut-like doll inside
I lined it up on my... very messy desk... with the XO doll Warren gave me. hah
and the Tower of.... uh... yea. Haha that was cool too thanks...

Time for some picture taking...
so we can remember our happy faces
b4 we enter grade 12...
b4 we grad...
b4 we all leave... * sob sob sob*...
and maybe that idea was good you know,
bringing a video camera to school and filming the whole grade 12 life everyday
maybe it's not such a bad idea afterall. heh.

"Shanghai Noon"
Pretty good movie I think
it was pretty funny
especially the NG parts...
somehow that scene of Roy farting in the bathtub is stuck in my mind
noooo I'm so................... ahhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Well yea anyway back to the movie
it's pretty good except my friends kept saying the princess is ugly
I think she's okay actually...
yea... that's all....

OW my right arm hurts like hell
just started just now
whyyy.... nooooo...... OW shit....

Scariest moment of the day:
Seeing a huge spider crawling on my leg
I was just gonna scream that moment
but I stayed calm cuz I had friends in my house
haha................................ ha................
so freaked out......

What the hell is wrong....
'Diablo II Trade Hack' keeps popping up every midnight
What the heck? Gotta kill my brother for this.

Since Jenny brought this up:
I don't like reading detective comics because
they freak me out so much
When I was small I read this 奇案 007
and that night I had a nightmare
there was this cartoon King in the middle laughing
and question marks of different colors were flying around him
It was so scary I kept sweating
I woke my maids and got them to be with me till I slept
that was bad memories....